"I'm sad " that what you post in your me2day page sometimes you want to let out some of what you kept in side you and ' I'm sad ,I'm mad , I want some spaces ' theos are the only word that you can wrie or say ypu didn't know why since you were kid you never told anyone what you feel even seungho your best friend .

you always say that what happens in the house stay in the house when you come to sechool when you were kid you try to forget every thing and only have a good time with the one you love seungho . you knew when you look sad he always get worried thats why you try you bset to forget your problems like today .

seungho pov:

"I'sad " oh i read what --------ah wrote on her me2day "aash this girl " i was mad not at her bout because she dong this " what is wrong hyung why your mad ?" joon my friend and a memmber of our group MBLAQ " it's --------- " i answered him   

" ah your friend ?"

"yes my friend this girl is driving my crazy she always keeping me worried about her she just wrote I'M SAD on her page !!"

" maybe just like that she don't maen she is sad really seungho " G.O said from next to me

" he is right hyun maybe she write it because the drama she is watching is sad you know girls " joon added after G.O

"you don't know this girl she never say anything when she is mad or sad or hte problems as she call them are to much she just stay quite and keep them for herself " they looked ot each orher doesn't know what to say

"i need to call her " i said and went out of our studio whith my phone ..com'on --------ah peck up the phone ahhh i requested her number agian but she still didn't answer

" so hyung what did she said ?" joon asked me as soon as opened the door

"nothing she didn't answer " i asked our manager "hyung are we finifhed can i go i have to go to some where ?" and thnkfully he said yes i graped my stuf and haeded out from the building .

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you where in the park in were you and seungho spent most of your times but because seungho is not here you came olny since he became idol you lost the only place where you can find relief you can not find him there for you he is busy it's ture that you never told him what's bthering you but seeing his consider eyes feeling that there is someone actually cares anyway you were deep in thougt to notice that someone was standing there

" i want to punch you you know " you left up your haed and smiled you couldn't haid the fact that you were so happy to see him to see the love of your life your best friend seungho " why ?!" you asked but he didn't answer he just pulled you into a tight warm hug just the one you need it in that time

when he pulled back he looked at you and said why you didin't answer my calls  ??" you looked surprised thne you remmbered that your phone was mute " sorry it was mute and why you are so mad cuz i didn't answer ur call ?"

"oh yeh i'm upset because what i'm seeing lately on your page why you are sad if your upset of something just call "

"seungho i'm going to block you stop getting worried everytim i write something ' ypu said knowing what he felt " and com'on i always text you but you never replayed and calls you and you never callwd back so " u said angrly and looed to him with your eyebrow to let him understand that there is no point from calling him ..you tow set in silence but he suddnly said " you know that seeing you like this bothers me a lot ?" he didn't take his eyes from his hands in his lap

"like what ?" you knew what he gonna said

"like this so sad and lonly and keeping everything for yourdelf "

" seungho it's nothing really..." you said but he cutted u off " stop lying ------- stop lying to me" you were shocked and u didn't know what to say

" you always say that it's nothing and everything is fine while ist's not and i know it but i never wanted to bother you i always say if she dosen't want to talk don't push her seungho let her do what make her better...." you were now more sad and you felt shame but your tears escaped quietly he untill now didn't left his haed  "but it was hard cuz i see it in your eyes i see how much u suffer and how sad you are and what makes me more upset the word of some problems because that word was standing between us "

" you don't understand seungho it's just.." and he cutted u off agian stop it seungho i can't that was your thinking of

"yeah i don't understand so make me understand explain to me dont't be so selfish -----ah " that word brok you heart u never thought that u will ever gonna hear it especially not from the one you love he was looking to u when he sais it and he saw that his words were hrush on u " I'm not selfish seungho but i can't tell  what happens in said my house "

" WHY i'm ur friend u never let me meet your famliy and when i want to viset u u never let me why what you haid from me tell me "

"I don't hide anything I just I don't have the courage to say that the fight that happen all the time between my parents affects my feelings and the fact that my father it doesn't allow us to have anything and doesn't let us go out easily and even if we got out he will yelled at us sometimes anything with out reason i feel  so pathetic do u know that I'm afraid to use my phone to call u or text u i only do it when i'm alone because he will star to see and read everything and i don't want that to happen i hated my life seungho " you were crying so hard he pulled u to his arms and hugged u so tight like he was afraid to lose u

"why u kept all this to yourself why u didn't let me help you and be there for you "

 you lefted your haed to answer him but you didn't let go of his hug "because i couldn't let you to see my real family and my real life and seungho u were therr for me"

"no i wasn't i want to be there when you cry so i can wipe your tears i want to hug u and comfort u i want to tell you that i love you and i'm here for you " you were shocked u pulled back and looked at him with wide eyes did he realy said that he was smiling to you so u smiled too

"what ?" you managed to ask him

"don't look at me like the yes i love you i always did but i was that u may rejcet me ..and come here" he pulled u back to his hug and said "say it --------ah say that u love me now i know that u do "

"why so confidence ?" you smiled at his littel statement

" com'on I'm Yang seungho mblaq leader" u laughed at what he said " ok just kidding i just saw it in your eyes and somhow i felt it " you always love how he can be so dorky playful in a sceonds and tured to be so sweet and quite in sceonds too

" i love you too seungho i also thught that u will never love me and i was afraid that if i told u you will reject me and i will lose my friend "

after what u said he tightened his grap on u more " would you promise me that when u get upset u will call me right away "

"okay but promise to peck up ferst " you can feel him smiling at ur answer

" I love you my littel friend oh noo friend doesn't suit u anymore my littel girlfriend is better " u moved back and looked at him with wide eyes

"what i told u i love you and u love me back and i think it's logical to call y my girlfriend and stop look at me with that look "

you u both went back to your position befor and u just nodded at what he said  after all he is Yang seungho he always the boss .

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finally ^^