Final
From The Bottom Of My Broken HeartJongin woke up with a slight headache in his head. He took a glance at his room and tried to remember everything about last night and he gasped in shock. He turned to his left and saw a girl there.
She was and so was he. He couldn't remember.
But then, some glimpses of memories ran down to his mind. He was at the bar and got drunk. Then what happened? Feeling frustated, he put on his clothes and woke the girl beside him up.
"Who the are you?"He harshly yelled.
"Aisshh.. So harsh.. Didn't you pay me to have with me? Where is my payment? Give me the money." She said as she quickly dressed herself. Jongin was puzzled. He didn't understand what that girl was talking about. And the girl seemed to notice that Jongin was confused, so she explained,"You were drunk last night and you promised to pay me if I came with you. And hell. Just right after I stepped to this room, you ed me. AND your girlfriend barked to the room to curse me and you. Now give me my money."
Jongin was shocked. _______was here? He thought. The girl impatiently took from his wallet some money out then threw it back to the bed.
"This is my payment, goodbye." The girl got out from his house.
Jongin couldn't help but to feel guilty, and regret. Very. He had disappointed you and himself.
He made his way to the living room and found a letter that was neatly folded. Curiously, he took it and read it. Surprisingly, it was from you.
To :Jongin oppa
I wrote this letter from the bottom of my broken heart. And by the time you read this, I should have gone very far from you. Don't catch me up, hell, you don't even know where I am or where I am planning to go.
Jongin oppa... Where should I start this?
Maybe from our first meeting. I must admit, you are my first love. And it was love at first sight. I remember how happy I was when we spent our time together. I remember when you asked me to be your girlfriend in the worst way ever! Seriously, at the zoo?? And you gave me those wild rose? But.. It didn't matter at all because I love you. I nodded right after you finished your sentence and I remember perfectly that I burst into tears but you calmed me down.
And oppa.. For 3 years.
I've never doubted my feeling for you
But.. I couldn't bear this anymore.
You broke my heart for I-don't-know how many times.
And I am afraid to be hurt .
And so I decided to go. To leave you for good.
I don't know whether you will cry after you read this or you will pump your fist because you are happy.
But I just want to thank you
Thank you for let me experienced what love is
And thank you for those bittersweet moments we had
That memories are the treasure that I'm keeping right now
So oppa... Take care of yourself.
Don't go to the bar too much
Don't drink too much
Please keep yourself safe
I'm not good enough for you,
I can't even ask you to stop going to bars, got drunk, or ing some random girls
I am sure, you will find someone better than me
Maybe that someone will love you more than me
Maybe that someone can change you for the better
Maybe that someone will be your future wife
But Jongin oppa..
I promise I will never forget our times together
I will never forget you
And please remember
You are still my brightest star
You are still my love
You are still my definition of love
And you are still my happiness.
I never regret loving you oppa..
Maybe one day, if we meet again
If God still lets us to fall in love
Can I be the one who preoccupie your mind?
Can I be the one who is in your heart?
Can I love you more?
Can I make us live just like in fairytale?
Can I be the one who complete your life?
Can I be the chosen one to do all of those things?
I think it's enough for now
Thank you for everything
I love you
Love,
~_______~
Jongin broke down after reading that letter.
Tears were running down from his eyes.
It hurt just as painful as thousand knives stabbed him.
He would rather you snapped him
He would rather you hit him thousand times
He would rather you killed him
Than you left him
Never did he think that you would leave him for good
And then, it just happened
He regretted everything
But regret is regret
Time couldn't fly back
And so he could only hoped that one day he would meet you again.
He wouldn't mind if he had to wait for thousand years
He would wait for you till the end of the time
And when he had a chance to meet you again
He made sure he had changed for the better
He promised
He would make the two of you live happily ever after
He promised to change the life into fairytale
And he promised
To have a good ending for your and his love story.
For now, he could just change to a better man, pray and wait for you
And he would never get tired of waiting for you
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