We arrive at 63 building and I ask him to wait me till I reach 60th floor. Actually if there’s no camera around me, I’ll cry a river. But like Nichkhun said before, we have to smile even though it’s our last time as a ‘fake’couple. As I reach 60th floor, I keep questioning myself, what is he thinking now??  think bout me?? Does he cry?? Ahhh I must be crazy..

Ommo, he almost reaches here while I keep holding love letters I made before at my dorm. Cold sweat covers my face now, and ‘ting…’ the elevator opens right before my eyes and the first thing I can see is his bitter smile and confused looking make me ever more nervous. I show him my last words too cuz I think I can’t say those words but cry, at first I don’t know what should I write for him. One by one I flip it, he reads it and my last words is ‘so, Nichkhun-ssi it’s ok to cry too’ but he does’t cry at all, of course he’s a man and he won’t cry in front of me. Then he spreads his arms then hugs me really tight like unusual. I feel so warm in his embrace and I can tell the way he hugs me is really different he caresses my head.

he usually hugs by my waist but now it’s like a hug full of promise, uhhh am I crazy?? 

We hug very long till our PD gives signal ‘ehmm ehmm’ and we pull apart.

 “can I save these??” he asks me while hugging my love letters. “eunggg” shortly I reply him.OMG, 15 minutes more we’ll divorce and I don’t want it happen. But what can we do?? Finally I give up, I can’t hold back my tears. With my shaking voice and tears drop on my cheeks I thank him for being with me, for taking care of me and for everything he did to me. He nods lightly and… again n again his gaze like trying to tell something but I can’t guess it. What’s wrong with his gaze today?? I swear he’s trying to tell me something by his gaze, he even bites his glass maybe to control his emotion, maybe. Until he breaks my daydreaming again.

“I…. will always be by urside, understand??” he asks me, but I just nod and try not to cry again.

I think I should