I give up!

I'm giving up! This is not working! I've done my best but it still failed!

What have I done to You to punish me? To let me suffer like this? I did not forget to pray every single night, to thank You for all the blessings you gave; for the opportunity to live. But why are you giving me these s?! Don't I deserve to be happy? To have a good life after all the  good things I've done?!

I don't want to live anymore!

Hey, guys! This is my first dtory here so I hope that you'll give it a try. This is under Fantasy and Romance category, so yeah. See you soon!