~Never Forget Me~
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This is a late thing, but whatever. I sound so mean!! But I am off to Seoul tomorrow morning!! I will be not as active on AFF (I'm so sorry about the Hello Appa thingy! I got a few PM's that people are waiting for the next chpt) I MIGHT post the chapter that I am still typing before I leave...soooo yeah... Bye bye~~
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TOP POV~
I looked down at my interlaced hands as I sat in the hospital bed inside the dead silent room. The younger members sat on the four chairs next to me; either looking down or having a deep thought with them. Their sadness in their eyes caused me to feel guilty inside wanting to embrace them tightly in my arms one last time. I tried not thinking about that; instead I looked down at my left hand that was layered by my engagement ring on my finger.
I was getting married…in a couple days; every thought came to mind thinking if I’d come out the hospital with a smile on my face ready to marry the woman- the love of my life, or just fall into my death here. Should I call off the wedding? Or tell her? It would be wrong to lie to her… Many thoughts came to mind as I stared at the blank white-crème colored walls.
I bit my bottom lip in desperation on what to do; I looked up at the members and opened my mouth. “Seungri-ah, call Mina for me” I said breaking the cold silence of the room; all the members shot their heads up looking at me.
“Wae, hyung?” Seungri asked a little nervously as I could tell he was slightly confused.
“I need to tell her already, I can’t be hiding the truth any longer. I don’t want to die with a dark lie that I’ve hidden for so long” I said as I already felt water brim up on my eyes. “I don’t want to do that” I felt my deep voice crack a bit, but I didn’t care at all.
“Hyung, why can’t you just not tell her, your wedding is coming up already and you don’t want her to be upset on your day” Seungri tried again as I shook my head once more.
“No; I can’t do that” I responded not wanting to give a long lecture to the poor young kid who has deep bags under his eyes from crying earlier.
“Hyung, please just don’t tell her”
“I’m going to, Jiyong just give me your phone” I demanded; I don’t remember much of her number that’s why I couldn’t use the hospital phone in the first place. As Ji reached in his back pocket then swiped out his cell phone trying to turn it on, but wouldn’t. He continued clicking on it, but no avail.
“My phone died” he said quietly before putting it back in his pocket. Seungri continued talking not wanting to go back into the terrible silence.
“Don’t do this to Mina noona-“ I was fed up now; why doesn’t he do stuff without making things so difficult for others?!
“Why can’t you ever listen to me, damn it?!” I growled as a tear went down my cheek; at this state of Seungri’s expression he was scared at this point. The members eyes widen slightly at my response, but being very impatient like I am; I couldn’t take it and I was very frustrated at the same time. Seungri scrambled to get his phone out and touched the screen before holding it to his ear.
“Annyeong, noona…hyung w-wants to talk to you..” Seungri said before handing me the phone as my hand shook as I held it to my ear.
Mina POV~
I was in the middle of washing dishes from the family meal my family and I shared. It was a long time being in my hometown so I wanted to visit them for the weekend before my wedding where I’d become Mrs. Choi as what my umma always said.
I then heard my older brother jog into the kitchen with my phone in his hands. How many times did I tell him to get out of my room? I thought as I turned off the water as he stood in front of me.
“Seungri-ssi is calling?” he asked somewhat uncertain, yet a little confused at the same time. I went and dried my hands before taking the beeping device and pressing the green button.
(Dark Green is Seungri and Purple is Mina then TOP is Dark Blue)
Yeoboysayo?
Yeobosayo, annyeong noona…h-hyung wants to talk to you… Seungri said in a scared tone. I heard the phone shuffle along with a soft sigh.
Yeobosayo, jagi
Neh, yeobosayo, oppa…what’s going on? I heard little sniffles on the other line as my brows slightly furrowed of confusion
I-I need to tell you something…
Okay
I-I’ve been ill lately- for a while I mean. And I’m here in the hospital bed and just received some results and…they’re very advanced and…fatal… I then heard some little cries followed by some sobs escaping his mouth as I felt my eyes get watery within seconds as well as my throat getting dry too.
