Luhan had bag under his eyes, he hasn’t slept well in a few days. He was walking lifelessly down the school halls, anyone could see that Luhan was in deep depression.

Flashback

Sehun woke up today and found Luhan on top of him. Luhan is beautiful each day, but somehow today, Luhan was the most beautiful.

But Sehun couldn't help but worry, What is going to happen now? Do they pretend it didn’t happen?  Does he tell Luhan he loves him?

“mmh” Luhan opened his eyes and saw Sehun’s toned body, he can’t help but blush, and he blushed even harder when he remembered what happened the night before.

When he lifted his head, he found Sehun was already awake “G-Good morning Sehunnie” but Sehun didn’t respond, Sehun stood up and walked to the bathroom. Tears were starting to form in Luhan’s eyes, Does Sehun hate me even more now? Are we going to pretend it didn’t happen?

No, no, no Sehun is just not a morning person, he’ll talk to me later. Luhan tried to convince himself. He got out of bed and got ready for school.

After Sehun got ready, he walked to the kitchen and sat down at the small dining table “Listen, Hannie…”

“lets just pretend, nothing happened last night, okay?”

“w-why?” Luhan asked immediately, he was trying to hold back the tears forming in his eyes.

“It’s for the best”

“……………..”

“T-then why did you kiss me?!"

"........"

“Why did you continue?!”

“If you stopped me, then we wouldn’t be sitting here! You wouldn’t be saying this! You wouldn’t be siting here full of regret!”

“……….”

“Why? Why? Did you go through with it?” Luhan started pulling his hair a bit

“Why did y-”

“because I LOVE YOU !”

“because I love you to the ends of the earth, I would die for you, I would do anything for you,”

“and I don’t want you to get hurt”

“W-what? That doesn’t make sense! If you loved me, you wouldn’t have ignored me for so long!  If you loved me, you wouldn’t be saying any of this ! You would be holding me in your arms right now and never let go of me,”

“If you loved me, you would have realized that I love you just as much as I loved you, you would have realized that I needed you!”

“ I needed my brother to stand by me, to tell me you loved me, to tell me you were there if I needed you, to hold on to me and never let go!”

“………….” Sehun was starting to cry now

“I love you Sehunnie”

“I know”

“I need you”

“I know”

“If you know, why are you still saying this?”

“I-I’m sorry Hannie”

“We are brothers Hannie, brothers, its not normal for us to love each other so much”

“Who cares what’s normal or not?”

“I don’t, I just need you to tell me that you loved me, and everything would be fine”

“No. You don’t understand, Hannie, it’s a cruel world out there Hannie, if anyone found out about us, we would be casted out, they won’t accept us”

“As long as I have you, I wouldn’t care about any of that, Sehunnie”

“No. I’m doing this for you Hannie, I don’t want you to look at me from a few years from now, and realize that you didn’t want this, I don’t want you to regret it.”

“b-but-“

Before Luhan could answer back Sehun already ran out the door. \

Luhan finally let out all the tears he had been holding back.

Sehun was at the other side of the door crying, they didn’t went to school that day

End of flashback

Luhan had been sleeping alone for a few days, but he didn’t really sleep though, he just cried every night, wishing Sehun would come back home, but he didn’t

Sehun was staying at Chanyeol’s dorm the whole time, He didn’t sleep either, he would take out the picture of him and luhan and their parents, saying sorry and sorry over and over again, convincing himself that he made the right decision.