Kyuhyun’s P.O.V

Yes Seobaby, I can hear you.

I can smell the sweet scent of your lily perfume, and I can taste the salty tear drops of Yesung hyung

and Sungmin hyung, hear the heart-breaking prayers of Siwon hyung, sense the over-whelming emotions

of Hankyung hyung, Kibum hyung, Ryewook hyung, Hyukjae hyung, Donghae hyung and Shindong hyung.

I can see the tears many of you try to hide but in vain. My senses are all working well, and I know everything

that is going on here around me, but, there is a reason why I can’t wake up.

My physical body is in a totally different world.

My soul has always been around you guys, around every single one of my Suju hyungs, taking note of

their every step, every tiny action, every sign of sadness… I can just stretch my hand out and touch

everybody. However, every time I reach out my hand to touch you, it will just pass right through your

bodies. It is like my soul and my body are in 2 different worlds. You can only see my physical form,

which is the one of me staring blankly into the ceiling for the past 3 years, but not the spiritual form

of me hanging around you guys. That is another reason why my heartbeat is only half of an ordinary

human’s heartbeat. Only half of me is alive; The other half is almost dead.

Weird huh, how we can be so close, merely centimetres away, yet so far, a world apart?

Have you any idea that right now, that I am caressing your cheeks? Have you even any idea that, for the

past 3 years, I have been kissing you good night? Have you any idea? The answer is obviously no, and that

is what really pains me.

It pains me to see you sad because you think I am not around you; it pains me to see you get thinner and

thinner day by day, week by week, month by month, and year by year; it pains me to see you change so

much, simply because I am not with you.

I really want to wake my physical self up, but it is not working. I can’t wake up until someone shocks

my brain into working again. My physical self is not responding to the spirit’s command simply because

the brain is half-dead. If only some sort of electricity can just so call “flow” through me, I would be awake,

but no sane doctor would do that to a patient in a coma, right?

You know Seobaby, I have always wanted to drop hints that I am still alive, and that I am, and will always

be beside you every second of your life. Do you really think the sight of our engagement ring doesn’t pain

me? No, it pains me. It shoots through my heart like a poisonous arrow. It is so painful that sometimes

even the slightest sight of it makes my heart break. However, that is the only that connects our heart

right now, so I really can’t bear to throw it away, though it brings me great misery and suffering.

I want to wake up for the ELFs, my suju hyungs who have specially come together again for me, and of

course, for you, my baby. But tell me, is there any way I can wake up right now? No, there isn’t. Is there

any way you can stop crying for me right now? No, there isn’t. Is there any way the world shall know that

I am still alive? No, there isn’t.

So how? Seobaby, how can we meet? How can we meet when I am not physically alive? How can we meet

when my body and my spirit are not combined as one? 어떻게?

Dear readers, I am soo sorry for the late update as I was having my End-of-years examination and some other extra lessons going on, and the schedule was hectic. I apologise for such a short update, but because these first few chapters are just an intro to the events later, so they will be rather short. 미안 해요!