Being in the army wasn't so bad, Jonghyun had concluded. He got three meals a day and two if he didn't complete the training. He was doing fairly well and got a lot off support from his sunbaes. Although, one thing would make it perfect and it was Kim Kibum.

It had been exactly 182 days into his service and Jonghyun has been writing letters to Kibum every chance he had. They would tell each other off their lives. Kibum was a fashion student in Incheon University and he had been excused from joining the military due to a health condition.

They had been dating for six years and it had been amazing for both off them. The thrill off doing something that was considered forbidden gave them a rush and if anything, strengthened their relationship. Because if this wasn't love then hell, shoot them both.

Jonghyun woke up to the alarm going off and he reached out pushing the snooze button. He sat down on his bed groggily and rubbed the sleep off his eyes. He stared at his calender on the table before snatching the red Sharpie to cross off another day. He slumped a bit because it has been two weeks since he sent Kibum the last letter and he hasn't wrote back. Kibum usually wouldn't take long to reply, maybe a week at most but this time he was running a little late. He tried to keep a positive attitude about it though. It was Kim Kibum after all and he was never late, others were simply early.

He got ready with his fellow military mates because he doesn't quite consider them being friends. They didn't detest each other, it's just that they minded their own business and truthfully, Jonghyun didn't mind it.

He went through his daily routine except today they were going to the shooting range. Jonghyun was a fairly good shooter but he's been missing the target a few times now. A sunbae went up to him and patted him on the back, Jonghyun turned to look at him.

"Jonghyun, I know you can definitely do better than that. What's going on?" he questioned. Jonghyun sighed and unloaded the gun.

"It's nothing hyung. I just have been thinking a bit."

Jungsu smirked and clicked his tongue on the roof off his mouth.

"Ahh, Kibum?" he grinned. Jungsu was the only person in the army that knew about Kibum-- apart from Jonghyun. The day Jonghyun decided to tell him was one off the most nerve-wrecking days off his life. He was worried that Jungsu was going to cringe and avoid him, calling him a freak or how unnatural it was to be with another guy. What he didn't expect was a pat on his shoulder and a warm smile.

"He didn't write back hyung. It's been two weeks and it usually takes him a week at most to reply. What if he found someone else?" he pouted slightly.

"Personally, I don't know if he can find anyone else that resembles a dino but I'm pretty sure he'll write back soon. He's probably waist deep in all those fashion projects." he chuckled.

Jonghyun glared at him, slightly offended and slightly hopeful. The glare slowly turned to a grin though.

"Yeah. You're right hyung. He's probably just busy." he beamed.

Jungsu laughed and patted his back before assisting the others. Jonghyun hit the target almost everytime till practice was over.

When it was time for bed, he dove into the mattress and was about to drift off to dreamland but a little envelope on the table caught his eye. Eyes widening, he snatched the paper and rid it off its contents.

He unfolded the paper and read the neat handwritting.

Jjong, I'm so sorry I couldn't write to you sooner but I had tons off things to do. The professor wanted me to be her apprentice if I managed to get at least 4.7 out of 5 from the next presention and I'm determined this time. You know how strict she can be but if being her apprentice will take me one step closer to having my own clothing line then so be it!

Anyway, what kind off a stupid question was that? Yah! I asked you about your health and you asked me my favourite part off you?

Jjong, I swear I have no idea why I'm still with you.

So anyway, my answer would be your eyes.

Do you remember the first time you stepped in my class?

