Do you know? A human body can bear only up to 45 del (unit) of pain. But at the time of giving birth, a womens feels up to 57 del (unit) of pain. This is similar to twenty bones getting fracture at the time.

 

This is not the end of the world, just… why are you doing this to me? – Minho.

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“Doctor.. Is that possible for me to get pregnant?”, I asked him politely.

“I’m sorry Mrs. Choi…..”,

 

I stepped out from Doctor Kim’s room right after I’m bowed to him. This is the third time that I’ve met him for some reason, a very important reason. Yes, I’m suffered from a very well-know disease that scared by every women in the world. Cervical cancer, second stage.

Did my family know about this?

Of course the answer is no. I just don’t want them to be worried about me, especially my husband, Choi Minho.

All I do is just to put a very natural make up on my face, which is a Smile. This is the only way for me to hide everything.

“Yakk, Kim Eunzhu!! If I’m not mistaken, only two of us will enjoyed the lunch right?”, I asked.

“Yep!”, a short word is enough to explain everything.

“Then, Why are you just ordered a large set of well done steak? Who’s going to finished all this?!”,

 

“Aigoo Eunna-ah, Since Taemin Oppa let me to use his platinum credit card, it’s okay for us to enjoy the food right? I’m hungry..” She’s doing some aegyo to me, just don’t want me to scold at her. =.=”

 

“Aish jinjja! I’ll not melt at your aegyo at all, and what?! Taemin Oppa let you use this? Woahh! Daebak!!”,

 

“Well well, who’s husband is he? Me!”,

“Yee yeee~ Whatever!”

 

“Ooh, Ppalli ppali juseyo!! I’m starving!!” She’s looks different today. She’s looks totally like a kid.

 

Aigoo, What’s going on with her today? hhahhaha.. but, it’s Typical Kim Eunzhu, all she know is only food. Oops, my bad. Lee Eunzhu. Lee Taemin’s wifey.

Suddenly, my eyes captures a very cute baby boy just in front of our table. He’s too cute with his small mouth doing the ‘O’ shape because he’s still sleepy, and then, he’s continue to sleep in his baby stroller peacefully.

“Omona! Eunzhu-ah, look over there..”

“Mwoya?”

 

“Look, the little boy over there! Is it he cute? Aww.. Too cute, Kyaaa!!” I’m so excited and almost yelled. I just cant helped it. I love babies.

 

“Ne.. Too cute! I wish I’ll have a cute little boy soon, it’s EunTae junior! Huweee!!” Eunzhu express her interest in babies too. Just her word, makes me feeling down all of the sudden.

 

“… Ne, EunTae Junior…” I tried to smile in the outside, but inside? I’m hurts a lot. I feeling like to cry. Oh no, Eunna! Stop it!! You must stay strong, smile smile SMILE!

 

“Yahh, wae? Gwenchana?!” Eunzhu know something wrong with me, Yeah! She’s my bestie. She’s know me well.

 

“Anhiya, gwenchana.. Let’s eat!” I smile brightly and change the topic, I’ll not let anyone know about this, even Eunzhu. I slowly wipe my little tears at the corner of my eyes. Hope that she’ll not suspicious me anymore.

 

Eunzhu seems so happy today, especially the moment when her large well done steak is served. Woah ! She’s act exactly like a kid.

“Horayyy! My well done steak!!!!!!!!!! I’m ready to eat!” She’s quickly grabbed the knife and fork, she’s ready to make her large steak to become a slice.

“Eat slowly.. Your well done are not gonna run away,” I tried to calm her, while laugh at her cute act. Aigoo..

But suddenly “Mwo Mwo Mwo, Ige mwoya?!” Eunzhu started to complaint after she’s eat a slice of her steak.

 

“Wae?”

 

“I don’t eat those thing! It’s feel terrible! Euww”

 

 

“Mwo? But, You’re the one who ordered for this..” I try to taste some of her steak. Hmm, I think it’s okay. Mashiketa!

 

“Mmm…. Mmm..I felt like, I want to vomit”, She’s cupped and her eyes is about to tear.

 

“Gwenchana?”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“I NEED TO GO LADIES”,

 

 

“I’ll go with you..” I followed her and brought our handbag together. Eunzhu-ah wae? She’s looks pale.

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Tockk.. tockk.. tockk…

 

 

I knocked the door, I’m worried about her, “Gwenchana?”

No reply at all.

