Ryeowook watches Sungmin and Kyuhyun.

Kyumin. Yes, KyuMin is the greatest, yes KyuMin is number one. I sighed, watching them all lovey-dovey at the table, Sungmin hyung shyly blushing as Kyuhyun fed him a piece of his bread. My heart aches as Kyuhyun chuckled deeply at Sungmin hyung’s cute smile. The other hyungs smile sweetly at them too, approving and supporting them since day one.

Who wouldn’t like Sungmin hyung right? Hell, he’s the reason I’m so torn like this but I still have so much respect for him. He’s one of my closest hyung and everything about him screams perfection, or almost-perfection while I on the other hand… I’m just too awkward and too shy, too short and too ugly. Sungmin hyung is good at many things while I am just good for my squeaky voice but even then, Sungmin hyung and my voice are almost alike. Easy to say, if something ever happens to me, all my parts will be given to Sungmin hyung.

Kyuhyun kissed Sungmin’s hyung temples. “I really enjoyed your musical last night.”

Sungmin hyung grinned at Kyuhyun. My chest tightens as I continued staring at my untouched food. Kyuhyun went to Sungmin’s hyung musical and …. He didn’t even step foot anywhere near my musicals. I mentally chuckled. Who am I anyway to Cho Kyuhyun? His best friend? Forget about it. In Kyuhyun’s mind, there was only one thing and one thing only… Sungmin hyung.

 “Wookie, why aren’t you eating?” Kangin hyung asked, pointed at my untouched meal.

I shrugged. “I don’t know, hyung. I’m just not in the mood, I guess.”

“We have practise later on, Wookie ah. You should eat some at least.” Sungmin smiled sweetly at me.

Aish Sungmin hyung. There you go again, being all sweet and nice. How am I supposed to hate you when you’re like an angel to me? Of course Kyuhyun would fall in love with you. Of course, of course. I pushed my plate aside, feeling my gut being twisted. Everyone turned their heads to me and even Kyuhyun, whom I expected to just ignore me.

“Hyung, I’m skipping rehearsal today, I don’t feel so good.”

I left before Kangin hyung or Donghae hyung even had to worry about me because honestly, what was the ing use? Who was I really to them? I was getting tired of being treated so … plainly. Yes, they cared about me but until what extent? Kangin hyung would just stop worrying about me when Leeteuk hyung comes back and Donghae hyung… Pfft. Once Eunhyuk hyung lays a finger on him, he’s gone. You don’t even see an inch of him because he’s too busy wrapped up with Eunhyukkie hyung. I made my way to my room and flopped on my bed.

“I’m a mess.”

I whispered as I let out a fru