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Sehun was sitting alone in his room staring at the walls as he hanged upside down on his bed. “Sehunnie!”
“Go away Tao” “Oh Sehun!” “I said go away” he waited for the other to leave him alone. He didn’t.
Instead he sat down with his back against the door. “Sehun please come out. You’ve been in there all day”
“So” “Aren’t you hungry?” “No” “Please come out” “No” “Fine” Tao got up before looking at the door as
he walked to the living room. Sehun got up from the bed and unlocked his door. He quickly checked
outside to make sure he was truly gone before locking himself in his room again. Tao heard the door open
that he quickly ran over to the others room. “Seh-” “GO AWAY!” Tao kicked his door before going back
to the living room. “He won’t come out you know” Baekhyun said as he stopped reading. “I know but I
went to check on him at least” “Why won’t he come out?” Lay asked Baekhyun. “Luhan” Baekhyun said
before going back to the page he was on. “Luhan? What did he do?” “He went with Xiumin that’s what”
Tao left the conversation because he couldn’t help leaving the other alone in his room. Who knows what
he could be doing. What he’s feeling. “Sehun do you want to go get some bubble tea together?” the other
side was silent. Tao leaned his ear in to listen for any noise. Anything to know Sehun was still there. He
heard the knob move and soon the door opened. Tao looked at him to find he had bags under his eyes. He
went to get his sweater before they both headed out. The whole walk was silent. Nobody spoke or said a
simple hello. All they could hear was chatter of others and the wind. Tao would glance at him a few times
making sure he was okay. He let out his hand wondering if the other noticed that he wanted to hold hands.
But he denied it. Tao placed his hand back in his pocket as they kept walking. “Which flavor do you want
Sehunnie?” Tao asked once they finally made it to the shop. He simply shrugged as he turned around to
face the other direction. “One strawberry and one taro please” the lady on the other end nodded as she
gave him their order. “Thank you” Tao turned around to find Sehun gone. He looked around hoping he
didn’t lose him. He then saw him standing near the lake. He walked over to him as he handed him his
bubble tea. “The lakes beautiful isn’t it” Tao said hoping to get a reply. Sehun only nodded. He watched
as he wouldn’t even take a sip out of his bubble tea and he knows he loves bubble tea. It’s like his life.
Was he really that down? Tao couldn’t even take a sip of the bubble tea he got since he was distracted by
how sad his friend was. “Hey!” Sehun looked at the other waiting for him to go on. “Why don’t we go
watch a movie” Tao said with a small smile. “You choose. It can even be scary” Sehun simply nodded as
he followed the other. Tao took this opportunity to hold his hand along the way.
“Pick which one you want to watch” Tao told Sehun has he went through his wallet. Tao looked at Sehun
to find him not even looking at the options. “Sehun? Sehun aren’t you going to choose” he shook his head.
“No good movies huh?” he nodded. Tao then grabbed hold of his hand again as they went for another
walk. They stopped and sat down at a bench near the park. Silence soon started up again. “Sehun! Look
why don’t we have a rap battle” Sehun shook his head. “No? Um..do you want a lollipop?” Tao said as he
handed him on in his hand. Sehun looked at it before handing it back. “Um why don’t we listen to BoA?”
Tao scanned through his phone looking for one BoA song. He pressed play as he placed one earphone on
Sehun as he placed the other in his ear. Sehun would lay his head to the side pulling Tao with him. He laid
his head on the others shoulder as they listened to the song together. Once the song was over Tao rose his
head and Sehun handed back his earphone. “Why don’t we go get sushi” Tao said. “It’s not that far away.
I’ll even pay so you can order as much as you want” Tao wouldn’t accepted a no as an answer. He pulled
Sehun to the sushi shop with him. He had Sehun find a table as he went to go order the food. He sat across
from the table as they waited. “So Sehun! Any new things you’ve done lately?” he shook his head.
“How’s your brother?” he shrugged. “Hope he’s doing well” he nodded. Tao would look here and there
as he waited for the food to arrive. When it finally did, he waited for Sehun to take the first bites. Once he
did he began to eat.
“The sushi was good wasn't it!” Tao said as he paid for it as they headed back to the dorm. “What a day!”
