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        Author's POV (3 Years Ago)     It was the last day of school, and Jessica was still hiding the feelings she has for Taeyeon. She hope that she will still be in the same school with Taeyeon after college, and she hoped that by the time they were older she would have the courage to confess her love for Taeyeon. But sometimes Love can be cruel..       *RINGGGGG* The school bell rang, the last day of school has officially ended. Jessica made her way to find Taeyeon wanting to see her as soon as possible.     Taeyeon's class was at the 9th floor while Jessica's was at the 2nd floor. This meant that Jessica would have to climb a flight of stairs before reaching Taeyeon. She was running and panting, this was not something Jessica Jung will do often (in fact she hates running and doing things that drains her energy and leaves her sweaty) but for Taeyeon, she was willing to do all these. She herself was blinded by love, and falling for Taeyeon deeper and deeper unconsciously.    "TAENGOO~" the sweet voice filled the whole of 9th floor but there was only one head that turned and face her with a smile and this little actions made her heart flutter inside.   As the two of them walked towards each other they could tell from the surroundings that most of their fellow classmates were actually confessing their love for the others since it was the last day of school.    And for a moment Jessica and Taeyeon could feel their heart thumping rapidly. Was this the feeling of Love between the both of them? In their heads, both if them were wondering if they should confess their love for each other. Neither if them knew that deep inside they belonged to each other.    Jessica couldn't help herself to this suffocating feeling in her anymore, she ran quickly to the older girl wanting to have Taeyeon in her embrace immediately.   The both of them embraced each other tightly caressing the other's back gently.    "Taengoo~ I miss you already.. Is this really the last day of school?" Jessica pouted, she can't accept the fact that today was the last day if school. Memories since the first day of school were still clinging onto the girl.    "Aww.. Sica, we can still hang out with the others so don't worry too much!"                      8 years later      "Don't worry too much"   Those words that Taeyeon had told her years ago when it was the last day of college..   Those words didn't really worked out well for the younger girl, Jessica had worried too much for all these years.    Jessica told herself that Taeyeon would still stay in contact with her after they graduate but that was not the case.The only girl that Jessica treasure the most left like the wind without telling her in advance.    No contact, no mails, there was nothing Taeyeon had left for the girl except giving Jessica a broken heart for 8 years straights.    The younger always felt that it was partly her fault for being such a timid girl that dare not go up to Taeyeon and confess her love. But at the end of the day, the past will remain in the past, there's only one thing for sure Taeyeon did not bother to contact the girl that still loves her unconditionally.    Many told Jessica that she was foolish for being too committed to Taeyeon, but Jessica believes that her sincerity would convince the gods in heaven to allow Taeyeon to return to her side. Funny to see Jessica being all holy, but the girl's fate wasn't favourable to her at all.    _________________________________   There were whispers within the crowd on the VIP floor as they stare at the lonely girl that just ordered 100 shots of tequilas. The girl seem new to the club but not to the bartender.    The shot of alcohol was gulped down in a go by a certain blonde within seconds, and within the next few minutes the blonde had finished the 100 shots of tequila that was ordered.   It was not an everyday thing for the patrons to see a girl drowning herself with 100 shots of strong alcohol like water in the pub despite the high alcohol percentage and the girl being all alone.   Who knows what will happen to young woman if someone plans to get in her pants?   But for the past 8 years, Jessica was a regular of Y&Y Club. Y&Y Club was Jessica's favourite, the club has this special design when the whole club was split into different regions for different patrons. The club was large consisting of 9 floors, and each floor for different purpose. The first floor was for business, second floor for those that came to make friends, thirds floor for those to get high, forth for those that were feeling down as well as those that enjoy music while the fifth floor for the VIPs of the club, this floor was one of the wildest floor. But for most of the time, Jessica was on the forth floor hanging around at her favourite spot at the pub. But most importantly she always tag along with the head bartender of the club, Im Yoona.    For most of the time, Jessica likes to drink while pouring our all those unwanted feelings to the young bartender. Yoona was a goo listener when it comes to Jessica, she found it amusing to hear Jessica's past relationship with Taeyeon, for Yoona had the mindset that those jerks only appear in movies all along. It was naive of the young innocent girl not knowing how cruel love is.      Yoona place the bottle of soju and beer before Jessica before continuing her daily routine, drying those glasses that was already washed cleanly.    Jessica was already drunk yet she decided to have a last bottle of 'So-mek' before proceeding to the stage.    "Where was I again?" Jessica asked once again, forgetting where she had stopped when telling her story.    "Taeyeon on the last day of college!" Yoona stopped everything before settling down listening to the drunk girl once again. Yoona was forever so interested in Jessica's love life.    "Oh right.. Taeyeon.. College.. Last day.. ." before Jessica could continue her story she broke down into tears once again as she was reminded of her past.    Yoona sigh before bringing her onto the stage, allowing the drunk girl to present her song to the VIP patrons.    Drinking and singing has been something Jessica's been doing ever since 8 years ago. That was the only way she could express how apologetic she was for failing to grab onto Taeyeon. Singing the song to the crowd in the club was like her way of declaring that she was wrong. It was the only way for her to feel better. And it was no exception today.    Yoona prepared the stage for the older girl for 8 years weekly without complains as this was the only way for her to help Jessica get better.     Jessica sat down looking at the piano, getting the feel of the song. Today seem weird for the girl for today was exactly the day Taeyeon left her 8 years ago. She could feel a sense of hope, but hoping too much would only result in greater pain later.    "Let us welcome Jessica Jung, with her composed song, Almost. The song was written 8 years ago, it reflects how she felt when she was being abandoned by the love of her life as well as how regretful she was for not holding onto the chance that she was given. Let us welcome her with a round of applause." exclaimed  Yoona.    Staring at the crowd she composed herself and as the the light dimmed, the melody of the piano came out reaching towards the crowd.            "Can you tell me, how can one miss what she's never had? How could I reminisce when there is not past? How could I have memories of being happy with you, boy? Can someone tell me how can this be?   How could my mind pull up incidents Recall dates and times that never happened? How could we celebrate love that's too late And how could I really mean the words I'm about to say?   I miss the times that we almost shared I miss the love that was almost there I miss the times that we