A facade.

Yes, that's what he was, a facade.

Chen. Just a brave facade put on by Jongdae. A facade that no one saw through.

No one but Sehun.

It's been 3 years since Sehun first saw Jongdae and it's been 3 years since he first saw Chen too. Jongdae had been sitting alone on the bench at the center of the abandoned park, staring at his feet with eyes full of sadness as tears streamed down his face. Rain poured, drenching him from head to toe yet he still sat there, tears falling. It was oddly mesmerizing and Sehun couldn't help but be entranced. Walking up to the crying boy, Sehun held his umbrella over him, shielding him from the rain.

"Why are you crying" Sehun asked gently, not caring that his back was being soaked with rainwater. Jongdae looked up and his eyes immediately widened and his cheeks tinted pink.

"I . . you . . . wha . . . Oh Sehun" Jongdae sputtered all the while tears rolled down his face

"How do you know my name" Sehun replied, eyes widening in surprise

"Oh Sehun. The most popular freshman at our school. Everyone knows who you are" Jongdae gave a small, nervous laugh, finally wiping the tears off his face

". . . . Oh. I never knew" Sehun replied, giving a kind smile "Well since you know my name, can I have yours?"

" . . .Yea . . .Kim Jongdae. I'm a Junior so you don't know me." Jongdae replied shyly. Sehun was shocked to think that such a petite and fragile-looking guy could be older than him.

"Jongdae hyung. I like the sound of that" Sehun smiled, earning a small smile from Jongdae as well "And if you don't mind me asking, why were you crying?"

". . . . I'd rather not say" the sad look returning to Jongdae's face as his eyes filled with tears he was holding back

Frowning, Sehun stared at the boy seated in front of him. Suddenly grabbing one of the boy's wrists, Sehun pulled him into a one-armed embrace as he held the umbrella over both of them with his other hand.

"If you don't wanna tell me the reason, it's okay. But there's no reason to hold back your tears when your feeling upset." Sehun whispered, hugging a shocked Jongdae close to his chest

Waves of sadness and relief washed over Jongdae and he buried his face into Sehun's chest, sobbing and soaking the front of his school uniform. Dropping the umbrella, Sehun wrapped both his arms around the shorter male, pushing wet hair out of his face and rubbing his back consolingly until his sobs stopped and he stilled.

"Thank you" Jongdae sighed, his voice cracking

Sehun just gave him one last squeeze before grabbing his umbrella again.

"Let me walk you home" Sehun said as he wrapped an arm around Jongdae's shoulders, not even bothering to cover them with the umbrella again since they were both drenched

Walking in the rain, a comfortable silence formed between them, broken only by the occasional hiccup from Jongdae. Jongdae stared at the distance, leading the way. His eyes were red and his face was puffy as his soaked hair clung to his forehead. Sehun walked with him, occasionally stealing glances at the older boy. Stopping in front of an old apartment building, Jongdae sighed.

"Well, here we are" Jongdae announced flatly, glancing up at the building with it's darkened walls and menacing windows "I guess this is goodbye"

"Yea" Sehun said with a kind smile "But I'd like it if we could be friends after this"

"Yea, I'd like that too" Jongdae practically whispered, returning the kind smile

The two boy's eyes met for split second before Jongdae turned and walked into the building, leaving Sehun alone in the rain, wondering why his heart was pounding.

The next day, Jongdae, or who Sehun recognizes as Chen now, came running up to Sehun, linking arms with the younger boy and ignoring the glares from the girls surrounding them.

