0 0 2 Donghae was already loving the atmosphere here in London. Cold yet a warm tingling that was embracing him in the arms of the wind's. He had been smiling for the past one year, even though it still hurt him at times.  But all this time, donghae was only wondering about him.   Where was hyukkie?   Was he okay?   Does he have a special someone?   Maybe he still liked him?   Just a tiny bit?   Shaking his head furiously, he stared dreamily at the sky as he took a seat by the railings. Its hard to forget someone who you had almost spent half of your life with. What more, He was his first love. Taking his Iphone out, donghae swiped the screen and went to his 'memories that i will never forget' folder. A bittersweet smile emerged from his thin lips. He caressed his screen, over hyukjae's face. Donghae missed hyukjae's smile. The smile that was so contagious that once could not simply ignore. He missed how the latter will wake him up in the morning. Softly touching his skin with his fore finger over his eyebrows nose and mouth. With that he will whisper ' Morning my sunshine, Its another day of our love story' and than finally taking his lips in to a full morning kiss.      He missed those little small things that hyukjae will do to him. It made his heart swell in happiness, smile brightly as though he was the happiest man in the world and feel loved as though he was a precious expensive vase. But now that the older man was not around, he felt empty. But it was his decision. He did not knew that he was crying when a strong arm pulled him in to a warm hug. Sniffling, donghae snuggled against the warm object's chest.      " You are crying again donghae. Did you not promise me that you will not cry and be happy for me? hmmm?" Siwon whispered into donghae's ears. Donghae unknowing climbed into Siwon's embrace and stayed there for a few seconds.      " It still hurts wonnie. I loved him so much. We were even keen on adopting a kid. I was excited. I thought i was going to be a father. But all the hopes were crushed. Why wonnie? Was i not enough for him?" Donghae sobbed out loud as he stared into siwon's eyes. Those eyes were siwon's weakness. Siwon closed his eyes for a moment and carried donghae inside and placed him on the bed. Donghae sniffed and stared at siwon with a confused expression.      " Aren't you sleeping on the left side wonnie?" Donghae said     " Nah, You can sleep here. Be happy that you are cute." Siwon said and smiled at donghae. His eyes lit up as he flashed his toothless smile and slowly drifted off to a dreamless sleep. Sighing again, Siwon took a seat beside donghae.     

" He is the one not good enough for your sweet soul donghae ah. You are way to innocent and lovable. Who wouldn't love you. If only i was there for you earlier, I would have made you mine. " Siwon said and brushed off the few strands of donghae's fringe to the side of the face. He leaned down to place a soft kiss on his forehead and walked off to the mini bar.

 

  On the other side, Hyukjae was standing by the railing with a beer in his hand. Today was good. His business trade had ended well with anthony. But he can't help it but to smile sadly. Donghae had always wanted to visit London. With another sip of the bear, he let his thoughts wander about donghae.   Was the boy doing well?   Was he still as cute as he was?   Was he still the 5 year old boy stuck in a adult's body?     Hyukjae would be lying if he said that he never missed the brunette. His heart clenched at the thought of donghae. The way donghae patted his to wake him up in the morning for work. the way he will pull on his tie to place a kiss on his nose before finally placing a soft yet passionate kiss on his lips. The way he always looked at him with those loving yet sad eyes of his. And the way he welcomed him inside the home when he was at their house door step. And on the day of his birthday, how the boy had told him that he was ready for him. He missed everything about the latter. Gulping all of his beer in one gulp, he went to bed to get ready for tomorrow.      It was already 7 am in the morning when hyukjae had woke up. By the time he got up to bathe, get ready and all it was already 8.30 am. With a bright smile, he left the hotel room and into his car and just missed by a few seconds to see donghae coming out his hotel room too.     The first place he visited was the Hyde Park. Hyukjae really loved things that had to do with nature. It was the only way he could get away with his troubles. Taking a few more snaps of the place, He decided to head to a few more parks until he stopped at a cafe called 'salt'. He thought that it was odd how a cafe place was called salt until he sad down at the corner of the cafe by the window and took a sip of his esperesso. It was heavenly made. It had a sweet yet bitter taste to it. He loved coffee so this was the best he had tasted so far. Looking at the snow flakes fall down on the pavement from the sky he sipped on his esperesso again when he heard a voice that was he remembered vividly in his mind. He felt the whole world stop. The snow flakes, the people who were scurrying to work. Everything.        " Uhh, one! one, coffee prisu*." That voice said. It was obvious that the boy was from korea judging from his accent. And it was certain that he did not know english that well. Hyukjae slowly got of his seat and walked towards the counter. Each step he took made him nervous and was shaking in excitement.    " yes sir, but what type of coffee do you want to have? Esperesso? Americano? La-" The guy at the counter said but was cut of by the same cute yet squeaky voice again.      " AMERICANO! Yah! Sugar full prisu." That voice said again hyukjae was standing just right behind the boy. His heart exploded in happiness. His ears were right. It was indeed donghae. The donghae that was his boyfriend from middle school till they graduated and was his husband for 4 years. Donghae quickly fished out his phone and was dialing someone furiously. Hyukjae took sometime to