" that will be 1.150 yen "

I said lazily as i took the cash from the customer putting the best fake smile i can master and wishing  him a good night
it's going to snow , i thought looking outside the window , looking at people passing by the shop was my odd hubby to kill time whenever the business was slow , it was kinda fun , how they always seemed too busy to look around and realize what they have or what they were missing 
i sighed hugging my arms and rubbing them to feel warmer a bit , the old man couldn't afford buying a new heater , and the old one was making a miserable  effort to heat up the place , i'm going to get sick because of his selfishness , gosh i hate him .

'ding'

" welcome "

i said in my usual tune , without even bothering to look at the person who entered , feeling too tired and cold 

"   a pack of cigarette "

he said with a husky sleepy voice , i couldn't help but look at him , in front of me stood , a very handsome guy , the guy can seriously be a model if he was taller a bit , but his muscles well built body made up for his height, he had this masculine dark around him  that almost made my knees goes weak , he ached a brow and cleared his throat with a smirk , i felt my cheeks burn when i  realized that i stared for too long , i moved back nervously  and got him his pack of cigarette 

" t-that would be 2.500 yen "

" here you go " 

he said handing me the money and purposely made our fingers contact , making me jolt my hand back with a blush 
he smiled at me before taking a cigarette out of the box and lighting it 

" it's going to snow " 

he said , the smell of cigarette that i usually didn't like filling my nostrils , and i just nodded stupidly , as i dumbly looked at his perfect figure , how his leather jacket hugged his well muscled arms , and how his black jeans made his full legs even ier , He took the cigarette out of his mouth. He exhaled. A big cloud of smoke filled the place , he looked outside before taking his guitar which i didn't notice at first , on his shoulder and making his way out 

" bye , kibummie " 

he said looking at my name tug , making my heart skip a beat , a shiver run down my body as the cold air entered the shop when he left , i rubbed my arms again before returning to watch the view 

strange , handsome , but strange guy 

" no kibum your outfit does not match the concept you have to try again , oh gosh she have no idea how much she pisses me off "

i said mimicking the teacher who just scolded me , making my childhood friend chuckle lightly

" oh come on bummie , you know she means no harm , she prefer you over the whole class "

he just  said to me as he took a sit in some coffee shop , 

" i know hyun , it's just frustrating "

i said taking a sit next to him 

" working late is what's stressing you kibum , you need to have a little fun " 

woohyun answered  smirking a bit at me ,and i knew this won't end up good

" oh no , you will not convince me to do anything this time hyun , i'm so sick of your lame stupid parties " 

" come on bummie , you're just so innocent and boring , you need to have some fun , you are 22 and still a freaking virg..."

" i cannot believe you were just going to say that out loud "

i said holding his hand while looking around , but the bastard just moved his tongue around  making me move it away

" gross , you're a dog i swear "

" a very cute puppy , yes i'am baby "

i scoffed at his lame joke , and he pouted at my gesture 

" just this one time bummie hmm , i'm with you nothing bad can happen " 

i sighed rubbing my face with my hands 

"okay okay , just stop making that face "

he pouted more 

" admit it i'm just too cute for you to resist "

i scoffed 

" you mean annoying "

whoohyun just smiled and ruffled his hair a bit

" so , there's this party lee joon is making and he said it won't be too noisy , so i thought why not take you with me "

i shrugged my shoulders as i made my way to order

the party was everything but not too noisy , i made my way inside with woohyun , the smell of sweat and mixed with perfume filled my nostrils, my vision felt blurry when i was finely inside , people were rubbing and dancing against each other , the music was too loud for me to hundle , i cannot even understand how they call this partying 

i stupidly agreed to wear the clothes woohyun prepared to me , wanting me to fit his 'manly' style by wearing y revealing clothes , the black leather jeans were too tight and i can barely walk , and my shirt was so thin and ripped in all the wrong places if you ask me , it feel on one of my shoulders making it show more skin to the view , i just snorted when a guy made his way toward me , slapping my cheeks 

" hello cutie " 

i just glared at him and moved his hands , turning around to tell woohyun to move the guy away before i kill him with my own hands , to find out that he as usual disappeared 
sighing , i made my way out of the house deciding to just leave this place and kill woohyun for doing this to me , he even made me look like a , stupid dog , wearing my coat , i finely find my way out 

