MOVING ON
BLACK HOOD![](http://i.imgur.com/KCBQdeu.jpg)
after top hyung talked to me,my mind seemed to be a little clear now
he's right
she will never come back even if i ruin my life
it's nonsense
what has happened,happened...
cannot be changed
all i can do now is move on
and continue my life
without her
without the person i love
it's possible,right??
my phone beeped
"hyung we have a gig tonight,don't be late,love you hyung!!"
it's seungri
ahh that boy he is so childish!!!
i joined their group
BIGBANG IS THE NAME!!
cool right??
we have a gig tonight
i saw my digicam on a table
our videos are still there
memories ....
only memories are left
*flashback*
i was sleeping on the couch
i saw dara standing in front of me
"hi ji!!"
her smile was weird
i have a bad feeling about this
"hello"
she gigggled
I KNEW IT!!
i looked at myself at the mirror
my face was filled with drawings,scribbles and everything
like what the pokemon jigglypuff always does
then she showed up holding a camera
"hi ji!!say hi to the camera!!"
"WITH THIS FACE!!"
she pouted...
"you mad at me,ji??"
then my heart surrendered and melted....
i wrapped my arms on her shoulders
"aniyo,of course not.i love you"
i kissed her cheek
she kissed my cheek too
"i love you too,ji!!"
*end of flashback*
i felt tear sliding down my cheeks
i guess tears are part of moving on
i wiped my tears and smiled
"bye dara,bye princess"
the night came
i reached the restaurant we will perform at
"hyung!!"
seungri welcomed me with a high five
after a few minutes we were called on stage
we performed haruharu
(A/N listen to it guys it's daebak!!)
Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah
My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(Say goodbye)
Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
[Chorus]
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye...
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
[Chorus]
I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you
[Chorus]
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye
then the second song was tiltled LIES
Yeah (love is pain)dedicated to all my broken hearted people. One’s old flame, just scream my name and I’m so sick of love songs. Yeah hate damn love songs. Memento of ours… Lies!
A late night and rain falling down. I bring you back from my memories. I promised myself I would be fine without you, but I can’t help it. I take in liquor which I don’t even know how to handle trying to fill my empty heart. A day without you is too long. I pray that I may please forget you (that’s a lie).
Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can’t even shed any tears. I don’t want to live anymore.
Yeah, this is bull, it’s pissing me off. I’m going crazy in thoughts of you. I want to see you, but *I was told that I could not, that it’s all over (I’ll be right there).
I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?
I dedicated my all into this song for you (other people probably don’t know). By myself, without anyone knowing. (yeah, those words I said were lies). A loner left in the midst of it all. In my pocket is the breakup letter that’s all wrinkled and folded up in my pocket, hey, (and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are). I’m gonna change, I’ll laugh everything off from now on.
I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?
Oh oh oh oh oh, I hope this is all a dream. Oh oh oh oh oh, because I only add up to this much. Drop that babe, I still can’t forget you. No I don’t think I ever will, even ’til the day I die, yeah. Did the scars I gave you heal? I’m sorry because I never got to do anything for you.
I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?
then our performance ended
the crowd applauded
those two songs
really struck my heart
they represent how i feel right now
is it all a lie dara??
what we had was just a lie, right??
you never loved me,did you??
but still i hope you all the best
may he never hurt or make you cry
"hyung we did great!!"-seungri
"maybe because our leader is just nothing but AWESOME!!"-taeyang
"hey!!we all did our best !!"
"i'm glad you listened to me,jiyong!!"-top
"tnx hyung :)"
"hey!!hey!!can we eat now ,i'm starving!!erkkkk!!hear that !!it's my stomach!!erkkk!!"-daesung
"iww hyung you're so gross!!!"-seungri
we all laughed
then we ate at that same restaurant
the owner liked our performance and gave us free dinner
he also said we are gonna a regular performer in this place
we are so happy.
while eating i saw a couple from a nearby table
they reminded me of us before
i took a deep breath and smiled
then top hyung patted my back
"everything's gonna be okay,ji"
"tnx hyung :)"
after eating,we said our goodbyes at each other
on my way home,a group of men blocked my way
"remember me??"
a guy spoke
he's the same guy i beaten up
the one with the girl
"leave me alone"
i triesd to walk away but he grabbed my colllar
"my girl broke up with me!!!and that's all because of you!!!you s** o* a b****!!!"
he punched me..
i fell on the ground
"it's not my fault dumba**!!maybbe she realized how stupid you are!!!"
then the others started to attack me
i fought but they're too many
they left
i was left on the street
on the ground
i saw figure standing in front of me
"you again??"
it's black hood
as usual he started to treat my wounds again
i can't see his face
he's wearing a mask aside from the hood
"who are you??"
he didn't replied
"hey!!answer me you bastard!!!"
"show me your face you stupid coward!!"
"are you ugly??are you a ghost??"
"HEY!!"
he just doing his thing on my wounds not minding my questions
if only i have the strength to remove his mask but i was too weak to even move a finger
"have you fallen in love??"
"you know i love this girl,but she left me"
"that girl changed me,i thought she loved me but it's all a lie.i'm a fool,right??you can laugh at me GO ON!!I AM SUCH A
STUPID JERK!!but you know why??i still love her...bigtime!!she still holds my heart...my aching heart!!!but she's in another man's arms now!!can't bring her back anymore...she will not come back"
he stood up
"hey!!"
i hold his hand
this is so familiar
his hand is so familiar
he took it and ran
vanished in the dark
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
hey guys sorry for late update
got hospitalized for two days plus it's finals week
i'm really sorry guys
hope you understand and still read my story :))
just feel free to comment
CHING!!!
otakuFG
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