How long has this been going on for?
Maybe a little over 7 or 8 months now…I-I didn’t want to tell you- I was scared.
Which hospital is it? I’m leaving my parents house right now.
No, stay there, please. Don’t come here; I look terrible.
Seunghyun stop it, I’m leaving and that’s final…d-does my family know yet? I asked as my voice got softer on the final part of my sentence so no one can hear my question.
Neh, they already know…I told them to keep it away from you, I wanted to protect you from being hurt.
I’ll see you in a bit.
I hung up the phone somewhat hurt and very upset at the same time. I was hurt because Seunghyun hid this from me this whole time and told my family before I found out. Maybe that’s why my brother was so nervous when Seungri called. I am upset knowing that my future husband is going to die soon…I just pray that we can be able to have a child at least and hopefully Seunghyun can live.
I then went into my room where my umma came into a few seconds later while I grabbed my purse and my keys. I broke down; my umma came to me and hugged me as I returned the hug probably soaking up her shirt with tears that came from Niagara falls.
“I’m sorry we didn’t tell you sooner” she said softly rubbing my back; I backed away from the hug shortly afterwards.
“I’m going to see Seunghyun right now, I should be back soon” I said as she nodded stepping aside
“Be careful, okay?” my umma said as I nodded heading to the door and sliding on some boots and slipping on a cardigan over my thin top. As I got outside, it was cloudy and grey; yet it was chilly. I got into my car and drove to the hospital Taeyang just texted me.
Shortly when I arrived I noticed it started to drizzle as spots began appearing more on the ground. I shook it off and walked into the hospital. Seunghyun’s room was on the 5th level of the hospital; I made my way over to the elevator and waited for the doors to open. Two doctors came out chatting quietly over a document in one of the doctors hand.
I walked inside pressing the 4th button: 5th floor; mainly here in Korea the number 4 is an unlucky number so normally there isn’t a floor with a number four, it skips to five instead. I waited a couple seconds before the doors slid open once more. I felt the palms of my hands get sweaty as I soon got closer to the door which Seunghyun is in…517…
I knocked before opening the door as I saw Seunghyun laying there…paler skin than usual, he looked tired, sore, weak, etc words just couldn’t explain how he looked. “Oppa…” I said in a soft tone I saw him look up a few seconds later. Oh, crap, did I wake him up? “Did I wake you?” I asked regretting when the members stood up and began walking to me…
“Aniyo, I just rested my eyes for a little while as I thought about things” he said clearing his throat in the middle of his sentence. I felt my heart break when I saw the monitor on the screen beeping each couple seconds. Beep…beep…beep…beep it repeated going on and on.
“We’ll let you talk in private” Daesung said softly as I nodded as the four men piled out of the room leaving the two of us alone in the quiet room.
TOP POV~
“We’ll let you talk in private” Daesung said as I saw Mina nod before the members left me alone with her in a room. I felt myself getting nervous and overwhelmed at the same time as she pulled up a chair close to my seat where Taeyang sat at.
“Baby…” I began but I got cut off
“Seunghyun…I’m so sorry” tears began to fall down her cheeks as she held my hand, I felt more burden all ready and I hadn’t started the conversation of the whole situation.
“It’s not your fault, jagiya…it’s no one’s fault” I pushed a strand of hair out of her face. “We can just pray that I can be able to do this for both of us.- alright?” I asked softly as Mina nodded slightly as we both had tears in our eyes.
“How long w-will this last?” she asked, I knew what she meant by “How long?” as in; how long I’d live.
“I really….really don’t know” my voice cracked once more
“I love you, Seunghyun…I really do” she said as I can tell she had a lot of trouble speaking. I felt something soft go against my lips…it was hers as well. I kissed her back softly before she broke our kiss together. “Let’s try to be positive, right?” she asked as I nodded in response.
