“The person whom you never want to be …”

“1…. 2… 3.…”

“Okay, okay, okay.”

“Lixu.”

I wouldn’t want to be me to in my next life. I never want to be me too in my next life. Who in the right mind would want to be me? Talentless, ugly, fat, stupid Ryeowook. Nope, I will never want to be me too. So… I don’t blame Henry, I really don’t. Of course, I was hurt earlier on but really, I am fine.

No, I’m not.

Gripping the toilet seat, I curse myself and felt another wave of nausea hit me and I try as hard as I can to spill out everything that I ate earlier on. As silent tears spill down my face, I bite my lips hard. This cannot go on. Look at the weight you put on ever since you came here, Ryeowook.

I’m fat.

And maybe that is why Henry doesn’t want to be me in his next life. Oh who am I kidding? The members laughed and joked around about it too and I am a hundred percent sure that if it was any other one, they’d picked me too.

No one will want to be me. They are so much more successful than I am. Just look at Kyuhyun! Look at the amount of fans he has, look at the his amazing talent and skills. And even Henry! Of course he wouldn’t want to be me. He’s so young and so skinny, so talented with his violin and piano skills and he ran rap in almost all languages. Anyone who picked me to be in his next life was only picking a life of failure. A life of a worthless person.

Gathering all my strength, I stand up and walk over to the sink. It’s four in the morning and everyone is sleeping. This is the only time I can do this. If the members are awake and if they heard what is going on…. They’d stop me. Telling me that it’s wrong. It’s unhealthy and it’