The music buzzed through the headphones and filled my thought with it's sweet melody. My eyes fluttered shut as I tried to listen closer to the lyrics. Emotions consumed me and I slumped on the couch,a faint smile showed on my face. 

After the end of my heartbreaking relaionship, this was the first time I was listening to Exo's songs. What can I say, they were simply addictive.

Memories of him flooded back in my mind and the image of his hugs and kisses replayed on and on. I no longer felt any anger, or hatred  towards him- no, I knew that we were not meant to be. If we were, we would've made it through anything, through thick or thin and through ice or fire. 

I'd accepted reality, though it may have taken a while- I was finally in a place where I was happy being single. Being independent and strong. 

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MAMA Award  03/17/2015

It's almost a year now. I still remember the time we first shared our first kiss, our first confession, when our snearky glances had turned into something more and how it had all begun here. I smiled at the water filler that still stood in the corner and wonderd whether it worked now. 

Unconciously I walked towards it and found myself trying to reach for a plastic cup. The atmoshpere was meloncholoy but I couldn't help myself but giggle when I discovered that the refiller was jammed. Rememebring what I'd done a year ago, I slowly gave the machine a kick and lighly shook the water holder in the attmpt to get it working.

Failing miserably I decided to wander around some more. I found myself walking towards the staircase exit- the place where my heart felt like it'd explode into a million pieces for the first time.

For some foolishly reason, I secretly hoped to open the door and find him on the other side. Exo were here this year too ofcourse, receiving the 'Best Male group' awards for the 3rd year in a row. But I was brought back to reality as I found myself, all alone... facing the wall where he'd abruptly stolen a peck from my lips. 

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As I stood up, clapping in applause  over Taeyang's well deserved win for 'Eyes, Nose, Lips' he caught my eyes. I divered my eyes instantly and didn't dare look