Sunny day

I see him on TV

I hear them on the radio

I feel all the love they're getting

My friends, my family, my members, I should be happy for them, but I'm not.

I can't

I thought maybe after all this time...

But I can't

Why did this have to happen? Why so suddenly? Why to us?

Maybe it was my fault and maybe not, but it doesn't matter.

I can't be happy for him, because I don’t want him to be happy without me.

It’s a terrible thing to say, but it is the truth. I love him.

The door opens "are you ok?"

I wipped of the tears

A figure walked in the dark room and set next to me. He put his arms around me and let me cry on his shoulder.

This isn't right, I should be the one taking care of them, not the opposite.

"Hey…" another figure kneeled in front of me

"I'm sorry" I wipped my tears again

"No don’t be…"

"Come with us, don’t stay here by yourself"

I looked at them, my two dongsengs. I let them down, they won't say it but I know.

I was the oldest, I should have stopped it

"Come on" he took me by the hand "there's a sunny day out there, you will see…"