Summary: There are a lot of similarities between Minho and Jonghyun. The only difference is, Minho wants Kibum to smile a lot- no matter what the sacrifices are.

Rating: PG-13

Genre: Angst, Romance

Credits: { poster & background } Club X (Bartender Markjeon) (asianfanfics)

Minho bites his lip, cursing the gods because he hates being on the verge of tears. He hates showing his weakness, not just to s but to himself. Choi Minho does not cry. He doesn’t break down nor does he cry over a broken heart wanting desperately to be pieced back together. Because if a single tear falls, the walls that he’s manage to build around himself for the past two years, breaks down and he’s venerable. And Minho hates being venerable. Because people can hurt you. People you love and trust can leave a wound deep in the heart, that can never be mended.

He hears chuckling behind him; between them - Jonghyun and Kibum. And he hears the silent shattering of his heart.

Jinki glances at him, silently asking “are you okay?”

Minho nods and smiles. It’s what he does best. Pretending.

‘I’m okay hyung.’

But he’s not. Jinki sees this and Taemin who stands behind the leader sees this too. They share a glance and Minho thinks ‘just look away already.’ He hates it when Jinki stares at him. Jinki sees everything because he’s the leader and it’s one of his qualities. And Minho feels his eyes boring into his soul, unlocking all the secrets that Minho desperately wants to be kept.

“Minho-yah, come over here!” Minho hears Kibum call out to him.

The younger rapper blocks him out, not wanting to hear his boyfriend’s voice- his; Minho’s, not Jonghyun’s. Kibum was his. Minho still refuses to turn around because he has a vision in his head; Kibum tucked under Jonghyun’s arms, keeping him close to his heart.

“Hyung,” Taemin gives Kibum a look. “We’re posing for a photo shoot right now. Please be quiet and concentrate.”

Kibum’s mouth shuts, clearly taken back by how Taemin has scolded him. Minho thanks him with a smile and Taemin vaguely grins back as he leans on Jinki’s arm for support.

Minho hears Jonghyun whisper his name. He feels Kibum reach for his hand but Minho steps forwards, wanting Kibum to miss.

The camera man signals the countdown, Minho gets ready and Kibum snaps out of his trance. The confusion is evident on the latter’s face though as the camera man calls for a retake.

Minho smiles again, because it’s the only way to hide the pain.