Well, I do. I remembered how quiet you were and how you looked like a lost pup. You looked like you were tricked into going there. We were outside the Chemistry lab and I was standing beside Nicole. We talked a bit till she decided greet you. You didn't respond. You just kept a straight face. She pouted and whinned to me, saying that you were a pompous short- bastard(don't tell her I told you this). But I just replied, surely you'd be nervous too if you just switched schools and she just shrugged it off. Somewhere in the middle off the lesson, we ended up talking about past relationships. She also suggested for me to flirt with you. I just scoffed and rolled my eyes though. 'That's ridiculous. I won't like him. Besides, he's not my type.' I brushed it off. I was thinking about the promise I had made with Onew. To be together after highschool but now that I think about it, the chances off that happening are pretty slim. You kept a pokerface for the first week and you'd speak only when necessary. Kind off funny to think about it when you're so hyper now. (I swear, I feel like I need asprin now.) It was like two totally different people but they were all you. I couldn't deny that I found you attractive, I guess it was the mysterious air that surrounded you. I felt like I wanted to solve you. You were this puzzle and was currently the only thing that was interesting enough to occupy me. Don't take it the wrong way, I love my friends but I sensed that a lot off things were going to change soon. (Some off them were moving or they all had better options than sticking with me) I prepared myself for it, distanced myself a bit and I rarely smiled. The promise that I made with Onew was just a promise, although it was very exciting to have a small secret, a deal between two human beings that was forged from love and admiration. When I think about it, I guess it was just more off an admiration. Besides, love was with you. I can't help feel an attraction towards you. Slowly, you pulled me into your little world. I hadn't meant to fall for you this hard, hell it was the last thing I wanted. Life seemed predictable then, highschool, get together, university and get married(illegally but yeah). It was a four-step plan and I guess, it's what bored me. Where was the thrill and excitement in unravelling secrets, bits and pieces of someone that you'd pick up as time passes? And no matter how long it has been-- months, years, you'd still get surprised by those little things. There was none off it. He was the typical quite, obedient and so predictable. Yes, there have been a few surprises here and there but not much to keep me glued. I'm Kim Kibum for godsakes! I can't just do ordinary things. So, I guess, when Nicole asked me if I'd miss him(since you know, he was moving moved away), I honestly do but a bigger and louder part of me answered no. The word that I uttered was a 'Yes' and I bet if she listened carefully, she could probably tell I was lying.(And it kills me to lie! T^T) There was something in your eyes, I noticed that they were two pools off secrets and I could swim in there forever. Your actions, speak a thousand words. Your words, held a hint off cheekiness. Your eyes were what fascinated me the most. Amongst all the teasing and inside jokes, your eyes beakoned me, challenged me, spoke to me, "Solve me.". And I fell for it. I didn't think I would be in this deep. Hell, six years for all it mattered! I wasn't planning on it. If I thought about how you stared at me when you thought I wasn't looking, blood would creep its way into my cheeks, painting them red. (Yes, I admit it and never a word about this Jjong. -.-) If I thought about the expression you'd make when you're alone-- or thought you were, it would entice me even more. There's a hint of loneliness in them but also determination and a few other emotions that would reside in those perfect brown orbs. I hated seeing you like that, though it captivated me once again. The spell was broken however, if I talked to you or you snapped out off it. I was fighting with my sub-concious, part off me was angry, screaming, yelling because I ruined the spell they held but a part off me was relieved to see those eyes filled with happiness. I don't know if you've realized but your gleaming eyes and that ever enchanting smile, lifts my mood. I didn't mean to get obsessed with this, with you. Everything about you. You were a drug that I wasn't supposed to take. Your smiles are always too bright and your eyes held all the stars in the night sky. Sometimes, I'd feel conflicted because I'm itching to tell you, "It's okay if you didn't smile all the time.". I want to see you, the you when you're alone. One look and I can tell there's a million and one thoughts that crossed your mind. I'd feel content looking at your eyes when you're going in that trance and hold me in a spell, because if I move away for a fraction off a second, I'd lock eyes with you the next millisecond. I found out some things about you, your favourite colour is green-- I felt a bit stupid because it was pretty obvious with everything you own would be green. How you'd scrunch up your face when you dislike something, how you'd give me the brightest smile if I made you happy, how you would grin at me as if we had a secret between us, how we'd stare into each other's eyes trying to peel off all those layers. You have so many layers but I can't say that I'm any different. We're different, that much is obvious but secretly, we're so alike. We always give the brightest smiles and we'd put people first before ourselves. Secretly, we're both lonely, fighting with our conflicting emotions. I can't say how much it means to me because in a way, I feel like you want me to figure you out. To peel off your layers one by one, and I want you to do the same. I love how we'd just indulge in each others presence because we find comfort in it. Your eyes, are so breathtakingly beautiful and I noticed they contained a few scratches here and there. I could see how you've built a wall around yourself, worried and petrified to let anyone in. I know because I do the same thing. And I could see how you started distancing yourself from me because I started leaving little holes in it. We ignored each other for a week and I saw a new emotion in them this time, conflict. You looked conflicted between letting me in or keeping me out off your sanctuary, your haven, your heart. In the end, you took that leap and Jjong, I have no words to describe how I felt then. But then you had to switch classes with me the following year. In just two weeks, I realized how much I need you, your smiles, your cheekiness, your eyes. They captivate me to this day. I'm trying to solve you but like a pandora's box, you keep changing the pieces, which makes me two steps behind everytime I find a piece. You are so captivating, perfect, enchanting. Your spell, it has the same effect it had on me as the first day.

I love you Jjong.

I love you so much it hurts.

Love, Kibum.

There were a few words that were smudged with water and it's obvious Kibum cried while writing the letter. A soft smile graced on Jonghyun's lips because he knew how much it meant if Kibum was willing to open up to him like this. Kibum wasn't really the romantic type, that was Jonghyun. So writing and admitting his feelings to him made Jonghyun's heart well with happiness.

He wiped the tears that threatened to fall. He didn't even noticed his eyes get watery while reading the letter. He carefully folded the letter and placed it under his pillow. He fell into slumber in pure ecstacy.

And the smile never left his lips.

A/N: Just a oneshot because I love Jongkey so much that I needed to do this.

Since I just started and it's my first oneshot on them, I'm probably, possibly never going to do this again.

Because God! This is nerve-wrecking!

I'm finally writing about my all time favourite OTP and I probably at it.

I hope you had fun reading it though.

JangSooMin