"ahh  fresh air "

how can people handle this , it's too suffocating  

"you must be the party kind of guy "

i turned around the moment i heard that same husky voice that i've heard days ago , the mysterious guy was there a cigarette between his long fingers leaning against a wall, one leg bent at the knee to rest his foot against the wall , he looked at me with a  little smile on his face , he was wearing a black tee-shirt that made his hand muscles , and well toned chest appear even more ,  he chuckled and i blushed knowing that i stared for too long without even saying anything
i just blinked back at him 

" i'm jonghyun by the way "

and i only as always stared at his face dumbly ,  he must think i'm retarded or something, he stared back at me , before looking away 

" usually people tell their name when someone introduce themselves you know "

" w-well you know mine "

i cursed under my breath for shuttering in front of the beast , his eyes met mine, and he grinned at me 

" so you do remember me "

i just nodded and put my hands around my scarf trying to feel a bit warmer , damn you woohyun and your stupid shirt 
the stranger walked toward me with a stupid grin on his face 

" you look good "

he said eyeing me ,and i just mumbled a thank you , blushing ; why the hell  do i blush whenever i see this guy , it's not like i'm a 14 year old school girl , stupid body

" since we are both bored , let's get out of here "

i nodded right away and followed him , taking glances in his way every now and then 

" so why are you here if you hate partying this much "

" i .. my stupid friend drugged me here and disappeared the moment we were inside "

" such a good friend "

he said laughing a bit , and i decided that i liked to hear his laugh 

we were already out of joon's house and walking around Seoul's street 

" yeah , i will kill him later "

" naah , you're too innocent for that "

he said ruffling my hear and i blushed at the gesture ,

" you don't know me , i'm quit evil" 

i said looking anywhere but him when  he just  stared at me and it made my blush darker , he stopped walking all of a sudden , making me stop , still staring at my face , and moved closer toward me , his hands in his pocket  , making me take a step back and blink stupidly at him

" is-is there something wrong " 

i knew that by now my face was too red and flushed for my own sake , it was frustrating , his face was so close to mine that i can even feel his hot breath against my skin , why the hell was i blushing 

" you're just so .. pretty "

he said casually before walking again , i stood there for good few seconds before running after him , smiling at the compliment 

" ahh tteokbokie  " 

he gasped cutely running toward the tteokbokie restaurant as quickly as he can , and i just followed behind ,

" give me 4 ahjummah " 

we ate silently , i looked at him as he smiled to himself , and his cuteness made me chuckle

" why are you laughing ? "

" you are strangely cute "

i admitted looking at my uneaten tteokbeokie ,  

" yeah? well the eyeliner suit you " 

i blinked at him 

" you only saw me like once I must remind you "

but he just ignored me and kept eating his food humming to himself 

i was surprised when a hamlet was thrown in my way , i Caught it and looked at jonghyun 

" let's go "

i looked at him as he sat on his vehicle smiling in my way , and i arched a brow  and answered carefully , biting my lower lip nervously 

" where to ? "

he just shrugged his shoulders 

" just around the streets "

" i ...i don't know you "

" I can assure that i'm not a serial killer "

i only huffed at his comment , that's something a serial killer would say , i hesitated and looked between jonghyun and his  motorbike , well woohyun and dongwoon always mocked me for not doing anything risky or fun , and he seem  descent enough for me to trust , sighing , i put the hamlet on my head before taking small steps toward him 

" hop on pretty boy "

i shyly grabbed jonghyun's tee-shirt as i sat behind him , my grab tightened when he started the vehicle  and i pressed my body harder against his,  the simple contact make the blood in my veins rush faster , and my heart pound harder , i tried to relax and laid my head on his back , he looked around and our eyes met , and i can feel he was smiling at me , i just lowered my head and closed my eyes , his perfume smelled musky and masculine , it was a smell that i could get used to it 
the road was over when we reached a luxurious looking building ,  i clumsily get off the bike and he gently held my arm so i wouldn't fall , taking off his hamlet , i hand it to him , he stood next to me , i bet my lower lip nervously 

" thanks for the ride ... i-i will be heading home now " 

i said without even looking at him , deciding to take my leave and not risking being next to him more than that , taking some steps ,  i felt his firm hand stop me and turn me around gently 
he hesitated a bit before saying casually 

" do,you want to ... have a drink ? "

and i couldn't even look at him , choosing the floor to look at while my bangs covered my face, my heart was pounding crazily against my chest , i felt his hand reach for my chin  and making me slowly look his way 

"stop doing that "

