Hyun Joo's POV

I quickly went to CNBLUE's dorm to search for something.since they have a schedule so it is easier for me to search.I went to Yong oppa's room and opened his secret drawer.damn! it is locked.after a few tried I fianlly got to open it.oppa has always told me to never ever open this drawer but I think there is something important in here.

I found a big box.I cleaned it and opened it.there were a few letters,pictures and a photo album.I picked one picture up and it was the same as appa has in his office.why does oppa has it?there was a lot of picture of me,oppa,umma and another man.who is this man?is he my dad?I found one letter and it was written from umma

Yonghwa-ah

this is umma

I am sending to u this letter before I go.

I am going anytime now 

umma has a favour,please take care of Hyun Joo

don't let her be sad or hurt

please,this is umma's wish

and don't tell Hyun Joo that Lee Soo Man is ur dad

please,he doesn't deserve to have both of u after what he did

please don't let her be near that involve anything with that jerk.

saraghae Yonghwa-ah

a tear landed down my face while reading the letter.how can oppa not tell me? why? I have been searching appa for years and he acts like he doesn't know.I heard the door open.I quickly put the box back in the drawer and went to the kitchen and act as usual.

"what are u doing here?" Yonghwa oppa asked

"I was just getting some things.annyeong oppa" I left the dorm

I just sat on my bed staring at the pictures.why? why wouldn't oppa tell me?! suddenl some knocked on my door.it was Minyoung unnie.

"Hyun Joo-ah,appa said he wants to see u at the office.didn't u went to see him this morning?" Minyoung unnie eyed me suspiciously

"I forgot" I smiled

I grabbed my bags and made way to SM.I knocked on the door and saw Yong oppa and appa.Yong oppa told me to sit beside him.

"u know already right?" oppa looked at me

"neh?" I was surprised

"u opened the drawer and looked in the box right?" oppa continued to question me

"neh" I hung my head low.

"this is not all my fault.u knew who our father is but U won't tell me.I searched for appa for years and still wondering who he is but he has been in front of my eyes all this while?! why oppa?! why?!" I almost shouted

oppa was silent for a minute.apppa spoke up

"mianhe Hyun Joo-ah.for neglecting u and Yonghwa for years and left u with umma.I am a fail dad.I should be ashamed to meet u.chinja mianhe" appa hung his head low

I looked at oppa and appa with much disgrace.they have fooled me for years.I was most dissapointed with Yonghwa oppa.I just can't believe this is happening.a tear rolled down my face.

"I don't know what to do" I said and left the room

I didn't know where to go so I went to SHINee's dorm and searched for Key oppa.thank god he was the only one in the dorm.

"what happened?" oppa looked worried

"just don't ask" I said between sobs.

I layed on his lap and tried to calm myself.oppa storked my hair to calm me down.my tears won't stop from falling cuz of this betrayal.the next morning I found myself in Key oppa's bed.I remembered what happened last night.

"I'm going oppa" I grabbed my bag

"have some breakfast" Key oppa pulled my hand

I can't fight Key oppa when he is in his umma mode.I ate breakfast with the other SHINee members.when I went back to the dorm I was greeted with an angry manager oppas.I think I didn't even remember what oppa said.we rushed to Inkigayo after the long scolding.

"I'm going to the cafeteria to buy some food" I grabbed my wallet.

while I was walking I bumped into someone.it was Yonghwa oppa.I just looked at him with a cold face and expressionless eyes.oppa looked surprised at the new me.I brushed my shoulders against oppa's and went to the cafe.I ate my bread while looking outside at the long line of fans.

"Hyun Joo-ah" someone called me

I looked up and saw Hyunseong oppa.Boyfriend is making a comeback today.I smiled to oppa and offered him a seat.

"I heard" Hyunseong oppa suddenly said

"heard? bout what?" I asked

"u know about u and Lee Soo Man" Hyunseong oppa took a sip of my drink

"how did u know that?" my eyes went wide

"I have my eyes" oppa smirked

I just let it be.he is my best friend anyways.I put my head on the table and tried to close my eyes.hoping that when I open my eyes everything will turn back to usual.I opened my eyes again and I knew it was reality.

"come on" Hyunseong oppa grabbed my hand

oppa took me to the rooftop.it has a really pretty sight.I felt a little bit calm up there.

"if I am stressed I always come here" Hyunseong oppa said

I just gave oppa a slight nod.I looked at my watch and it was almost show time.we rushed to our waiting room.after the show,SM threw a party.not a little one.they invited all artists from different company.almost everyone in the industry was there.from idols to top actors and actresses.the reason for this party is because it is SM's 20th anniversary.

"baby~" Channie oppa hugged me from the back

I smiled at oppa and kissed his cheek.oppa kissed my cheek back.Channie oppa asked me for a dance.

"may I take this dance?" Hyunseong oppa came

I nodded.then I changed to Taemin oppa,Yoseob oppa and lastly Key oppa.Yoseob oppa wanted to slow dance with Janey unnie.Key oppa put his hands on my waist while I put mine's on his shoulders.

"u ok?" Key oppa started the conversation

"yeah" I nodded

"I will always be there if u need a shoulder to cry on" oppa smiled widely

"komawo oppa.for being for me" I hugged oppa and rested my head his shoulders

after a while slow dancing with Key oppa I took a rest.

"unnie,let's dance.it is our fave song" I said

the DJ was playing LMFAO - Party Rock Anthem.we all held hands and made way to the middle of the dance floor and danced crazily.soon the other artists joined us.appa went on stage to give some speech.I was too angry to even listen.since we were sitting in the back I played with my phone and didn't pay attention at all!suddenly the spotlight was on me and everyone was looking at me like I was a muderer

"what's wrong?" I asked Minyoung unnie

unnie just looked at me.I realized the other spotlight was at Yong oppa.what the hell is going on?! appa came down the stage and hugged me. I was like 'what the hell?! the whole time.appa broke the hug.

"what is going on?" I asked

"mianhe Hyun Joo-ah.I have been a bad father to u and Yonghwa.I left u and ur mom when u were little.jeongmal mianhe" appa's face was full of sincerety,

I can't believe I am hearing this for the second time.Yong oppa approached me and hugged me too.I pushed oppa away and looked at them.

"I can't believe u are doing this to me.why did u hide it for 16 FREAKING YEARS?!" I shouted

"UR GOING TO WAIT FOR ME TO FIND IT MYSELF?! SERIOUSLY?!" I shouted at Yong oppa

"calm down Hyun Joo" Jonghyun oppa(CNBLUE) held my hand but I shrugged it off.

"I'm dissapointed in u oppa.I believed in u for my whole life that our dad was dead but no~!u decided to lie to me" I said angrily

I walked out of the party and I heard a few footsteps following from behind but I was too angry to look behind.I didn't know where I was watching.I was just walking without no directions.

"HYUN JOO-AH!~!!!" someone shouted to me

I turned around and saw a big fast car heading towards me.the car kept horning while people kept shouting to move away.I was standing in the middle of a busy road.the next thing I knew was everything was pitch black.

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