Dear Hankyung,

          It's now month two, I've heard you're already working on new songs and music videos. I'm happy for you. I bet they're going to be huge. We're getting along slowly with out you, so please don't feel bad, be happy, okay? It's still hard for my to smile on camera or at home, but that's okay, I'm still fine. The guys call this current stage of mine depression. They're right. It hurts to think about you, in fact, I'm crying while writing this. Won't you cry with me like you did when I cried most of the time? Are you crying to?

          I have to take anti-depressents now, I don't want too, but I have to. I've also be going to the therapist. He says I'm having a depression that is affecting me inside and out. Do you even care?

          My head is started to hurt now... I need to go take my medicine... Good bye love.

                                         Love,

                                              Kim Heechul