My name is Hyukjae, and i have a older brother or I should say I had, I do not know what term to use because it is still alive next to me yet very far away

When we were kids there was not one day when we were fighting, but I was always next to each other if he needed something I was there, if I needed someting he was there

But everything changed when his  special person's  appeared  , everything changed too fast,            I could not keep up with change

tI was once two people with one heartbeat . I WAS
when we were not together, we were thinking  about each other .BUT
For your special person when she appeared everything completely collapsed between us

Now we are two people with two different heatrbets So different
Now that's just me thinking of you

You know although it has been 5 years since we could talk without argue, without reproach us something
5 years when not even see eye to eye
You know that I have moments when I get home, I go in the room, close the door, give go of loud music and cry, sometimes I do not know why
but when I see your picture I know why, because of the emptiness in my heart
I do not know if we can return to what we were, or if you read this

but I want you to know that I will always love you big brother 

                                                                                      WITH  LOVE YOUR BABY BROTHER