Jiyong POV

I am a monster, a terrible one. I made myself sick and knocked someone else's daugther pregnant. I do not know her birthday, I do not know her family, I do not know what is her favorite color or food. All I know is; I love to ed her and how she loves to be ed. I hate myself of being so down, so stupid.

How can I threaten my own cousin? My lovely Chaerin?

How can I made Dara noona did not feel safe around me?

And how can I made a girl pregnant and dying because she have my child?

How can I be this pathetic?

Worse is I got gonorhea, the results of my long lost play with the e for a month. I should have notice Kimberly distant reaction when I asked her to bed, I should have asked her why instead of pushing her away and make a way to e. Drowning myself in my stupidity; drugs, and alcohol.

I can forget about the pain of losing Dara noona when I have on drugs, I can ease my mind and blow my tears away. I know I do not have the chance with Dara noona the first time I saw her look at Chaerin the first time they met. I know that, I know more than I should.

The way Chaerin is so nervous around Dara noona, exactly the same as I did. She made herself comfortable with Bommie noona, because she is afraid to lose her composure in front of Dara noona. The composure as the great Lee Chaerin everybody know, the same thing I did to Bommie noona.

Me and Chaerin, we are no different.

We are raised to be a winner, to be number one, we do not held back and we do not take a no for an answer.

This time, Chaerin is the player and she win the game. She have Dara noona and will take her away soon.

The truth is hurt.

It is always hurt.

But, I am a man. I have dignity.

I have pride.

I am the Great Kwon Jiyong, I do everything in my way and people will agree to it.

I a man.

I walk to see myself in the mirror, I saw a pathetic man, with beard all over my face, a black circle under my eyes, loser and a goner. !

Is this the man my father want me to be?

Is this the man my mother raised me to be?

Is this the man I want to be?

No, no in a hell way, no.

The truth is maybe hurt, It will always be hurt.

Dara noona is not choose me, she is away with someone else and that someone else is Chaerin. My own lovely Chaerin, my cousin. She will make Dara noona as her queen, Dara noona is safe, happy and loved with Chaerin. Nothing wrong with that.

I was wrong, I do not accept any lost or no no. I am a fair man, if I lost then I lost proud without losing any pride and dignity. People still cheering for me and love me because I lose with pride.

But, this man.... this man is a pathetic . Not Kwon Jiyong.

I am Kwon Jiyong, I do not kneel to anybody.

I am Kwon Jiyong, I do not know who the hell is the man I saw in the mirror right now.

I am Kwon Jiyong, and I will be back... awesome.

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"Minzy, how is with the final preparation?"

"It is good actually, but we still need more artwork, more artist."

"I trust your judgement, and I'll give you an assistant."

"Are you sure unnie? I'm just an intern."

"You will learn a lot from him, I'll lent you him for a year or two. By the time you're ready, you will run this gallery. You are the art director. Got it?"

"Got it." Minzy nods to Chaerin.

"I'll be back after I drop some document in Park's Advertisement."

"Okay. We will have lunch together? Can Taeyang join with us?"

"Sure, I'll make sure Bommie unnie did not make his life miserable in accounting department."

"And the lawyer? Which firm you hire for us unnie?"

"I have some in mind, but... I'll decide it later."

Pete did not know that being Chaerin's personal assistant would be this hard, the pay is really good. But the tension is harder than being the onsite assitant, how did Kimberly manage to be the perfect assistant all this time? Pete cannot imagine. Chaerin is worse back then than now, how did Kimberly manage to clean up of every mess Chaerin has done? The girls, the pills, the alcohol and be flawless with it.

Chaerin's private life is now settled, she is tamed not wild again. Dara stays beside her and made her a better person, and still Pete have to pull every energy he have to keep up with Chaerin's business life. So fast, perfect, tiring and demanding.

"Are you tired Pete?" Chaerin's voice.

"No! I-its okay! I-I'm fine!"

"Its okay if you're tired, don't force yourself. Tell me to slow down or ask me if you don't get it. You're not my slave, but my partner. And I expect you to do the same with me. Here." Chaerin give Pete a canned milk coffee, Pete's favorite.

"H-how did- you know?"

"You're my assistant, I'm a very bad boss if I don't recognize one or two your favorite things." Chaerin smile, Chaerin's words brings tears into Pete's face.

"I'll work hard! I'll work hard! I promise! I'm sorry if I slow you down!"

"Nobody slow me down Pete, I'll kick your myself if you slow me down. Get rest a moment, and find your work rhythm with me. The hotel have good Western food, or McDonalds."

"I'll stuck with Korean foods, they're good actually."

"They are, and my wife love it. Wait-" Chaerin stop talking and sat beside Pete.

"How many Korean restaurant have you already taste in here?" She put her serious face.

"Six or sev