I know it's shameful, but I can't get rid of this feeling. I can't stop thinking about us at all. I find myself reading about astrological signs almost everyday to get a better idea of you, but that's silly. I want to know you, I want to be around you.

It's hard though, every time I get closer, you walk away. You have so much to live for, so much life inside of you, it's hard to keep up. Sometimes I think you live for the both of us, or at least for someone else. I think it's because you wish, somehow, that you had someone by your side to be just as energetic an happy as you. I could be like that. I could thrive on your energy and give as much back because we'd share everything.

I'm making plans with you in mind. Sometimes I see us living together. It's embarrassing.

Whenever I'm alone at home and am cooking dinner, I have those conversations with you, asking you how your day was and then we start gossipping about our coworkers. We talk about the news, any trivial detail that has caught my attention during the day because I'm just full of those little details. It's insane, but it makes me happy.