 

“Eunzhu-ah, don’t scared me!” Then finally she’s opened the door. Her face looks pale. Her pink lips turns to white. What just happened to her?

“Ne, nan gwenchana…” I helped her to bring her to the sink.

 

“You can hide me by telling me you’re okay but your face cant lie,”

 

“I’m okay Eunna, don’t you worry.. I’ll use to this for several month upwards, I’ll be fine..” She’s very calm.

I don’t know why I just too slow or what.. I’m just ‘O’-ing to her while nodded as a sigh of understand.

“Ohh okay…” But, at the moment, I realized something!  “mworago?!” I asked.

 

I look her with my eyes telling ‘are you PREGNANT?’

 

 

 

She’s just reply me with a bright smile and a nodded, “Nee~~~”

 

I hugged her tightly. “Omona! Chukkaehae Eunzhu-ah!!” Because of I’m so happy, I can’t control my tears, it’s a happiness tears to congratulates my bestie.

 

“Yah, wae? Why are you crying??,”

 

“I’m so happy,” I still can’t control the tears.

 

“Uljima..” She’s hugged me more tight to calm me down.

 

“Yakk, I’m the one who want to become a ‘Hot mama’ first, why are you stealing my nickname”, I tried to calm myself and make some jokes. As always! Typical me.

 

 

“Hahah..”

 

 

“Did Taemin Oppa know about this?” I asked her and she’s replied me with a nod.

 

“Chukkaehae to both of you, I’m so so so happy!! I’ll become an aunty! Yey!”,

 

 

 

Minho Oppa? A well know SHINee member who loved kid darn much. Eventhough I’ve never asked him about having a kid, but everybody knows.. A married man of course wants to be a father instead of only being husband. I know my husband well.

 

Ding dong~

Omo, Oppa is finally come home. I quickly wipe my hand and smells my hand, Okay! After I feels no tomatoes smell on my hand then run to the door.

“Oppa, welcome home…”

 

“Chagi! Poppo!!”

 

Muahxx

 

“How’s your day?” He asked while wrapping my waist, he hugged me from the back, and I’m trying to hung his clothes.

“Awesome! Oppa have you eat? I’m make a spaghetti for you with your favourite meat ball”

 

“Jinjja?! You know me well chagi! Now, I’m starving.. Shall we eat?” He hugged me even tighter.

 

 

“No no no! you have to take a bathe before eat dinner, arra?” I acting like I’m mad at him, and put my finger on him.

 

“Ne, Arraseo ma’am!”  He’s quickly doing a straight 90 degree salute to me. Ahaks! He’s cute.

 

 

“Go bath now”,

 

 

“But ma’am….”

 

“Yes, anything?,”

 

 

 

“Bathe with me? And shall we……? I miss you chagi!!”, he’s pouted. Aww, but.. I might disappoint him.

“Maybe next time Oppa, I’m on my period.. You know right?, Mianhae…”

 

“Hurmm, gwenchana.. Arra, I’ll go to bath alone..” He’s pouted and sulk. Omo!

“Oppa I’m sorry okay.. Please don’t mad at me? Arra, just a bath right, gwenchana.. Let’s go bath together,” I quickly grab his wrist and pull him to our bathroom. But he stopped me,

 

“Chagiya, I’m just kidding.. It’s okay, I love you…”, He end up cupped my face with his two hand and kissing my forehead gently.

 

I replied him with a smile and hug him. “I love you too Oppa”

 

While Minho Oppa is taking a bathe, My duty is to get ready all the stuff for our dinner.

“Bowl? Where’s the bowl?? Ohh, over there!,” While I grabbed the bowl, Suddenly a big traction happen to me.

I almost break the bowl, Arghh.. It’s hurts! Appo

 

“Arghh it’s hurt a lot!,” My tears is finally out. I cant.. Ouch!

 

“Chagi, Where’s Oppa’s pajama?,” Minho Oppa asked me from our room.

 

“At the right corner of our.. arghh! Right corner of our cupboard Oppa!,” I tried to reply him, but it’s hard because I’m really hurt right now.

 

“Oppa can’t find it chagi..” He’s yelled back.

 

“Ne, I’ll go get it for you..” I pushed myself to stand, Oh god! Please make me strong, just for my husband.

But, I can’t take it. There’s so many sweat on my forehead and then? everything when blank.

 

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“Chagiya, ireona.. sobs..” Minho was so worried, He hold Eunna’s hand tightly while crying. Seeing his beloved wife like this really was killing him.

