The door finally opened. Kai widened his eyes as he saw a figure lied down in front of him.

"Sehun-ah!!" he quickly ran towards the unconcious man.

Sehun just stared at Kai with his teary eyes. And then . . .

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"H-how is he?" one man asked as he was catching his breath.

"Ya! Calm down!" Kai half yelled.

"How can we calm down after hearing that news from you?!"

"That's right. You know, Suho Hyung went crazy after you called us."

"Ya! Like your'e not Do Kyungsoo!"

"Ssst...just calm down hyungs..." Kai said again but in his soft voice.
"Now, tell me. What happened to Sehun?" Suho asked as he sat next to Kai.

"I don’t know... I just went home and looking for all of you. Then, I went to our room. There, I saw him ....with his bleeding wrist."
Kai explained sadly.

Suho patted his shoulders. He felt the same. And he blamed himself for being a bad bestfriend for Sehun. He was the oldest of them and he failed to protect his dongsaeng.

"It's because of him again, right?" this time D.O broke the silence.

Kai sighed deeply, "I think so..."

"He can't always be like this! He should move on!"

"I know, but everytime we told him to forget him, he just hurting himself again and again."

3 of them became silent again. No word came from them or it should said that they couldn't say anything.
"Oh Sehun's family?" the voice broke their own thoughts.
Suho stood up and walked to the doctor as his donsaengs followed him.

"Yes, how is he?"
"You are...."
"We are his hyungs." Suho quickly answered.

"Well, he's okay now. He just need some rest. But he looks so depressed and it's not good for his condition. Please, take care of him. Don't let him push himself too hard."

" Yes, kamsahamnida."

They bowed to doctor.

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SEHUN POV:

I stare at my wrist. Hurt. That is how I feel. My wrist and my body are in pain, but that isn't the reason why I am hurt. My heart, yes, my heart is my reason. My heart contains too much pain that I can't handle anymore. No, I couldn't handle this since it starts to happen. My tears starts to streaming down. My hands are trembling. Here again, the pain is back. It’s hurt, too hurt. Then, I feel someone patts my shoulders.

"Sehun-ah..." Suho Hyung calls me, "I’ts okay."

"No hyung. It's not okay. I can't hyung. I can't -"

"Ssssh..." he cutts me off, " you can walk through this. I know you can, but you don't realize it yet."

"You should move on Sehun. You really should." Kai rubbed my back.

"Forget him, Sehun. I'm begging you. Please, forget him..."

My tears keep streaming. If it is easy as they say, I won't be like this. But no, it isn't. It isn't easy at all. I still remember the day when it starts to happen. The day when my life isn't precious anymore.

FLASHBACK:

I looked at a bouquet of white roses that I held for the last time. I smiled to myself. Beautiful. But it wasn't beautiful as him. I could imagine his smile when I gave it to him later. He loved white rose. And everytime I gave him this flower, he always smile with his whole heart.

There, I saw him sat on the bench. He was Xi Luhan. My boyfriend for 5 years. My future husband, my soul and the male who leads in my life. It sounded cheesy, right? kekekeke. But trust me. When I said that, I really meant it. I really felt that way. I did what he wanted. I did EVERYTHING he wanted. I gave EVERYTHING I had. I gave my whole heart and life. He was my EVERYTHING at all. He was a damn gorgeous man I’ve seen in my life. He was kind-hearted, smart and cheerful person. He was also caring, loyal and the best boyfriend. He always understand me, know what I want, stay with me when I need, tease me when I'm bored, and many more. Emmh ...well, it would be years if I told you everything about him. The thing that you had to know was I loved him soooo much. I loved him till my death. I swore, I even would happy to die if he wanted me to do so.

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He seemed like not aware with my presence. So, i approached him, wanting to suprise him. Then I back hugged him. He gasped in answer to my hug and I grinned.

"Does my baby wait me for long?"

I rested my chin in his shoulders. I could smell his scent. Strawberry, I thought to myself.

"..............................."

"Xiaolu, are you mad at me? Am I too late? Oooh, I should not agree to pick Kai up first. Mianhae Xiaolu...." I felt guilty.

"Sehunnie~"

I heard he was sobbing. Then I turned his to face me. His eyes were teary. He was crying.

"Xiaolu...are you okay? M-mianhae Xiaolu for coming late. I-"

"No Sehunnie, it's not because you're late..."

"Then why? Anyone hurt you? Tell me Xiaolu, if anyone hurt you, I'll make them regret what they did." I said as I wiped his tears.

He held my hands and moved them away gently.

"Let's braek up Sehunnie"

Thump!

I tried to get what he said. My brain went blank for a moment. Then I shook my head. No, I must heard something wrong.

"W-what? Xiaolu..no joking anymore." I tried to calm myself, yes he was joking, right? He always love to make fun of me.

