Save me oh save me

Tears spill from my eyes,trickling down my cheeks. They are warm,contrasting the cold of my body. My hands wrap themselves around my legs. 

Fat. Fat. Fat. Ugly. Ugly. Ugly.

I squeeze my eyes shut even tighter. My throat throbs as I surpress the urge to put my hands around my neck and wring my windpipe shut.

Fat. Fat. Fat. Ugly. Ugly. Ugly.

My hands cover my ears. As if it could block out the sounds coming from inside my head.

Fat. Fat. Fat. Ugly. Ugly. Ugly.

"Stop it." 

I hear a voice. 

"Open your eyes baby. You can do it."

Who is that?

"Honey please. I know you're stronger that this."

It sounds desprate. And it sounds familiar.

"Please. Please,please,please,please."

My eyes open. Inching up little by little. A blurry figure of a man appears. I know this man.

"Hey baby."

It's Himchan.

"Baby look at me. Stay with me."

"It won't stop," I whimper. "It says I'm fat and ugly."

"You know that's not true honey..."

"But-" I start to protest,but his lips silence mine. If his kisses were a drug,I'd be an addict. I sit up to deepen the kiss and I feel can feel his arms snake around me. He feels warm and solid. There is a fluttering in my stomach. Oh,this feels good.

He deserves so much better than you. You know he'll leave. They always do.