I think I’ll cry after filming ends, yeahhh it’s our last night as Khuntoria bubu (bubu = couple). On the phone he said he’s waiting for me at the back door my company. I check my face at mirror and dug dug dug my heart beats so fast.

“ommo, eottoke my eyes are bit swollen. How can I face him if I’m like this, I cried just now”

I walk to the back door then find him standing there and wave his hand at me with his angelic smile on his lips.

“annyeong haseyo..” we greet each other.

“u cried right?” he askes me. “aniyo.. I didn’t cried” I tell a lie but he notices me, good thing I can’t lie in front of him.

“u cried too right??” I ask him back. “no I didn’t cry, I’m a man” he replies me.

“who says men can’t cry? God allows them to cry..”

“ok u win, I cried a bit. Satisfy???” he smiles at me and I give him a fake smile.

A bit?? He said a bit?? Doesn’t he know I cried for many hours today?? But he said he cried a bit?? Uhhh I’ll hate ‘a bit’ words from now. Doesn’t he like me like I do?? I guess, no.

When we’re on the way a silent and awkward situation fills between us unlike usual, is it because of our last day become Khuntoria bubu?? No single word come out from my mouth till he breaks the silent with his aegyeo (act cute).

“aaaaaaaang” his aegyeo slaps my daydreaming. And as usual,  why he likes massaging my arms and my shoulders huh?? Is it becuz of I’m fat?? Noooooooooo I’m not that fat

“aaaaaaaaang” like a kid I do the same, honestly I really wanna cry like a 3 years old kid. But it’ll ruin my image as a Charismatic leader of F(x). ‘andweeeeeeeeeeeeeeee’ I think.

“where do u wanna go??” he asks me curiously. “63 building” I answer shortly. “call..!!!”

Before we cross the road he suddenly stands in front of me as he fixes my bangs

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Ohhh I’ll be missing his habit to fix my bang. After he fixes my bangs he stares at me, I don’t know why but his gaze today is a bit different. It’s like trying to tell me something but he can’t say when cameras still surrounding us like this. He holds my hand and we cross the road.

“the weather is so nice, it doesn’t fit if we cry today.” He looks up to the night sky.

“no, I won’t cry today. I’ll smile all the time” but I really wanna cry Nichkhun-ssi.

The way he holds my hand today also different, he holds my hand a bit tighter. And once again, it because of our last day become Khuntoria bubu?? I wish he would hold my hand till the rest of our life. I hold him back a bit tighter. I really don’t wanna let his hand forever. My hands will feel emptiness.

“why I should close my eyes Nichkhun-ssi??” he covers my eyes with his hand, but he doesn’t answer me.

We walk through the stairs and arrive to the place where he has a surprise. I hope it’s not worse than surprise he had before. So silly, Khun ^,^ but I like this side of