He wiped his own tears, "No Sehunnie, I'm not joking at all. Let's break up..."

Thump ... Thump...!

My heart was beating faster. I stared at him in dibelief, waiting him to laugh at my expression like he always do when he was joking. But he didn't laugh, he kept looking at me. My heart started to feel pain.

"If you understand, I'll leave."

I quickly grabbed his wrist, "w- why Xiaolu? Did I ... I do something wrong? If I did, I'm so sorry. Please, tell me what I should do for you to forgive me. Please Xiaolu, I'll do everything to make it up for you. But dont't leave me..." I pleaded.

"Mianhae Sehunnie. I can't be with you again." he said, trying to release his hand.

"No Xiaolu. Please....I'm begging you..I...I'm sorry if I wasn't the best boyfriend. But I'll try. I'll change into what you want. Just tell me what-"

"I don't love you anymore Sehunnie!" he yelled, before I finishined my words.

My pain was growing bigger. I felt my body weak. I couldn't think anything. Luhan released his hand from my grip.

"Good bye Sehunnie. I hope we won't see each other anymore."

Luhan run away from me. I couldn't believe what just happened. No, Luhan wouldn't say like that! It must be wrong! I had to talk with him more and everything would be okay. But when I was back to reality, Luhan left. He was leaving me with the pain I couldn't bear with. Hurt . . . Hurt . . . Hurt . . . I knew I needed him. Xiaolu, how I supposed to survive without you? I couldn't Xiaolu.

I needed to meet him and making him stay in my side. But it was useless. After that day, I never meet him again. No one knew where he was.

END OF FLASHBACK

And here I am. The lifeless Sehun. I have no precious thing anymore. The only thing that I do is hurting myself. But everytime I hurt myself, my heart is more hurt.

HURT

HURT

HURT

"Sehun, he's not worth for you."

"D.O is right Sehun. He dumped you. You should move on. You deserve better. Not him, Sehun. Please, this time listen to me. When you're hurting yourself, you also hurting us."
I look at Suho hyung. How could I be so blind? I hurt them. I hurt them so many times and I don't realize it. It is because I am busy with my pain.

"You still have us, Sehun. Here we are, for you." Kai held my hands.

I realize now. I am wrong. Suho hyung is right. Luhan wasn't worth for me. If he loves me, he would never make me like this. I should move on. Yes, I will forget him. No Luhan in my life again.

The door finally opened. Kai widened his eyes as he saw a figure lied down in front of him.

"Sehun-ah!!" he quickly ran towards the unconcious man.

Sehun just stared at Kai with his teary eyes. And then . . .

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"H-how is he?" one man asked as he was catching his breath.

"Ya! Calm down!" Kai half yelled.

"How can we calm down after hearing that news from you?!"

"That's right. You know, Suho Hyung went crazy after you called us."

"Ya! Like your'e not Do Kyungsoo!"

"Ssst...just calm down hyungs..." Kai said again but in his soft voice.
"Now, tell me. What happened to Sehun?" Suho asked as he sat next to Kai.

"I don’t know... I just went home and looking for all of you. Then, I went to our room. There, I saw him ....with his bleeding wrist."
Kai explained sadly.

Suho patted his shoulders. He felt the same. And he blamed himself for being a bad bestfriend for Sehun. He was the oldest of them and he failed to protect his dongsaeng.

"It's because of him again, right?" this time D.O broke the silence.

Kai sighed deeply, "I think so..."

"He can't always be like this! He should move on!"

"I know, but everytime we told him to forget him, he just hurting himself again and again."

3 of them became silent again. No word came from them or it should said that they couldn't say anything.
"Oh Sehun's family?" the voice broke their own thoughts.
Suho stood up and walked to the doctor as his donsaengs followed him.

"Yes, how is he?"
"You are...."
"We are his hyungs." Suho quickly answered.

"Well, he's okay now. He just need some rest. But he looks so depressed and it's not good for his condition. Please, take care of him. Don't let him push himself too hard."

" Yes, kamsahamnida."

They bowed to doctor.

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SEHUN POV:

I stare at my wrist. Hurt. That is how I feel. My wrist and my body are in pain, but that isn't the reason why I am hurt. My heart, yes, my heart is my reason. My heart contains too much pain that I can't handle anymore. No, I couldn't handle this since it starts to happen. My tears starts to streaming down. My hands are trembling. Here again, the pain is back. It’s hurt, too hurt. Then, I feel someone patts my shoulders.

"Sehun-ah..." Suho Hyung calls me, "I’ts okay."

"No hyung. It's not okay. I can't hyung. I can't -"

"Ssssh..." he cutts me off, " you can walk through this. I know you can, but you don't realize it yet."

"You should move on Sehun. You really should." Kai rubbed my back.