Mwo? Minho Oppa is crying? Wae??

“Oppa, uljima..” I opened my eyes and it’s hurts me a lot while seeing Minho Oppa is crying.

 

“Omo Chagi, You finally awake?,” He quickly wipe his tears and continue to hold my hands.

 

“Waeyo?,”

 

“I found you faint at the kitchen just now,”

 

“Faint?”

 

 

“Ne, Oppa felt so scared.. Neo wae? Neomu appo?”, He wipe my sweat at my forehead.

 

“Omo, uljima Oppa.. Nan gwenchana, Just a normal period pain Oppa”,

 

 

“Chagiya~~~~~~ sobs.. sobs….. if the pain can be transferred, just give it to me God, I’m willing to take her place, I don’t want Eunna to get faint again, I almost got a  heartattack”, His let out a tears. Omo..

 

“Hhahahah.. Aigoo Oppa, I’m okay right now, let’s go eat the spaghetti ne?,” I tried to pushed myself up, Minho Oppa help me to get up.

 

 

“Oppa don’t want spaghetti anymore chagi.. Oppa just want you to take a rest”

 

“Oppa, if you really love me? Then you have to eat! Then you’ll be healthy and continue loving me everyday, right?”

 

“Nde!”,

 

“Okay, let’s go eat!” I smile brightly while covered my pain inside, but….

 

“Arghh!”

He turn his head back and watching me, so hard to move..

“Cant walk?”, he asked.

 

“Anhiya.. I’m okay”,

 

 

“Stop hurting yourself chagi,” He lift me in the bridal way to our dining room. He walks down carefully while lifting me on the stairs.

Minho Oppa, are you really will love me even if I tell you I cant give you a child? Will you love me like this? Forever?? Will you?

 

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“Oppa, did you hear that Taemin Oppa will become a father?”, I started the conversations. Warming up the atmosphere.

 

“Mwoya?!”,

 

“Nde, Today, Eunzhu told me about this.. She’s already 2 months pregnant,”

 

“Woah, Taemin never told us anything! Aish that maknae ==”

 

“It’s must be fun, their house will become more cheerful because of the children,” I’ll smile everytime I imagine of their house soon. Aww!

 

“Oppa do want our home to become like that……It will be fun if I have 11 child and I’ll train them to become a team of football! Yes!”,

“Uhuk.. Uhukkk…” Minho Oppa’s word was really killing me. WHAT?! SERIOUSLY?? 11 CHILD? I EVEN CANNOT GIVE HIM ONE, BUT HE WANT 11?

 

 

“Yah, Oppa just kidding chagi.. Hahhaha,”

 

After a while, I try to asked…

“Oppa, can I asked you something?,”

 

 

“Of course you can baby, What is it?,”

 

 

“What if? I CANNOT make your wish come true? Yeah, about the child.. Will you find another women instead of being with me?”, I really want to know his answer of my question. It’s a very important answer to me.

 

“Of course I will”,

 

DEGG! And he broke my heart just like that.

“Ohh”, I said.

 

“Mwo?”,

 

“I have no appetite anymore,” I added. Cold. The atmosphere turns from warm to cold. As cold as ice.

 

 

“Hey, let’s me explain..”

 

“Gwenchana Oppa…” I stand and bring my plate to the kitchen right away.

 

 

“Chagi! I’m sorry if I’m hurting you,” He quickly run and get me. Back hugged me tight.

I cant handle it anymore. My eyes start to tear.

 

“My full sentence is ‘Of course I will choose to be with you, no matter what happen,’ Trust me chagi..”

 

Don’t you know? A very first sentence is more honest than the second one.

 

“Oppa…” I let go of his arms on my neck, and turn back to him.

 

 

“Hmm..”

 

 

 

“Doctor.. Is that possible for me to get pregnant?”, I asked him politely.

 

“I’m sorry Mrs. Choi…..”,

 

“Do you means? I don’t have any possibility? But…”

 

“I think you better tell you husband about this.. He need to know, he need to be prepared of any of possibilities”,

 

“Doctor Kim, My husband really wants a kid……………..”

 

I know my husband really wants a kid.

 

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To Be Continued..

 

 

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I'm really want to do this in oneshot but, suddenly i got a lot of storyline~ squish squishhh~~!! (Just guess what? This chappie is in 14 pages in Microsoft Word with 2,102 word ^^ I think, i just cant make any of oneshot =.= hakhak...

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