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"Mistakes obviously, shows us what needs improvement. Without mistakes, how would we know what we had to work on?" -Peter McWilliams
Seohyun made a mistake that she regret for her whole life, knowing she let go a person whom she never thought was indeed meaningful to her. She was a fool to let go the love of her life, but on that time she was still young, she never knew anything about love. Until she knew that making him go is the ultimate heartbreak she will ever feel. Will she take back the words she said before? Will she value him and love him the way he loved her before? Or would she just be a rock, pretend that everything's okay, that's she's not affected, that's she's not guilty on what she had done? Or would she swallow her pride just to get back the person she loves the most?
Kyuhyun loves her so much. He values her more than anything in this world, he always let her feel that he loves her. He never tried to make a mistake on hurting her but what he didn't knew the girl whom he's been dreaming of for his whole life was the one whom is going to hurt him and leave a scar on his heart who will never heal. After all of the words she said to him, would he'd be able to forgive her or will he just simply forget her and let go because that's how much he loves her?
Foreword
"I'm sorry.. I was wrong, everything was a mistake. I don't love you or should I say I never loved you.. I'm sorry but that's the truth.." I said looking down as this words came out of my mouth. I didn't want to look at his face, because I knew by myself I will feel guilt knowing I hurted him so much.
"You never loved me? Really Seohyun? Never?" I heard crackness, hurt and pain in his voice. Did I never loved him? I don't know.. The time I said yes when he was courting me I was forced, it was never my own will..
"I'm sorry Kyuhyun.." That was the only thing I could say right now.
"I don't believe you.." He whispred. "You love me Seohyun, you love me.."
"Kyuhyun.." I look up and saw tears forming in his eyes. I was pity of him seeing him being in that state. How can I hurt someone who's being so kind to me? I'm so cruel.
"You love me Seohyun.. I felt it." He said and finally a tear fell from his eyes, makes the situation I'm in right now harder than I thought. But I need to face, it was entirely my fault from the start.
I stared at his beautiful face and crying eyes then I felt him getting closer. Closer enough for me to feel his breath, his love for me. Then I felt his soft lips on my forehead. I closed my eyes, knowing I would miss this kind of feeling he gives me whenever he kisses my forehead. Now I'm having a doubtful mind.
"But... but.... If you want to have your freedom go ahead, if that will make you happy. Go ahead I will not stop you becuase I love you so much." He said to me softly and turned his back and left me standing on my place.
Suddenly I didn't want this to happen.. suddenly I want to take back the words I've said... suddenly I felt that I love him.
Guilt, that's what I'm feeling right now.
I love him. I do, but right now I made a very big mistake.. letting go and hurting the person who valued me more thatn anything to his life.
"Sorry..." then I felt a tear fell on my eyes.
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