"Forget him, Sehun. I'm begging you. Please, forget him..."

My tears keep streaming. If it is easy as they say, I won't be like this. But no, it isn't. It isn't easy at all. I still remember the day when it starts to happen. The day when my life isn't precious anymore.

FLASHBACK:

I looked at a bouquet of white roses that I held for the last time. I smiled to myself. Beautiful. But it wasn't beautiful as him. I could imagine his smile when I gave it to him later. He loved white rose. And everytime I gave him this flower, he always smile with his whole heart.

There, I saw him sat on the bench. He was Xi Luhan. My boyfriend for 5 years. My future husband, my soul and the male who leads in my life. It sounded cheesy, right? kekekeke. But trust me. When I said that, I really meant it. I really felt that way. I did what he wanted. I did EVERYTHING he wanted. I gave EVERYTHING I had. I gave my whole heart and life. He was my EVERYTHING at all. He was a damn gorgeous man I’ve seen in my life. He was kind-hearted, smart and cheerful person. He was also caring, loyal and the best boyfriend. He always understand me, know what I want, stay with me when I need, tease me when I'm bored, and many more. Emmh ...well, it would be years if I told you everything about him. The thing that you had to know was I loved him soooo much. I loved him till my death. I swore, I even would happy to die if he wanted me to do so.

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He seemed like not aware with my presence. So, i approached him, wanting to suprise him. Then I back hugged him. He gasped in answer to my hug and I grinned.

"Does my baby wait me for long?"

I rested my chin in his shoulders. I could smell his scent. Strawberry, I thought to myself.

"..............................."

"Xiaolu, are you mad at me? Am I too late? Oooh, I should not agree to pick Kai up first. Mianhae Xiaolu...." I felt guilty.

"Sehunnie~"

I heard he was sobbing. Then I turned his to face me. His eyes were teary. He was crying.

"Xiaolu...are you okay? M-mianhae Xiaolu for coming late. I-"

"No Sehunnie, it's not because you're late..."

"Then why? Anyone hurt you? Tell me Xiaolu, if anyone hurt you, I'll make them regret what they did." I said as I wiped his tears.

He held my hands and moved them away gently.

"Let's braek up Sehunnie"

Thump!

I tried to get what he said. My brain went blank for a moment. Then I shook my head. No, I must heard something wrong.

"W-what? Xiaolu..no joking anymore." I tried to calm myself, yes he was joking, right? He always love to make fun of me.

He wiped his own tears, "No Sehunnie, I'm not joking at all. Let's break up..."

Thump ... Thump...!

My heart was beating faster. I stared at him in dibelief, waiting him to laugh at my expression like he always do when he was joking. But he didn't laugh, he kept looking at me. My heart started to feel pain.

"If you understand, I'll leave."

I quickly grabbed his wrist, "w- why Xiaolu? Did I ... I do something wrong? If I did, I'm so sorry. Please, tell me what I should do for you to forgive me. Please Xiaolu, I'll do everything to make it up for you. But dont't leave me..." I pleaded.

"Mianhae Sehunnie. I can't be with you again." he said, trying to release his hand.

"No Xiaolu. Please....I'm begging you..I...I'm sorry if I wasn't the best boyfriend. But I'll try. I'll change into what you want. Just tell me what-"

"I don't love you anymore Sehunnie!" he yelled, before I finishined my words.

My pain was growing bigger. I felt my body weak. I couldn't think anything. Luhan released his hand from my grip.

"Good bye Sehunnie. I hope we won't see each other anymore."

Luhan run away from me. I couldn't believe what just happened. No, Luhan wouldn't say like that! It must be wrong! I had to talk with him more and everything would be okay. But when I was back to reality, Luhan left. He was leaving me with the pain I couldn't bear with. Hurt . . . Hurt . . . Hurt . . . I knew I needed him. Xiaolu, how I supposed to survive without you? I couldn't Xiaolu.

I needed to meet him and making him stay in my side. But it was useless. After that day, I never meet him again. No one knew where he was.

END OF FLASHBACK

And here I am. The lifeless Sehun. I have no precious thing anymore. The only thing that I do is hurting myself. But everytime I hurt myself, my heart is more hurt.

HURT

HURT

HURT

"Sehun, he's not worth for you."

"D.O is right Sehun. He dumped you. You should move on. You deserve better. Not him, Sehun. Please, this time listen to me. When you're hurting yourself, you also hurting us."
I look at Suho hyung. How could I be so blind? I hurt them. I hurt them so many times and I don't realize it. It is because I am busy with my pain.

"You still have us, Sehun. Here we are, for you." Kai held my hands.

I realize now. I am wrong. Suho hyung is right. Luhan wasn't worth for me. If he loves me, he would never make me like this. I should move on. Yes, I will forget him. No Luhan in my life again.

 

 

 

 

 

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