"You're up. How are you doing?" I gave him a smile.

"Never better." He sent his eyes across the living room. 

"Where are we? " I was dumbfounded. He can't remember this place? He can't remember where we stayed when we're in Japan for last ten years?

"Why are you staring at me? Close  your mouth or you'll drool. Yah Jonghoon. Answer me! Where are we? And how did I get in here?" Hongki shook me.

" We're in our dorm in Japan.  Can't you remember? ”  I exclaimed. 

“ Uhh... really?  Boy this place has changed a lot!"

"Not really" I mumbled. 

"What did you say? "

"Nothing. I wonder where the others are."

"Others?"

"Ye-ah. Seunghyun and Minhwan. Jaejin and Wonbin went to the rooftop. ” 

“ Wait what? Wonbin is here too?"

"Uh... yeah?! Can't you remember? ”  He lowered his gaze.

“ No." He whispered.  Hongki buried his hands in his pockets and walked slowly towards the window.  He gazed outside the window for a long time and sighed. 

I kept examining his behavior.  He didn't move a muscle.  All this time he kept standing near the window, gazing, hands buried in his pockets, sighing time to time. This is not the Hongki who was with us in the past. Seeing him like this make my heart scatter into pieces.  He’s my best friend! I don't want to see him like this. Yes I pity him. We all do. I can't stand this anymore.  I reached him and put my hand on his shoulder.  He snapped out from his deep thoughts.

“ You alright? " 

"No." He sighed. "Why is this happening to me?" He asked with a shaky voice. "I have done nothing wrong to anyone. Why is god punishing me?" A tear ran down from his left eye.

I sighed. I felt tears covering my eyes. I tried hard to hold it but I failed. “I don't know Hongki~ah! I don't know. " I sobbed. My heaet is aching like hell. Maybe this is the time to let it out. For all these days I kept holding it in. I didn’t show them that I'm really hurt. This is the time to let it out. It doesn't matter that I'm a guy, all I wanted to do is cry out loud.

Seeing me crying, Hongki hugged me tightly. "Jonghoon ~ah, I know you are hurt. I know! I won't be your best friend if I didn't know that. I'm sorry for causing you trouble. I'm sorry for all this burden." Hongki sobbed too. We both sobbed for god knows how long. "Don't say that. Don't say sorry always. It’s not your fault. "

Neither of us went out because paparazzies were outside waiting for one of us to appear.  They all want to know about yesterday's incident. It’s not always nice being a superstar. Our privacy limits like hell. I really ha