I wish I had enough courage to tell you how I feel.

I wish I could see your gummy smile when you were winning that stupid videogame for the n-th time. 

I wish I could've been cheered up the way you cheered me up when we met for the first time - the way you always did when I needed it.

I wish I could feel the soothing heat radiating from your body when you hugged me from the back, even though I said I wasn't in the mood and tried to push you away in the first place. You were the only one who had this power to calm me so quickly.

I wish I could hear your low voice whispering sweet nothings into my ear, comforting me.

I wish I could hear your short breath mixed with my own, panting one, and feel your warm body pressed firmly against mine.

I wish I could see you smiling brightly while fixing my hair softly, although you said it's perfect.

I wish I had enough courage to tell you how I feel before you disappeared, before I held you in my arms for the last time. Before you closed your eyes and fell asleep.

I wish I could wake you up.