07:26 am

The time on my phone indicated, after a couple of blinking and stretching and getting my head into processing properly, I sat up and looked at the picture that is hanging on my wall. To others, this may be just a normal day, but to me it isn’t, because today is the day that I’m planning to propose to her. Kim Jihyun, my girlfriend for 5 years, and I’m telling you, she’s the most beautiful… no, not beautiful, gorgeous, but gorgeous is still not enough to justify her beauty I swear, so yes, she’s the most georgeousest girl to set foot on this earth. See what I did there? You may think that this is cliché, every boyfriend says that to their girlfriend, but I don’t give a about cliché, because in my eyes, she is, really.

So here’s the plan, it’s not that grand, because she hates public displays, and I hate that also, so it’s just going to be simple, but not that simple. So I’m going to ask her to meet me, there in the park where we usually hangout, she’s my classmate since middle school and you don’t know how happy I am when I entered college and saw her in my designated room that day, in the first day, that when I got home, I was literally jumping in my room happily, and I thought that this is it, I’ll court her, because ever since middle school, I already had a crush on her, but I didn’t had the guts, so you won’t imagine how happy I am when she finally became my girlfriend, and today, I’m going to ask her to be my wife, to be with me forever. We’re inseparable.

So yeah, back to the plan, meet her there at the park, give her flowers with balloons, then ask her to marry me. See? I told you it’s not that grand! All she knows is that we’re just going to have a simple date, just like we usually do. I just can’t wait to see her reaction; I know she would say yes, there’s no reason for her to say no. I just know. Standing up, I headed to the shower and prepared for the big day. The big day that I know I’ll never forget.

 

I may look like a dork sitting here in this bench with balloons and flowers… and a ring, but I don’t care. I’m waiting for my future fiancée, then my phone buzzed, a message from her.

Jihyun: Donghae oppa, are you already there?

Me: Yes, I’m sitting here on the bench, right across the street.

Jihyun: Okay, wait for me, I’m already near.

And with that, I did not reply already, to hell with texting, I’m holding balloons and flowers! So I just sit here patiently waiting for her. Then after just a couple of seconds, she was already there, standing across the street, looking at me with shock and happiness in her eyes, my girlfriend is a smart one, that’s why if she’s your girl, thou shall not cheat on her, for she will eventually know, and the sight of me holding these balloons and flowers, I know, that she already knows.

And within a split second, she’s already crossing the road, excitement present in her eyes…

Until a car emerged out of nowhere…

I saw it all.

I saw it all.

Like everything happened in slow motion, and I didn’t had a chance to do something. It’s like everything is turning white and she is all I’m seeing and everything stopped, everything, my breathing, the time, the wind that rustled in the leaves and all I heard was the sound of the ring dropping to the ground.

My Jihyun…

Her red blood flowing…

And the ring.

“Oh god.” I muttered as I ran to her, lying lifelessly in the middle of the street. “This ain’t real. No… No… Jihyun…”

 No complete sentence passes through my lips as I cradle her in my arms, with the blood flowing continuously from her head, while a group of people already gather around us.

“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU LOOKING AT?! GO CALL SOME ING AMBULANCE!” I yell at them. “Jihyun! Don’t… don’t… Oh god. Ambulance please…” I try to say through my muffled sobs. “An ambulance please…” I say, as I look at the crowd pleadingly. “Please…”

“Oppa.” she says, garnering my attention, while I look into her eyes, those eyes that just seconds ago were so full of life, bliss, and anticipation, while she puts her hand on my face. “Oppa, I feel that I won’t last long.” she says, as tears escape from her eyes.

“No! Don’t…”

“Let me finish…” she interjects “You’re going to ask me to marry you right? And you know that I would say yes.”

“Yes.” I nodded.

“I love you Donghae oppa, I don’t know what lies beyond this, but if there’s a life after this, let’s get married then, okay?” she says, trying to sound as happy as she can, even though I can tell from her eyes that she’s afraid to leave, to leave this life, to leave me.

“I love you too Jihyun-ah, I won’t love anyone else but you.”

“Dear me, no!” she says, trying to laugh, but she just ends up coughing blood, making me panic like hell.

“Jihyun…”

“Oppa… oppa… love someone else… please… love her like how you love me. Okay?”

“Okay.” I nodded, as tears started to cloud my vision, then I heard the sirens, the ambulance is here, but my attention was turned again to her, tugging my shirt.

“I love you.” she says, barely a whisper, and before I could even answer, I saw the life leave her eyes.

 

I sit here, in the same bench, with my eyes closed, the ring enclosed tightly in my hand, because it’s the only way to see her again, to feel her again, and to hear her again, same day, same time.

Three years has already passed but every time this exact day and exact time comes, I just find myself reviving this whole scene again. Me waking up, preparing to propose to her. This sounds stupid, I know, I only end up hurting myself, looking like a lunatic crying alone in this bench, but what can I do, sometimes I can’t help but blame myself, I could have chose a different place to meet up with her, or I could have just fetch her in her house, there are a lot of ways to save her. A lot. But it’s already too late…

 Too late…

Then I feel someone sit beside me, but I won’t bother to give this person a glance, then suddenly, a handkerchief came popping out in front me. Furrowing my eyebrows, I look up to see a girl smiling at me, and I felt my breath being taken away from me.

It’s like my world suddenly stopped again, and unexpectedly I could feel her again, my Jihyun, like everything swiftly lit up, everything changing in a good and positive way.

 “Hi.” she says, getting me back into my senses, and she said it like how Jihyun will say it, lively, with a hint of sympathy.

“Hi.” I say, looking away.

“I would really appreciate it if you would take the handkerchief I’m offering, mister.”

And that made me look at her again, I know this may sound crazy but that’s what will Jihyun say under the same circumstances.

“You remind me of someone.” I say, as I get the handkerchief and wiped away my tears.

“Oh thank god! My hand was already in the verge of falling off my shoulder!” she says, and for the first time in three years, I felt my lips making a real smile again, she’s really just so Jihyun, the way her hair falls in her shoulders, her caramel colored eyes, the way she smiles, it’s like Jihyun being reincarnated, it’s like Jihyun being alive again. “By the way…” she continues “You said, I remind you of someone, and I guess that someone is so special to you eh? I won’t even be surprised if she’s the one you’re crying about!”

“You’re one smart girl huh?” I say, I was trying to say it simply, but it came out with an allusion of sarcasm.

“I’m not sure if you’re complimenting me or what but I guess… thank you?” she replies, while I just remain silent.

“Uhm…” she starts again “Is it okay if I… know your name?”

“Donghae.” I say basically.

“Hi Donghae-ssi” she says smiling brightly, as she offers her hand for me to shake “I’m Jihyun.”

 

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