"d-doing what "

i said not daring to look at him

" you should not hide that beautiful face of yours every time you're embarrassed kibum-ah"

his left hand reached for my hand and he grabbed it , dragging me with him to wherever he was heading , and i couldn't do anything but walk closely beside him , his hands felt warm against my cold one , i was too small compared to him , too helpless

" woah "

his apartment was as luxurious and modern  as i imagined it to be , i looked around the place , it was beautiful , it had that cozy feeling that made you feel at home , the walls were creamy , the furnitures were white , and there was a very huge tv screen 

 " you look like a child like that "

i pouted and sat down on one of the sofas , feeling a bit uneasy as he stared at me 

" well i'm not the kind of person who would always have a chance to enter such a nice looking house you know " 

i said dazzled , and it only made him chuckle more , he walked to the kitchen and came back  with a two glasses of wine , handing me one of them and sitting down next to me 

" so , why did you bring me here ?"

i asked after mastering some courage , not daring to search for his eyes

" isn't that obvious "

his big hands took my glass and put it on the table next to me , and my heart stopped beating for a second when  he moved closer , circling my face with his warm hands and making me look at him 

" you are so beautiful kibum "

he whispered huskily in my ear nibbling on it , a soft moan left my lips and it made him harder on my neck , nibbling it and kissing his way toward my lips , stopping suddenly , he looked at me in the eyes and said seriously 

" do you want to do this   "

i felt my breath hitch in a second , tears run down my face , and he kissed them away shushing me

" i'm sorry ii-if you don't want to do this i can stop "

do i want to do this ? 
i really don't know , but why is my body longing for him , wanting him to touch every single part of me , why do i feel so over whelmed , why does the look he is giving me right now making my heart beat faster , i bit my lip and nodded my head slowly 

" but .. i don't know how ... i mean "

i said blushing and his eyes winded , moving away a bit , but i stopped him from going farther

" i want this  .. i really do .. just be gentle "

he looked uneasy and a bit guilty , sighing i pushed him down and captured his lips with mine , smirking when i felt him tense 

" just be gentle "

i said between kisses , and he smiled into the kiss , nodding his head 
he kissed every part of my face until he reached my mouth 

" i will kibummie , you are so beautiful " 

the sound of his deep voice talking over the phone and the lost of warmth when he stood up woke me up , i looked around , strangely happy , yet feeling a bit tipsy , slowly remembering what happened last night , trying to sit up , i remembered that i was , so i laid back and covered my whole body , letting out a yelp when he turned and looked at me 
he was topless , wearing a simple short , his brown locks where messy ,  standing next to the bedroom window , a very big one that you can see Seoul whole from it 

" mourning sunshine "

i closed my eyes when he addressed me , trying to pretend that i was still sleeping , i heard him taking slow steps toward me , making my heart race with every step 
i felt him sitting on the bed next to me , then moving toward me , he didn't say anything , and that made me slowly open my eyes , to meet his gaze , his face was so close to mine that i can feel his breath against my lips , i jerked a bit , tears already in my eyes , he just blinked and smiled a bit , ruffling my hair

" why are you crying ?" 

he asked , his concerned look made me feel weirdly warm , i took the blanket and covered my head 

" i'm embarrassed "

i said so lowly that i thought he wouldn't hear me , but then he laughed , 

" stop laughing " 

i whined from under the covers , and he grabbed them making only my face show up , before leaning in and kissing my forehead 

"  there's nothing to be ashamed of , kibum-ah , i thought you were in pain " 

i quickly shooked my head , he was gentle with me , i must admit , 
but what kept bugging me , is , now what , do i just have to go , and just keep thinking about this like if it was a dream ? 
yeah , i have to do that , i can't just lay there and pretend that i meant something to him , when i don't 

" um , can you hand me my clothes ? " 

" why where are you going , it's still early " 

he said standing up and yet looking around for my clothes , before picking them up and putting them on my bed 

" just keep laying there until you feel better okay ?"

i nodded slowly and looked at him , how amazing he looked , how i should be thankful that i lost , my precious , first time with him , even though i wanted it to be with the person i love 
sighing , i grabbed my clothes once he was outside of the room and dressed up as quickly as i can 
i walked out of the room , looking for him to say my goodbye , but then i heard him talking on the phone 

" yeah don't worry i ate, love " 
love ? 

" you know the usual i just spent the night working , i miss you just comeback already , isn't it cold in new york anyways "

i moved away , he was talking to his lover , i felt bad for over hearing , walking away i decided to go without giving him my farewells , not that he cared anyways 

i was after all just a replacement since his lover wasn't here