"Sehun-Ah" Jongdae (Chen) had said happily, smiling up at the younger boy

"Hey hyung" Sehun said happily, still unaware of Chen at the time "Glad to see your feeling better"

"Of course i'm feeling better" Jongdae (Chen) replied "Sadness doesn't fit someone as great as I"

From that point on, Jongdae (Chen) and Sehun had become better friends. And as they became better friends, Sehun began to realize how Jongdae would put up a facade whenever they were in public. He would tease and make fun of everyone. Pulling pranks and being mischievous all the time. But there are rare moments when the two are alone that the sad, distant look that was always in Jongdae's eyes became more clear. He would act shyer and more timid but no sooner than Sehun would realize it, it would disappear and Jongdae (Chen) would be rambunctious and loud once more. It was in the fleeting moments when Jongdae was being himself that Sehun realized how much he liked the older. It was also in the fleeting moments of Jongdae acting shy and timid and cute that Sehun fell deeper for the older boy. Upon realizing that Jongdae was putting up a facade, Sehun named it Chen. Simply because Chen was not Jongdae and Jongdae was not Chen, no matter if they share the same body and mind.

It's been 3 years. 

3 years since Sehun first met Jongdae and Chen.

3 years since Sehun had first seen the boy crying by himself in the pouring rain.

3 years since Sehun fell madly in love with said boy.

3 years of suppressed feelings.

3 years and Sehun's finally decided to confess.

But confessing sounds easier than it actually is since there is one major obstacle in the way.

Chen.

Sehun doesn't like Chen. Sehun likes Jongdae. But Chen is always in the way and Sehun so desperately wants to just snap Chen in half so that he can finally embrace Jongdae (assuming that Jongdae returns Sehun's feelings)

So here he is, in front of Seoul Institute of the Arts, leaning against the brand new car his parents bought him when he got his license, while waiting for his best friend who just graduated high school last year. Spotting the shorter male heading towards the college gates, Sehun waved.

"Hyung" Sehun shouted, ignoring the gawking of the college girls passing by.

"Sehun ah! I hope you're not here to ask me to buy you bubble tea again" Jongdae (Chen) taunted with a smirk "Or are you here 'cause you have no other friends and you miss me already? It's only been a month since the start of the school year"

"You're so mean" Sehun scoffed, smiling right afterwards

"Well you're still a brat so I guess we're even" Jongdae (Chen) replied, climbing into the passengers seat as Sehun got into the driver's seat "Are you even old enough to drive?"

"Yup. Got my license last week" Sehun said proudly, glancing at his hyung who was pulling on the seatbelt.

"Really? Oh god, we're sooo gonna die." Jongdae (Chen) mimicked panic "So what are we doing today?" he continued nonchalantly

"How 'bout dinner?" Sehun replied, pulling his seatbelt on as well

"Is this a date?" Jongdae (Chen) asked suggestively "Are you trying to hit on me? If so, then you're doing a terrible job and I have to refuse"

"This isn't a date so you have no right to refuse" Sehun replied, eyes glues to the road ahead

The rest of the drive was spent in a comfortable silence until they pulled up to a small restaurant near Sehun's house that they went to regularly. Sitting down in their regular seats, dinner was casual. Jongdae (Chen) joked and poked fun at Sehun who in turn, poked fun at Jongdae (Chen) as well. They teased and taunted each other back and forth like bickering 5 year olds, something they constantly did. By the time dinner was finished, the sun had started to set. They decided to go to Sehun's house for a movie, Jongdae (Chen) deciding he would sleep over since Sehun's house was closer to his University. As they pulled into the driveway of Sehun's house, Jongdae (Chen) jumped out of the car and rushed to the door, pulling the spare key from it's spot before sliding it into the lock and opening the door. Quickly shutting the door behind it, Jongdae leaned against it until he could hear Sehun's soft footsteps on the porch.

"What's the password?" Jongdae (Chen) teased as Sehun knocked on the door

"Let me in"

"Wrong! Guess again" Jongdae taunted as Sehun sighed

"Sehun's much inferior to the almighty Kim Jongdae" Sehun replied, rolling his eyes

"Not quite but good enough" Jongdae (Chen) said as he opened the door and ran into the living room as if he owned the house

"You really need to stop locking me out of my own house" Sehun said once he locked the door behind him

"Well you need to stop being so slow then" Jongdae replied, sliding onto the end of the couch, ignoring the eye roll Sehun gave him

"What do you wanna watch?" Sehun asks, walking towards his collection of DVDs and scanning the multitude of movies he owned

"Anything" Jongdae (Chen) replied, pulling his legs up to his chest, resting his cheek on his knees

Grabbing a random DVD, Sehun placed into the DVD player before seating himself next to Jongdae (Chen)

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It's been an hour into the movie and Jongdae is completely engrossed. His eyes are glued to the screen and he now rests his head on Sehun's shoulder. Throughout the movie, Sehun can't concentrate. He keeps stealing glances at Jongdae who for once, isn't putting up a face. Heck! Sehun's been too busy trying to catch glances at Jongdae that he doesn't even know what's going on in the movie right now.