“You’ll always be in my heart, Kim Mina…whatever happens to me in the end…you’d always be mine” I kissed her hand making the ends of her lips tug a bit as she nodded as well.
A Couple Days Later~~
Mina POV~
Today is my wedding day, from what I heard from Seunghyun’s noona is that he isn’t getting better. She said that he had extreme stomach pains last night and passed out in the afternoon. It scares me a bit; I looked into the mirror of my finished makeup and hair before I looked at my white wedding dress set on my bed ready to be worn today.
My side of the family came in the morning so we can go together; I’m not sure why because it’s so crowded. A couple of my female cousins came into my room once I had my dress on.
“Here let me help you zip it” one of them came up and zipped it up for me as I thanked her in response. I got a little watery in my eyes as I thought of Seunghyun. Is he doing okay? What if he’s going to die before I can see him one last time alive?
Soon enough all my cousins both male and female came into the room with either tears in their eyes or trying to not cry of the situation going on. They all came and hugged me either indivually or in small groups so I won’t get my dress stepped on and get dirty.
“You look beautiful” my closest cousin Haerin complimented as she placed my veil over my hair as it layered my long and puffy dress.
“We are heading out right now” my appa said about an hour later coming into the room causing the chatter to quickly end as we all made our way out of the house. Jiyong came to us in a nice dark grey suit and his hair gelled to perfection.
“What’s up, baby?” Jiyong smiled as I greeted him; I don’t know why he calls me baby. It’s a thing he has with close girl friends. “You look georgeous in that dress I helped pick out” he smiled looking at it then he gestured me to turn 360 so he can look at all of it.
“Let’s go~” my brother chimed as the two of us made our way to my fathers nice car. We all sat in the car, well my brother in the 3rd row of the car and me and Jiyong on the second row just looking out the windows with the music playing softly in the background.
I began to notice that we were passing up the church that Seunghyun and I were going to get married in. Or atleast the one Taeyang suggested that was his favorite; “A-appa! We’re passing up the church!!” I said looking out the window as the church began to descend from my view.
“Mina…we’re not going to the church…the hospital” Jiyong said sadly as I shook my head not believing it. He pulled me into an embrace as I had a bad feeling about this already.
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Once we got to the hospital, I had greeted the Choi family as my hands grew shaky within the seconds. It was time to see Seunghyun. When I walked into the hospital hallway with my cousins daughter Soo Hyun throwing white flower pedals as she walked in front of me. The whole family was in a circle with their phones and cameras out capturing the moment.
I soon felt my throat get dry as I saw Seunghyun in the bed with Jiyong our best man and the other members next to him along with both of our parents. 2NE1, Epik High, Tablo, SHINee, etc all other bands came as well in their formal wear. Seunghyun let out a small smile as he looked at me once I came to closer to him by the couple of seconds with the white banquet of flowers in my hands that I tightly grasped.
Soon enough the paster came and began reading off of the book as I held Seunghyun’s hand while I sat on a chair. I looked around and saw some family members getting teared up as we both exchanged our rings and gave each other our vows we made a while back.
“You may kiss the bride” the paster said as I leaned down to Seunghyun and sealed our marriage within a kiss. We heard claps and some cheers as well; Seunghyun had his deep dimples showing that I loved.
“I love you so much” he said softly in my ear holding my hand still
“I love you too.” I said pecking him again.
~~That Evening~~
TOP THOUGHT~
I was happy today; I didn’t think I’d be able to last long shortly after the terrible pains I had the other day. It made my heart warm up a lot when I saw our family again and they were able to see us get married. I do feel burdern knowing that we werent able to get married in a proper church like what we planned months ago, but it does feel nice being able to call Mina my wife.
She stood with me and Big Bang at night time to keep me company, the guys tried lightening up the mood like Seungri getting teased all the time or Daesung making up those unfunny jokes of his. It really felt like home…
Sadly that couldn’t last long because they had to go home shortly afterwards since they were so tired from waking up really early to get ready. I told Mina to leave as well to rest up, but she wouldn’t. I had to threaten her playfully by calling her brother to take her home which had happen. I promised her I’d call her in the morning so we can spend more time together.
