Four Seasons (Part 1) - Four for One

 

White Aster in Summer

(Symbol of love, patience, afterthought)

“I need you to know.. that I love you still.. I did, I do, and I always will…

 I will wait for you.. I am waiting still.. to the end of me, the end of the world, and just if forever does exist..

I want you to know that I love you.. I do too much, so much, and will never end..

To where I can dare myself.. to die for you, in your hand.. just as long as I know.. I do what I think is right.. like protecting you.. and loving you…

No sorry will do.. and it won’t ever slipped my lips..

Because I know it’s my call.. and I am doing it right..

I am your white aster, I love you.. and just like white aster.. I am waiting for you, patiently..”

 

“It’s just perfect..

Being in your arms, feels like home..

Staying in your embrace, feels like eternity..

With you, the memories that faded from me start playing back..

That familiar scent, smell like you.. that familiar taste, sweet like you.. and that familiar hug, warm like you.. to where I wish it was you, it’s you, and it will always be you..

But just when I thought with you forever does exist..

Truth crushed me down to the deepest of my hell..

You broke me..

Even so, I know, it’s still you..”

 

 

Sunflower in Autumn

(Adoration, pride, sunshine)

“I adore you like how the sunflower adore the sun..

I have my eyes on you just like how the sunflower never stop facing the sun..

And I have my heart on you.. falling just like how the sunflower never stop falling for the sun..

But I got pride.. and my lips won’t say..

So I do hope this sunflower is enough to tell you what my lips can’t say.. that my heart is dying to tell..

But you played me..

You treat me like a joke..

And just like its not enough..

You crushed me..

To where you leave me wondering that won’t it better if I never fall instead?”

 

“I thought it’s a joke..

I thought it’s a game..

I thought you hate me as much as I do..

I thought I hate you..

I am stupid for not able to see in between the right and wrong.. I am a fool for letting you down.. and I am terribly screw up.. the moment I saw your tears.. I know, I was wrong.. so damn wrong..

And when I finally realized, is it too late?

To tell you that I am falling?

I know thousands sorry won’t do.. I know million sorry won’t heal your pain.. but really.. I am sorry..

Please, for another chance.. let me be..

Your sun..”

 

 

Yellow Tulip in Spring

(Hopeless love)

“I know you hate me to death..

Maybe even where words can’t say..

Like every time your eyes flared in hatred.. the pair of eyes that used to stare at me lovingly..

Or how your lips throw curses.. the lips that used to say loving words..

Or how you prefer staying far away from me.. when you used to never let a tiny gap in between us..

But I can’t help it..

I truly can’t help myself when I know that no matter how far I stay away from you, my heart will keep going back to where you stay..

I truly can’t help myself when I know that no matter how hard I try to get over you, my heart will keep aching to where only you can heal..

I truly can’t help myself when I know that no matter how hold myself from falling.. my heart keep calling for you, to the owner of it..

I truly can’t.. for I am your yellow tulip, that I am indeed hopelessly in love with you..”

 

“We were in love.. so much in love..

We’re okay.. we’re doing fine..

But you screwed things up..

You make me regret how things happened in between us..

You make me wishes for us to never happened..

You took away the reason I live.. you took away what’s important for me.. you took my everythings..

I want to forgive you.. but hatred always come in between.. letting me know the reason to, remind me every little things about why I should.. just to hate you..

I want to hate you.. I really do…”

 

 

 

Snowdrops in Winter

(Consolation, hope)

“I don’t even know the reason why you hate me that much..

I don’t even know the reason in behind that cold attitude you give only to me..

I don’t even have any idea, why you keep pushing me away..

You hide your broken in behind that cold face, perfectly wearing that cold mask to keep people away from you..

You hide your scar and tears in behind your hard gaze, greatly pushing people to step away from your life..

I just want to be your friend.. and that’s all what I do.. only to find myself falling in the way..

Only to know how fragile you’re..

And all I ask is a chance..

For letting me to be your snowdrop.. your new hope.. your comfort..”

 

“You remind me of what I want to forget..

You remind me of what I don’t want to remember..

You remind me why I hate myself..

You’re everything I want to forget..

You’re all I want to hate..

And that’s what I keep telling myself.. to hate you..

Even if I know, it won’t lessen my guilt.. even if I know, I won’t stop blaming myself.. even if I know, it won’t give me comfort..

But it’s easier to hate myself for what I can’t do.. than forgetting the mistake I’ve ever done..

I don’t need you..

And that’s what I keep telling myself..”

 

 

 

 

This is a story where people fight for love..

A story where there is no right or wrong..

Somewhere love doesn’t even make a sense..

Somewhere love exceed the sanity of the world..

Somewhere love does beyond common sense..

Somewhere love and hate just happen in the very same time..

Somewhere, love make people do stupid things.. like giving up on anything.. or even worse, themselves..

Because it’s just in the time you don’t want to fall.. where you find yourself fall harder than ever..

And when it just happen beyond your control..

And it’s just love.. that in the end, making people giving up their live.. for love..

A story where love is worth for any kind of thing.. where love has thousands of languages.. where love, in the end, is always enough..

A story where you can get high to the highest level of heaven.. but falling right into the deepest of hell..

 

 

 

A/N : Since the stories I currently writing are near the end.. and I still have some pending stories.. every time I finished one of them, I will start updating my pending stories.. and for this one.. maybe just need to wait for a little longer.. And this is a trilogy.. anyway.. happy reading :)

And by the way, since i don't know whatever I can update next week or not (for that three stories)... Let this accompany you :D

Cr: owner (to different sources where I got the meaning of these flowers)