Suddenly, Sehun got an idea.

"Hyung" Sehun whispered into Jongdae's ear, sending shivers up the shorter male's spine

Being so engrossed in the movie, Jongdae turned and only stared at Sehun with a blank expression that Sehun found absolutely adorable. Seeing his chance, Sehun leaned down and pressed their lips together gently. Flicking his tongue out, Sehun Jongdae's lips, asking for entrance. Jongdae slowly parted his lips, allowing Sehun's tongue to slip in. Soon, both boys had their eyes half lidded and were panting when they broke apart.

"What was that for?" Jongdae asked timidly, his face tinting a cute shade of red

"I like you" Sehun replied, pressing their foreheads together as he placed his hands on Jongdae's hips. Sehun could feel Jongdae's breath on his face and he wanted so badly to kiss him again.

"since when?" Jongdae asked, trying not to meet Sehun's eye

"Since the time I saw you crying in the rain at the park"

"But that was the first day we met" Jongdae said quietly, a bit of surprise laced in his voice

"I guess it was" Sehun replied, closing his eyes, he gave Jongdae another kiss

". . . . what do you like about me?" Jongdae asked when they broke apart again, this time looking Sehun in the eye

"Everything. Your angelic voice. Your soft hair. Your kissable lips. Your deep eyes. Your porcelain face. And your lovable personality" Sehun replied in a hushed whisper

". . . .Well, my personality isn't what you think it is. I'm sorry. I'm not actually outgoing or loud or fun or any of those things. . . .I just acted that way because I was afraid you wouldn't like me. . . . just like the boy I had liked from before . . . he said I was dull and that's why I cried in the park that day . . . I'm sorry for lying to you . . . It was all fake" Jongdae looked away from Sehun, his voice barely above a whisper but obviously filled with guilt

Cupping Jongdae's face, Sehun made Jongdae look him in the eye.

"I know. It's been 3 years. I'm your best friend. You think I wouldn't have noticed? I fell in love with the shy, timid, sensitive boy from 3 years ago who'd occasionally show himself when we were alone. Not the face you put up. So promise to be you from now on, 'cause I like you. Kim Jongdae. No one else" Sehun said reassuringly, giving Jongdae a kind smile

Giving a small nod and a wide smile, Jongdae wrapped his arms around Sehun's neck.

"I like you too" Jongdae said, bringing their lips together in a sweet kiss

By the end of the night, the two had completely forgotten about the movie. They had both ended up laying down on the couch, Jongdae curled up against Sehun who had an arm wrapped around Jongdae's waist protectively and a hand tangled in Jongdae's soft hair, preventing him from falling. Jongdae had fallen asleep long ago, the sound of the ongoing movie and the warmth of Sehun lulling him into dreamland, as Sehun continued to run his fingers through Jongdae's hair. Looking at the shorter male's peaceful sleeping face, Sehun gave him a quick peck on the nose before resting him chin atop the elder's head. Smiling in content, Sehun closed his eyes and allowed sleep to envelope him.

There is no more Chen.

Just Kim Jongdae.

Who's is in his arms right now.

Because Kim Jongdae is his.

A/N: Oh god. . . this is not what I expected but in the end it turned out okay

Anyways, I'm sooooooooo sorry for taking soooo long to post it

I didnt even re-read it so sorry for any mistakes

I had sooo much school stuff to do so I didnt have time to do this TT^TT

And im sorry cause this turned out to be soooooo cheeesy too *∆*

 

THANK YOU FOR READING ^∆^