When you try your best, but you don’t succeed,

When you get want you want, but you don’t need,

When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep,

It’s like you’re stuck in reverse,

When the tears come streaming down your face,

When you lose something that you can’t replace,

When you love someone, but it goes to waste,

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,

And ignite your bones,

… I will try to fix you …

With shaky hands and his eyes holding back tears, Jongdae unlocks his iPhone and opens up his KakaoTalk, staring at the last chat that he had had with Yifan. It’d been a day ago, at exactly 11:45PM.

“You seem upset today, is anything wrong, hyung?”

Yifan’s reply had come almost instantly as soon as Jongdae had pressed ‘sent’, as if he’d wanted to quickly reassure Jongdae that he was fine, and that everything was alright.

“Nothing’s wrong, Jongdae, g’night.”

Jongdae remembers how his heart ached that night; the feeling of wariness, of something bad. He remembers how he couldn’t sleep yesterday night, and now he knows the reason why.

Yifan was leaving. And the worst part?
 

Nobody knew.