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Dear Kyungsoo,

    I got your letters, and I sense, somehow, that you will receive this one too. I don’t think there’s anything I could say that you wouldn’t already know, but I wanted you to know that I would have given up my life in a heartbeat to stay with you forever. I didn’t, because I was so scared. And I still am. The past is catching up with me, and I feel an urge to keep moving on, no matter how tired I get. I’ve never met anyone who has kept me in one place for so long. And I lied to you when I promised I would return, and you knew. You knew we would never meet again when I left. Even so, I know you’ll keep hoping, and that gives me hope too. Goodbye, Kyungsoo. Even if you don’t find this, it’ll turn out okay, because you knew I loved you even before I knew myself.

    Someone who is far away

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