Her phone started ringing, blasting the music, and she picked it up to see who was calling her.   Yoona took a deep breath and answered it. "Hey oppa," she started, "how is China?" Her voice sounded emotionless and tired.   "It's great! The airport was so crowded and the fans here are showing so much support. I have a funny story actually to tell you.." Her boyfriend babbled on, but yet, she wasn't paying any attention.   She wondered why she felt like this. It was strange behavior coming from Yoona. She thought that it was just because of the album promotions, but she knew that she just used that as an excuse to her unnies and Seohyun. The reason was obvious to her, she just did not have the guts to admit it.   "Yah, Im Yoona! Are you even listening?" Kyuhyun's irritated voice rang through her phone. "Whatever, I just I'll just hang up."   She rolled her eyes, "Oppa, I'm just tired. These promotions are really making me weak. I'll probably go get a check up soon at the doctors."   Kyuhyun, on the other line, had a clue on what was going on with her. "You're an idiot."   "Excuse me? Is that the way to speak to your girlfriend?" Yoona retorted back. She hates when he insults her.   "Okay, princess," he emphasized, "I guess everything always has to go your way, huh?"   Yoona was not sure if he was being serious or not, but she really did not have the time to be arguing with him. "Oppa, just call me later if you want. Bye."   "."   And with that, she threw her phone onto her bed. "Ugh! I hate him!" She yelled, flopping down into her bed, and screaming into her pillow. The girls had been living in the dorm again because of promotions, and they felt most comfortable there as nine.   The door opened, and came in Yuri. "Yah! Im Choding! Why are you so mad nowadays?" She sat on Yoona's bed, patting her head.   "Kyuhyun."   Yuri smirked. "Let me guess, you're mad because you can't make out with him for a few weeks since he's gone?"   The younger one glared at her unnie.   "Seriously Yoong, what's wrong with you?" Yuri sneered.   Yoona sighed. She, herself, didn't know what was wrong with her. She's been all over the place, well literally. She couldn't stop pacing around her dorm for the past night. Her feelings were definitely controlling her, making her not able to grasp what was going on. Half of her knew why she was like this, but the other half was trying to ignore it. Taking the risk again was possibly mental suicide. Doing it, knowing the consequences, would just hurt the one she loves most.    Or so she thought.   "Jess? You there?" Yuri called out, stepping into her room.   The ice princess was changing into her gym clothes and said, "Yo, what's up?"    "I'm worried. It's Yoona.." Yuri sighed, "I'm afraid she'll just break up with Kyuhyun again, and get back with Donghae, because he's making her feel guilty."    A sigh escaped Jessica's mouth. She pondered on what they could do to stop Yoona from doing that to herself, again. It was a usual thing for these two to do, since they were motherly figures to Yoona. It hurt them as much as it hurt Yoona herself to see her make a choice between the two boys. Finally, an idea popped into her head.   "Kwon Yuri, write this down." Jessica was up to it once again. No one was going to make her little Yoona go down in guilt.   It was the day that the members of Super Junior - M come back to Korea after the promotion. It was quite hectic in the girls' dorm since most of their boyfriends were coming back into the country after a few weeks. The atmosphere were full of anxiety, mostly coming from Yoona, and relief from the other girls.    Yuri and Jessica's plan was set and ready to go. Better yet, the irony was coming.   "Honey?" Yuri murmured into Yoona's ear as she's lost in the book she was reading. She was trying to get her mind off what, or more likely, who, was coming her way later in the day.   It was strange though. Yoona seemed fine, or so that is what they've picked up. "Unnie.. Yes?"   "Do you mind getting ready now? We should be leaving in an hour or so to go meet up with the guys.."   Yoona gave her a soft smile, "Oh I don't mind. I'll jump in the shower now.. "   As Yoona got in the shower, the thoughts of Donghae and Kyuhyun filled her mind. She couldn't hurt Kyuhyun after all he's done for her. He's taken her back even after all the times she's left him for Donghae. He didn't mind being the second option at some points, but she knew it had to stop. She has to stay with her decision, she was over the constant worrying.   The hot water pouring all over her skin was relaxing, helping her tense body ease up a little bit. She turned the water to the right, making it colder to wake her up. Her heart was beating fast, just wondering about Donghae. It was in the back of her mind, hoping that he'd change.    She obviously knew the truth, that he hasn't. He won't. It's just in his nature to be the type of guy he is.    "Ugh," Yoona said to herself. "I can't do this."   She tried clearing her mind, and finished up her shower. Her heart was still beating fast, so she took a deep breath and got out to dry herself off.   The mirror in front of her portrayed her reflection. She didn't see herself, the happy doe-eyed girl from 2010. She's a changed person. After the betrayal, stress, and hurt she's gone through.. It wasn't clear if she would return to old self.   Thinking about Donghae and Kyuhyun made her stress out the most, and on top of her career and school life.    "Yoong? Are you done yet? You've been in there for a while.." Yuri knocked on the door. "Are you alive?"   Yoona rolled her eyes at her unnie. "Yeah, I'm getting out right now.."   As soon as she got out of the shower, she dried off and put her clothes on. It wasn't anything too special, just a movie and dinner with the boys. Oh the boys.. I don't even want to think about seeing them. She wore black pants with a white dressed up tank top and threw up on silver jewelry. She finished her make-up and walke