I layed on my bed exhausted from 

 

today. I love Korea, Seoul but I really 

 

missed China alot. I missed my mom

 

and my father, and my little brother too.

 

I met so many nice people like Chen, 

 

Lay, Luhan, Xiumin, and Kris.......

 

-Oh Kris, with his strong muscles and

 

his compassion and those soft pink lips-

 

Ugh, Zitao what are you thinking? You like

 

girls not boys. I ran my hand through my 

 

hair and sighed heavily.  -I can't live like 

 

this, on constant deny , why is life so 

 

hard ?-  Everything became blurry as tears

 

streamed down my cheeks. I wiped the 

 

tears away and winced softly as my eyes 

 

began to sting.  I sighed loudly and got 

 

up. "I need to take a walk, that will make 

 

me feel better." I got dresses and walked 

 

out my apt.

 

    The streets were dark and empty. The 

 

chilly fall winds harshly blew against me 

 

making me wish I had brought my coat

 

with me. My shadow bent across the 

 

floors and walls. I stopped as I heard 

 

steps in sync with mine.  I turned around 

 

and saw no one. I sped up my pace and 

 

the footsteps grew louder and louder.

 

My mind went blank, the steps grew 

 

louder and louder. I turned the corner and

 

leaned against wall, out of breath. My 

 

chest hurt and trickles of sweat poured 

 

down my face. I looked back to see a cat

 

walking towards me. "A cat? I was scared 

 

of a cat?" I chuckled and bent down to 

 

pet the stray, watching as it purred and 

 

rubbed his head in my hand. I smiled 

 

and got up. I turned around and screamed 

as a huge figure dressed in black towered 

over me. "K-Kris, what the hell man, you

 

scared me half to death. "  I watched as he

 

smiled, his pearly white shining through 

 

the pitch black night. "Tao, I have to tell 

 

you something." His eyes shifted back 

 

and forth and a worried expression 

 

contorted on his face. I couldn't stop my

 

self from extending my arm and softly 

 

grabbing his firm muscles. Even though

 

he wore a baggy hoodie, I could still see

 

the outline of his muscles. I bit my lip

 

and trailed my finger down his arm. I

 

smiled as I felt him slightly shiver against 

 

my touch. -Tao what you doing? Stop.....

 

You know you like it........no I really don't-

 

"Tao, Before I met you my life was terrible

 

But now that I know you, I'm finally happy

 

You make me smile and everytime I see 

 

you my heart races. I guess what I'm 

 

trying to say is that....I like you alot...."

 

My eyes shot open and my mouth opened

 

"Ew what is wrong with you that's really..

 

disgusting. You...You..freak." I pushed 

 

him, causing him to fall."  I ran away, and 

 

didn't look back to see of he was 

 

following me. I ran up my stairs and 

 

slammed the door to my apt. I fell on the

 

floor as tears poured out of me. -What is

 

wrong with me, am I a freak.....No I'm

 

not....yes I am. I can't deny it any longer 

 

I love Kris too....."

 

I ran through the familiar dark streets 

 

destined to find Kris. I stopped as I 

 

reached his building. I dragged my tired

 

legs up the endless flights of stairs until 

 

I reached his door and began my knock.

 

My knuckles began to sting as it hit the

 

huge steel door. My brows furrowed as I 

 

turned the knob and found the apartment 

 

open. My throat burned as I let out a high

 

pitch scream. I ran to the middle of the 

 

living room and touched his limp body.

 

His blood began to soak into the pure 

 

white carpet. "Omo Kris....WU YI FAN, get 

 

up you can't leave me, Kris I love you...."

 

I wrapped my arms around him and 

 

kissed his forehead. His lifeless like eyes

 

stared back at me. I felt more tears pour

 

from me, staining my shirt. I picked up the

 

blood stained note that laid on the floor 

 

And read it. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

         Dear Zitao,

 

 

           I'm sorry Tao, I couldn't live in a 

world where we could never be together 

You think I'm a freak anyway, Without 

You I'm nothing, but remember no matter

What I will always love you-

 

      

 

                                    -Kris-

 

 

  Tears clung to my already red eyes.

 

I bent down and picked up the gun from

 

His hand and pressed it against my skull

 

"I guess now we can finally be together" 

     

 

                          -The End-