Do you ever look back on your life and think, how many crushes have I had? How many people have intoxicated your thoughts, clouded your mind and left you in a haze. How many people have made your face go red at just the mere sight of them. How many people have you dreamt of having their lips against yours. 

Maybe it's 16? Or even just one single person who has made you feel this. Whatever the number, we all experience it in the same way. 

It starts with the shy glances, the accidental eye contact. Then maybe you push yourself and talk to them. Or maybe you stay where you are, in the background of this person life, just simply watching. 

Love. It pushes the boundaries of our thoughts. It clouds our minds and makes us believe in things that don't exist. 

Taeyeon had never quite understood the concept of a crush. Nor the concept of homouality. Ever since she was in preschool Taeyeon could remember liking guys. Like Kim Jonghyun, the dino faced boy who would sit in the corner and play with lego blocks all day. Taeyeon would constantly move to sit next to him, asking if she too could play with the lego blocks. Everytime Taeyeon got near the boy he would start crying. Although Taeyeon's crush for the boy remained strong all the way through preschool, she decided it was a waste of time when everyone started to play 'families' and getting fake married and Jonghyun refused to marry her, even when she got on her own knees a