http://youtube.com/watch/?v=t4IP7vz7vtE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYw7eJYadco

(please listen to both as you read heehee)

Junhyung's pov

drip

drip

i looked up as i saw the sky get greyer by the second.

It was about to rain.

and just when i'm so far away from her. damn.

i don't want to break another promise. I've broken enough.

She turned her back on me as she said those cold words. 
"Oppa. am i more important or are your fans more important? it's either you make the choice now or i'll help you choose."
i could hear the tremble in her voice.
She must be really hurt.
But i can't tell her the truth either.
"mianhae.. " (i'm sorry)
Before i could say anymore, she ran away from me. 

I stared into space as i felt my heart stop again.

I walked to my car and immediately started to drive to her place.

it took so long to get her to reply me again. after those countless messages and calls and subtle hints on all the shows i was om, she had finally decided to talk to me again.

Even though she doesn't trust me, it's enough.

the fact that she even bothers to reply me at all, no matter how cold and how sharp her words are, it's okay. i can bear with the pain.

afterall i'm the reason why she's being like this to me now.

Soon, i reached her apartment building. 

I texted her that i was here as i waited for her to appear.

She had always been scared of rainy days.

something about it making her feel lonely.

but i knew the real reason why she was scared.

Things always went wrong for her on rainy days.

she lost her father in a terrible car accident on a rainy day.

her mother died in the hospital after a long battle with cancer on a rainy day.

I broke her heart on a rainy day.

Rainy days just weren't good for her. 

And she also has her depression. On normal days, it was bad enough. But on rainy days, i don't even want to think about it.

she had came doen a few minutes after i texted her.

God. She's just beautiful.

Wearing a large grey sweater and pale blue shorts with her long wavy brown hair in a pony tail, she was just everything i dreamt of.

Her round brown cold eyes looked up at me

"oppa. you came. "

Her tone struck my heart into pieces as i tried to smile at her.

"of course i would. i promised you long ago didn't I?"

"well, promises don't matter to you do they? "

She then turned and walked into her appartment building again as  trailed after her like a lost puppy.

She knew that i would follow. I always had.

Soon we were on her sofa watching running man with no conversation.

the atmosphere was just cold.reaching out

boom

the power went out 

the rain had been going on for wuite awhile now and i expected this as much

"oppa.."

her voice trembled as my heart started reaching out to her

I knew that she must have been scared

i moved closer to her

"neo gwaenchanha? " (are you okay?)

She didn't say anything but she moved closer to me too

I wrapped my hands around her as i felt her stiffen upon contact.

eventually, she softened and moved into my embrace.

i could feel her body shivering in cold and in fear

I couldnt help but to hold her closer to my warmth

She closed her eyes 

I glanced at her face that was so close to mine.

Her long eyelashes. Pale spotless skin. cute button nose. fluffly pinchable cheeks. pink kissable lips.

God. I still loved her. so much.

As her breathing started to become slower and more even, i started singing to her sleeping body.

Come find me on rainy days
Stay up all night and annoy me
When the rain stops I’ll follow
And leave slowly leave a little at a time and cease like the rain

"i know i had hurt you alot. and I really didn't mean to. but things are complicated and there's no other way. If there were, I wouldn't be this miserable. We wouldn't have ended up like this. I know it annoys you when i reply slowly. But if i could, I would spend all my time on you. I'm sorry. really i am. I know you don't love me anymore but i can't help but love you and worry for you.especially on rainy days like this. I promise that I'll try to let go. slowly but surely. When the rain stops, I'll leave. But now, i'll use the rain as a guise for me to be with you. I'll treasure this short time i have with you. It's the only time i canbe. I'm sorry that i hurt you. I'm sorry that i can't be strong enough for the both of us. I'm sorry.

But I love you."