BACK TO HIM

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"What are you doing?" Joohyuk asked me as soon as he came inside the house. I was pushing a box out of my bedroom when he entered. He doesn't look good. "What happen to you? You look..." I couldn't find a word to describe him right now. "I know." He threw himself on the couch and closed his eyes. "I'm moving out." I broke the silent money between us. He didn't say anything for awhile. I allowed him to do so. He knows I needed a space out. "For how long?" I shrugged. Probably two months. I don't know. Until I feel better, or perhaps forever.

"Omma is asking for you. Give her a visit if you have time." Right. There's my mother. "I will. Don't forget to have dinner. I don't wanna be receiving a call from the hospital." I playfully joked. He smiled but did not move. I turned my back. It is time to say goodbye. "I'm leaving..."

I tried to put my best effort to look happy but mg voice is somehow shaky. I quickly took my steps. "Don't go." He hugged me loosely. I didn't know what to say or do. I didn't know the reason of me moving out. I just need to. "Seohyun, I'm sorry that everything turns out like this. It's my entire fault. If I didn't kill his girlfriend-" He was crying. "Don't blame yourself. Everything has already passed. It's over now. I'm sorry that I can't be here. I'm sorry that I can't be strong, Joohyuk." I cried on his chest. "Sorry that I let him fools me." I couldn't comprehend anymore. 

He my hair and stayed in such position for few minutes. "I will go and sort things out with hi-" I cut him off. "No. Please don't. I don't want him to have anything to do with you. You just stay away from him. Whatever between you and him is over."

"But he hurt you." He pointed out. "I'm okay." Liar. The inside of me screamed. "Let us begin again. No more Wu Yi Fan in our life, alright?" He seems incomprehensible but nodded anyway. "I will wait for you." He smiled and slightly gives me a push. We said goodbye and I left. 

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"Ahjumma, do you have any vacant room available?" I asked the old lady inside the building. She smiled warmly and grabbed my hand. "This room." It was a cozy room beside the staircase. I walked inside and looked around. This is just what I was looking for. "My daughter used to live here but not anymore." I wanted to ask her why as the mention of her daughter ceased her smile but didn't. I just nodded. "Stay here as long as you want, love." She pulled me in her arms. "Aigoo, how I wish my little girl is here. She will be the same age as