Tao said as he stretched. He looked over at Sehun, waiting for him to speak up. “When you’re quiet, you
remind me the first day we met. You being all shy and everything. And then you turned out to be pretty
funny” Tao said as he kicked a rock around. “Just like Luhan” Sehun said quietly. Tao caught his words
that he stopped kicking the rock and stood right in front of him. Sehun stopped in his tracks and looked up
to meet the other boys eyes. Tao stared at his eyes for a few moments. He closed their distance together
and pressed his lips against the others soft ones. Sehuns eyes went wide as he tried to pull the other away.
“Tao. Don’t” he would tell him but the other wouldn’t listen. He’d simply have his lips against his each
time he would try to speak. “Tao” Tao finally stopped and let go of the other. Walking back a bit to give
them space. “I know you don’t like me. I know that. I just..I wanted you to forget about him. Forget that
you got ever hurt. It pains me to see you hurt and-” Sehun brought the other into a hug. Tao wrapped his
arms around the other as he took in his warmth. He rested his head on his shoulder. “Tao..you know I
can’t forget him” Tao bite his bottom lip trying to resist the tears from falling. “I know” he said hoping it
didn’t sound like how he felt. “And I thank you for trying to cheer me up” Tao nodded as Sehun let go.
“But I can’t stop loving him” Sehun met the others eyes. Tao felt the lump in his throat but he didn’t want
to show the pain so he simply laughed a tiny bit. “I hope..you tell him how you truly feel..that things get
better for you” Sehun nodded. “Lets go back to the dorm yeah?” “Um..i’ll just stay here for a while” Tao
said as he looked the other way. “Are you sure?” “Yeah” ‘Don’t worry about me’ Tao said to himself.
“Don’t stay too late” “I won’t” Tao said. “I’ll see you at the dorms” Tao nodded as he looked over his
shoulder watching Sehun go. “Luhan, you sure are something to him”
That night Sehun was tossing and turning. Not being able to sleep he sighed. He hugged his blanket tight
before hearing a soft knock on his door. He heard the door open that he closed his eyes acting like he was
asleep. “Asleep already? I know you’re awake Sehun” his eyes snapped opened when he recognized that
voice. He thought it could be a dream. He wanted to pinch himself but he knew if he moved, he’d know
he was not asleep. Instead he closed his eyes and reopened them. But the voice was still there. He felt him
get inside his bed and having his arms around his waist. He felt the other place his chin on his shoulder.
Trying to do anything to get his attention. He held in the feeling of hitting him right in the gut. But he
wouldn’t do it. “Sehun” he whispered to him. Sehun finally turned around to find Luhan staring at him. He
looked away but the older grabbed hold of his chin. Forcing him to look at him even if he didn’t want to. ‘I
could have sworn I had my door locked unless..’ Sehun trailed his thoughts to the last person who
unlocked his door. “I’m sorry” he stopped in his thoughts when he heard the others words. “I’m sorry i’ve
been ignoring you” he said as he let go of the youngers chin. “You have the right to ignore me back. I
haven’t been giving you attention. And i’m such an idiot for doing so. Tao told me how much pain I
caused you..” ‘That’s who it was. Tao’ “I know you may hate me now or maybe you don’t but that’s
impossible. Because if you did that to me I wouldn’t like it. So im sorry..” Sehun watched as the older got
out of his bed and started to head towards the door when he stopped him. “I can’t hate you” he told the
older. The older laughed at what he said and simply shook his head. “You have the right to” “But I won’t”
“Why. Why won’t you hate me” “Because I love you” Luhan stopped and looked at the others eyes
making sure he wasn’t lying. “Even if you’re with someone else..I’ll still love you. If you lie to me i’ll love
you. Even if you betray me, I wouldn’t get mad with you. Much less hate you. Because theres nothing of
you that I could possibly hate” “You’re lying. You don’t love me” Sehun placed his arms on both sides
making the older have no way to escape. He watched as the younger leaned in close to kiss him on the
lips. “I’m such a fool..” Luhan said once they parted. “I didn’t love him..I thought that if..that you’d be
better off without me..” “I wouldn’t” “They say..if you love someone you let them go..and that’s what I
did..I letted you go..You deserved someone better than me..someone who can make you smile. Who can
be your sunshine” “You’re my sunshine. You’re the reason why I smile everyday. Why I get up in the
mornings. If we hadn’t met. If we hadn’t made that one step, I wouldn’t be here with you” Sehun brushed
Luhans tears away as the older wrapped his arms around the other. Listening to the rhythm of his
heartbeat. “Don’t let me go” Luhan said. “I wouldn’t think of it”
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