bang yongguk- I remember

‘her’  is the BAD! Girl

And

‘her’ is the GOOD! woman

yongguk P.O.Vi

i remember  the day she enrolled into my school,

Breathtaking.

i remember  the day I first laid eyes on her,

Speechless.

i rememeber  the first time we ever talked,

Adorable.

i rememeber  the look on her face when I asked her to be my girlfriend,

Cute as a button.

i rememeber  the blush on her face when we first kissed,

Innocent.

i rememeber  the way she used to smell,

Intoxicating.

i remember  how she used to talk,

Intelligently.

I remember her tear stained face,

Heartbreaking.

I remember her smile,

Gorgeous.

I remember her last words to me

‘I know that you never wanted to do this to me I will never blame you for this I love you’

I remember her everything

 Was once my whole world.

 

How long can someone go without the person they love?

A day?

A week?

A month?

6 months?

Maybe one year?

Well,

I have to live without her for the rest of my life.

Why you ask?

Because I killed her’

Not on purpose but then also on purpose

The reason I killed her was because of

‘her’

That girl the good for nothing person that entered my life for the fulfilment in….

Killing, revenge, and drugs

That’s right I was used for all those things

I was played by a girl that said lies about the girl that really loved me

I was blinded by riches and all of the above

Now I know why they say

‘never judge a book by its cover’

That’s what I did and I ended up with a criminal record

I loved her so much but I never listened when she told me things about that witch

I wish I listened to her

Did she love me back?

I don’t know  

I hope she did though

I wonder if she is watching over me right now

Smiling at me

I want to her hear her sweet angelic voice again

I want to see her small doll like face

I just want her again

I walked to the tree near the park I sat down and watched all the kids running around without a care in the world.

The noise of the children playing with their friends

The smell of the fresh crisp air

The wind blew just like how it did the day I met….

‘Her’

I closed my eyes…..

I was thinking about her’’ again……

(Flashback)

4 years ago

“Hey _____ where do you want to go today? Maybe to the arcade? Or the ice cream shop? Or maybe the…….park?” I asked teasingly

“Oppa can we go to the park? I feel like being a kid again without a care in the world” she smiled brightly

Oh how that smile could make me melt into goo

“But you are a kid already! You act like your five!” I pushed her forehead with my index finger

“Yah Oppa-” she whined

“But I love you just the way you are” I gave her my gummiest smile

“Oppa your being greasy again!”  she pouted and looked up at me

“But you like me when I’m greasy” I smiled even more

“That’s true” she admitted nodding her head

“Well your lucky cause it’s only for you”  I out my arm around her and took her to the park

As we arrived at the park she ran out of my embrace towards the swings like a little child running to an ice cream shop

I smiled very goofy like and slowly walked to the swings

She gestured me to sit on the other swing next to her

I closed my eyes and just swung myself lightly

All I could hear was the wind whistling in the trees

That cool wind blowing gracefully across my face

The warm sun dancing all over my body making me warm and happy

I sighed

“Oppa why are you sighing on such a lovely day? Do you not like being here? Is something bothering you?” she inquired

“no nothing of the sort I’m just worried that something is going to happen soon and it’s going to be big, it will involve me you and this other girl” I let out all my problems to her

“Oppa no matter what happens nothing will separate us? Got that? I would never let that happen I don’t think you would either” she patted my back

I just looked up at her big dark brown eyes that sparkled in hope and the light from the sun

To say the truth I really didn’t know how to reply, I felt like she wanted me to agree with her but something was just stopping me

The words were on the tip of my tongue

But something was holding back the words

“I guess so…” the hope in her eyes dropped

“Oh…..” she looked at me with a emotionless face

Trying to hide her emotions

I watched her

She looked sad, also angry

But all that sadness and anger was not pointed at me

It was pointed to something behind me

That’s when I realized that she wasn’t looking at me but at something or someone behind me

Something turned in my stomach

I turned around

And that’s when my eyes met with a pair of pure black eyes

The wind blew harder, my breath hitched

She looked like a demon but with a hint of innocence

I don’t know why but I felt attracted to her

But not by her looks, more like she is someone I need to watch out for

Like me and her have something in common

“Help my child help help!” I turned my head to see a man in black running away with a child in his hands

I got of the swing and chased after him

I chased him around the park, through the town until he stopped and looked at me

He had the same eyes as that girl

He just smirked and vanished into thin air dropping the little child

I dived to save the child

I saved him, he cried calling for his mother

“It’s okay little boy your safe now” I reassured him holding him tight and taking him back to the park

“Oh my son! Omma will take better care of you! Don’t run away like that!” the lady yelled at her son whilst his eyes started to fill up with hot tears

“excuse me, I know it’s not my place but he has been through something traumatic I think that you should comfort him right now more than yell at him” I grabbed her arm

“Okay, thank you for saving him” she bowed multiple times

I put my hand up signalling for her to stop

“It’s okay” I smiled walking away before bowing

Later that night…..

I was lying on my bed

I was thinking about everything that happened today

The way that girl looked at me
it was like she was burning a hole into my head

Like she had a grudge against me

So after I fell asleep

The next day…..

I was at ______’s work place waiting for her to finish her work

“Oppa come on I’m finished” she pulled me to the door

When we walked out I could see the shining stars that complemented the bright moon

“Oppa you know that I would never leave you right and you wouldn’t leave me?” she took out her hair

There again!

I had that same feeling where she wanted me to say something back

Something that will make her feel reassured about my feelings for her

But yet again something was holding me back and it wouldn’t let me say the words I wanted to say to her

“Yea I won’t” I ran my slender fingers through my hair

There I said it.

I said what she wanted to hear

But I would be lying if it was genuine

That’s right I said it but with no real meaning to it

I knew that this will come back to haunt me

I stopped as she walked ahead

Her long jet black hair was gracefully dancing with the wind as it flipped up and down

While the shine went back and forth on her hair

In rhythm with the wind

She stopped and turned to me

“Come on Oppa!” she ran back to me pulling my arm

I smiled as we ran through the streets of Seoul

Hand in hand

We stopped to catch our breaths

She had her hands on her knees as I without second thought waked away from here

“Oppa why are y-”she panted

“Will you still love me even if I do something bad to you?” I asked not daring to look at her

“Of course Oppa I could never hate you!” with ease she let those words juts roll of her tongue  

“Why are you as-” I cut her off for the second time

“Because I’m afraid that something bad Is going to h