Marionette

Like sick I trust you,but you're still hurting me... What can I do?
They said:

"Love can be a beautiful fairytale" 

But it reminds me of a doll theater... It's so bad. I can't even trust myself anymore...
 It's just that I'm sick of you...and myself... 
You're the worse! I can't be with you
....but...again...
When I see you,the way that you smile, the way that you're talking...
My heart melts again. I feel like a stupid. I can't stop it.
I want to ,but I just...I can't...Whatever it is, no one can help me.
I feel like a doll which he is playing. I don't want it...
Just someone , please , make it stop. Make me free! PLEASE!
Make me free...
Just please cut the lines of my marionette...
I want to live my own life again. Not like a doll...
I feel like I'm a closed girl , which can't escape from her glass...
Please release me from this box. It's crazy. What can I do...
Please...Really. Please.
 

I see him again. My heart is racing again.
I feel like a little girl wich sees her most watend toy and she can do everything for this toy.
She can even sell her heart for this toy...
But he's not a toy . It's an owner of me.

He's owner of my marionette heart...
 

Airbag

I need an airbag. 
The love tht I'm living with is not so great. Even If she's the greatest girl in the whole world. 
It's really diffrent . I can't hide my love for her and i can't hide that I haven't time for her.
When we're together, I'm smiling like a fool . I'm holding her hand , hugging and sometimes I'm even kissing her forehead. I'm really happy 'cuz I can be near her.
Whenever we're together there are the happiest moments in my life, but then... there is a call ,work, dangerous times. Driving through the most dirty and unsafe streets.
Thoughst like if there will be accident.
Will I go out alive ? 
What can I do?
Running through the walls, shoothing from the gun, running away again. Escaping from weird places. Full of atrocity. It makes me so crazy .
I used to be happy like a fool ,then I wanted to get some adventures in my life...
And all this started. At first I liked it. And now... It's like a one big trouble going after me. 
Sometimes when I'm coming back from my missions by a taxi , I'm seeing a lot of accidents, I'm thinking about her .
I don't know why ,but after a while a streams of tears are coming out from my eyes and then there are forming new ones.  After a while they are falling too. 
I miss her so much at times like this.
Knowing that lots of guys are atractted to her , I'm wondering If she is alone too.
I'm wondering if she's ok. I feel really lonely tonight.

What are you doing?
Still you are the one...
Still you...