A Beautiful Memory Lapse ~ Lyric One-Shot Series

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A Beautiful Memory Lapse
.:a dream filled one-shot drama:.

 

I fell in love the way you fall asleep; slowly, and then all at once. 

-John Green

 

It's in remembrance of that
smile that always shown brightly
the eyes that always seemed to be lost
and in a different world
that scattered, yet brilliant mind of yours,
and the gorgeous words you spoke that always seemed
to make their way to those silk white, unlined pages
that led me to discover
something wonderful. 

That is, no matter what,
in my dreams...
you can be mine forever
You won't disappear
You won't leave me with those quiet words
whispered off your lovely lips. 
You'll be with me
and just me
Forever
That is, until reality
calls for me again.


 

Foreword

"Recessional by Vienna Teng
 

"It's so beautiful here," she says, 
"This moment now and this moment, now." 
And I never thought I would find her here: 
Flannel and satin, my four walls transformed. 
But she's looking at me, straight to center, 
No room at all for any other thought. 

And I know I don't want this, oh, I swear I don't want this. 
There's a reason not to want this but I forgot. 

In the terminal she sleeps on my shoulder, 
Hair falling forward, mouth all askew. 
Fluorescent announcements beat their wings overhead: 
"Passengers missing, we're looking for you." 
And she dreams through the noise, her weight against me, 
Face pressed into the corduroy grooves. 

Maybe it means nothing, maybe it means nothing, 
Maybe it means nothing, but I'm afraid to move. 

And the words: they're everything and nothing. 
I want to search for her in the offhand remarks. 
Who are you, taking coffee, no sugar? 
Who are you, echoing street signs? 
Who are you, the stranger in the shell of a lover, 
Dark curtains drawn by the passage of time? 

Oh, words, like rain, how sweet the sound. 
"Well anyway," she says, "I'll see you around..."


 

 


 I don't know what sparked this idea, but I was listening to "Recessional" by Vienna Teng (for the millionth time, probably) one day...

Everyone has their own interpretations of songs they listen to, and the interpretations for this song were so completely different from one another (going off youtubers' comments)!

I read somewhere that the artist explained that it was a "reverse breakup song". So, I guess that means she's describing a breakup situation... But only backwards. Obviously. Ahaha. Anyway, I'm not sure if that's true. It was one of those youtube comments you read, and you're iffy about whether they're accurate or not. 

Personally, though, I think it's about a young women struggling with her ual orientation and her mixed feelings for this girl she's referring to in the lyrics. 

Ah~ The lyrics... They're so poetic haunting and just BEAUTIFUL. For some reason I had this idea for a fanfiction, and I really wanted to try writing shoujo ai/yuri (girls love) instead of shounen ai/ (boys love) for once. 

My interpretation wasn't something that came out of the blue, either. I found that I could relate to it in a lot of ways. I do struggle with my feelings for girls sometimes, and I'm not sure if that's just a part of growing up and finding out who you are or maybe I really do like people of the same as myself--

Moving on... I put some of my own personal experience in this idea I have. The song is so descriptive that I'm literally going to follow what lyrics say... Kind of. I have some pretty interesting ideas. c:

 

And a little spin is that it will be from first person POV -- Eunjung to be exact. (I and me; character talks to self a lot)
Readers will not know Jiyeon feelings or thoughts at all. You'll be just as clueless as Eunjung.
Usually I write from the "god power" POV, but I'm going to try something new this time~
I actually prefer this POV, honestly. I find it easier to write. 

 

Now, one more thing before I stop rambling. I like boy kpop groups better than girl kpop groups because I feel as if the girl groups sound the same after awhile-- With the exception of a few, of course. 

Picking this shipping pair was a hard decision because of that. I know girl ships aren't as popular as boy ships (which is ridiculous), so I am kind of nervous. Thus, I finally decided to go with Eunjung and Jiyeon from T-ara. Yes, I love this group, and I like how these two look together and act toward one another. 

No. I am not expecting a lot of views or subscribers, but the point is that I wanted to experiment a little and write something sad for once. Everyone needs that angst now and then, right? 

Anyway. I stayed up all night, literally, working on this whole plot and pictures and stuff, so please enjoy it~ 
It's going to be written better than my other one-shots, that's for sure.

-Riah

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greenjade21 #1
Chapter 6: Re-reading your story, it still made me cry! It is somehow enegmatic in nature; but, if you try to understand it in a deeper sense ... probably you'll get it! Still feeling in awe for your story! :)
greenjade21 #2
Chapter 6: Daebak! So Awesome kind of a story! Never bored reading it! I would say one of the most interesting and mind wrecking love story! Glad I was able to read it! Thanks for sharing a piece of your mind! Good luck! :)
greenjade21 #3
Chapter 6: WoW! Seriously! Your story somehow rocked my world, or should I say, it wakes every nerves in my system! The 3rd chapter which revealed of how Jiyeon could have ended her life, with all the journals she left for Eunjung to read and be published... And how it explains why the sudden look of people around them, during that time they were together in New York... The possibility of Eunjung was imagining Jiyeon being with her after 2 years of separation... Wow! I was having mixed emotions the whole time I'm reading it! Ok?! The first chapter, was regarding their friendship, their feelings, the suppressed feelings, the fears, the anxiety, and their should I say unaborted love affair? The love was there, they both knew it, felt it but, was so afraid to confront it! It should have flourished, it should have bloomed! It could've been exciting but, eventually frustrating! Ughh! But, then it hit me, when Jiyeon died, in my understanding?! I cried! And then, the 4th chapter she was in a hospital, confined in an institution... Jiyeon, wasn't in her rightful mind but, still waiting for Eunjung? Again, it hit me! But, in a different light, since the story is open ended, giving us a piece of our imagination to end it in our liking! That was awesome! I somehow would like to think that, during the time of Jiyeon and Eunjung's fight and separation until their released from hold to reality where it all happened?! Could it bee that Jiyeon didn't really died but, was revived and was put to an institution? Cause there's no way she could send those letters and journal if she were already at the hospital! True enough that they meet in their dreams for they are both escaping reality, and in their dreams were they can make love a reality?! But, somehow Eunjung awakens, a possibility, could be, since in her dreams she were able to profess her love for Jiyeon, and her longing were stronger, maybe, then maybe, she'll go straighten up and go back to Jiyeon for she always awaits her! :D
pioushej #4
Chapter 6: thats explain it all! :)
my view from the very start of your story authornim concludes the ending
for me both characters are real Eunjung taking a medication bcoz she keep on missing her dearest friend who takes her life while under the institutuion
its confusing its twisted and i love it!
i see their love for each not as intimate as you want it to be but a love between two friends two souls who find love and solitude with one another
thanks and i really do enjoy it! :)
riahishere
#5
A genius?! You flatter me too much, oh my.~ Thank you! That comment really made my day!
pioushej #6
Chapter 4: goodness! youre a genius! ive read this thrice from the start just to understand it better :)
im gonna wait for the next chap to see if my conclusion is right :)
love the twist in your story the passages the quotes its so deep
update soon pls thank you