MINA POV~
I was awoken by my cell phone ringing loudly in my bedroom as I groaned trying to reach my phone on the night stand with my eyes closed of tiredness. It was Jiyong…huh..why would he call me so early? I held the phone to my ear and my eyes widen quickly.
I was running in the hospital in a pair of jeans and a hood not giving a care if the doctors stared at me or tried to stop me. I opened the door and saw a doctor and Jiyong in the room already. “Are you Mrs. Choi?” he asked
“N-neh, what’s going on?” I asked as my eyes shook with fear as I didn’t want to hear the words escape from the doctors lips.
“Seunghyun has passed at 8 a.m. today as he was asleep” he said sadly “I’m so sorry” he added. I felt my eyes get watery quickly as I hugged Jiyong who was beside me. I couldn’t believe it; he’s gone already…It was too soon.
“Can I please see him privately?” I asked as my voice hiccuped for a second as he nodded
“Neh, but we need to prepare him shortly” the doctor said as him and Jiyong made their way out the room. I sat on the chair and saw Seunghyun’s closed eyes and no longer breathing body in my sight. I held his hand tightly as he was now in heaven.
“Seunghyun…I love you” my words choked out “We will see each other soon in the future, I promise” I added, it was wrong to think of my death right now; but there’s always a chance to meet loved ones in the future. I kissed Seunghyun before the doctor told me I had to leave, it was hard enough to break the news to the family.
5 Years Later~
Today marked the fifth year since Seunghyun’s passing; I sat on the bed as I went through the scrapbook of Seunghyun’s and mine relationship that lasted within the years we’ve been together physically. There was bad times, but most of the time our realationship was on good terms.
I was out of my trance when I heard those familiar voices “Umma!” they shouted; the twins I gave birth to 4 years ago were Mi Yeon and Jungmin. I had no clue I was pregnant until I found out two months later his passing.
“Let’s go outside!” Jungmin giggled as Mi Yeon grabbed my hand; I placed down the scrapbook as I followed right behind them. Today was a great day, the sun was shining and the weather was not too cold or not too hot, just perfect.
The kids ran to the playground I had in the backyard and played on the swings or slid down the slide as I sat on the patio smiling at the two. I looked up at the sky and saw a bird singing as the clouds moved quite quickly behind it. “I love you, Seunghyun” I whispered to myself; I looked back at my children who were squealing of joy and running around happily.
“Umma, can we get some icecream?” Jungmin asked running to me as I giggled with a nod as I stood up. Jungmin represented Seunghyun so much just like his personality and his looks too. Mi Yeon had his nose and his lips while she looked just like me. Those two were the loves of my life.
I grabbed their hands as we walked to our door “Let me grab my phone and wallet before we leave” I said “To our favorite place” I added with a smile; I called it ‘our favorite place’ because Seunghyun and I always went there to eat ice cream together when we had time on our hands.
“Can we invite uncle Taeyang?” Jungmin asked
“No way, Uncle Seungri is more handsome!” Mi Yeon pouted at Jungmin as I giggled to myself, walking to my room.
“Of course, I’ll call them right now” I responded as I grabbed my phone; I then grabbed the scrapbook off the bed and put it in the dresser. I wasn’t sure if I was hallucinating or not, but it seemed as if I could hear his voice.
No matter what happens to me, I’ll always love you Choi Mina…always, not matter what; you’ll always be mine. The voice of Seunghyun rung in my mind; instead of Kim Mina it was Choi Mina…I quickly closed the drawer and swiped my wallet before going to my kids.
I love you.
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This is especially for fictionplus ^^ I hope you liked it; please excuse my bad errors and repetivie crying scenes...
I did reeneact the video of a man getting married, but passing 10hrs after...It was very sad...and I was gonna do a TOP Haru Haru one shot, but this made me want to the wedding even more!! The link will be down below!
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