"Nirvana."

              Experiencing endless happiness and being free from everything.

This is all I wanted. This is all I needed.

Freedom and happiness.

But it seems like I am not worthy of being free from reality.

Reality is all I have to be able to accept things,

to learn what is right and reflect on my journey in life,

to express my feelings,

and to feel...

                    ... loved

I can accomplish this if I were strong enough.

I can endure anything but,

whenever you're around, everything in me softens and weakens as if there's something pushing me to you but I keep on pulling back.

"Why do you have to be the most precious person I value when you're not even worth it."

"It's because, you, yourself know that you can only experience Nirvana, when you're ---- 

--- with me."