Look and Tell Me
                                                                                                            saemi-san
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There was something about the way Taeyeon looked at her sometimes that Tiffany never could really understand.

All that she knew was that it always drew her in when those dark pools of onyx would gaze upon her.

There was just too much mystery in Taeyeon's eyes

and somehow...something different about the way her best friend's  emotions swirled in them that Tiffany couldn't really figure out.

Of course Tiffany wanted to question Taeyeon about it.

But in the end, Tiffany didn't really bother anymore and just settled to leave it be.

Most people would be a bit unnerved about it.

But it was Taeyeon,

and because it's was her...

Tiffany didn't really mind.

Slowly the years passed and a lot of things happened including the success of their careers.

They changed a lot over the years and matured a in a lot of ways.

But even through all the years,

the way Taeyeon looked at her was always the same.

It didn't matter if the cameras were rolling, or if they were with their members, or if they were alone...

Taeyeon always had the same gaze towards her.

After being with each other for so long, Tiffany finally couldn't resist questioning it.

First she decided to ask Jessie about what she thought about it.

But then the ice princess just looked at her with an incredulous look on her face and said

"Really now? You really don't get it do you?"

Sighed and added "You're really a pabo Fany ah."

Then walked away muttering something under her breath that sounded a lot like "hopeless" and "frustrating."

The interaction only seemed to confuse Fany even more. So she decided to ask Sunny since she was one of the members that is pretty close to Taeyeon because they were roomies.

"Tsk. Tsk. You really are something aren't you Fany-ah?" The bunny said with what Tiffany could describe as an almost patronizing tone.

Frustrated at the fact that she couldn't seem to come up with any concrete answers by herself or even get any from her friends, Tiffany couldn't help but pout and let our her frustration on her danshin friend.

"Yah! What's that supposed to mean?! I mean why can't you or Jessie at least give me a straight answer or something!" Tiffany said as she stomped her foot and crossed her arms while glaring at Sunny.

Somehow, already anticipating such a response from the other girl, Sunny couldn't help but smirk and decided to add in a helping hand to her friend's dilemma.

"Well, you know what the say...You should always go to the root of the problem."

"In other words, why not ask Taeyeon yourself"

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And so that's what Tiffany decided to do. Which is why she found herself stomping towards the door of the room of their Kid Leader, Taeyeon.

Nervous and hesitant about how she was going to approach the other girl, Tiffany waited a bit outside the door in order to calm her nerves and steel her resolve before knocking at the door.

"Come in."

Turning the knob and pushing the door open, Tiffany found herself walking inside the room with slow steps.

Truthfully, she was stalling a bit. Although she was very adamant on getting an answer from Taeyeon, it's been a long time since she first noticed it so she was a bit embarassed at the fact that she never really did anything about it sooner. But Tiffany decided long before, that the reason was simple.

'Because it was Taeyeon, that's why...'

and that reason was good enough to her.

Snapping out of her internal thoughts, Fany found herself welcomed with the sight of Taeyeon sprawled on her bed with her hands preoccupied with a Manghwa. Noticing the company she had, the small blonde girl eyes lit with recognition and moved to a sitting position as she smiled at the other before talking.

"Ah! Fany-ah! It's you! What are you doing here? Keke. Did you get lonely in your room by yourself and wanted to hang out?" she said with dorky grin plastered to her face.

Tiffany couldn't help but roll her eyes at the other girl.

'Leave it to Taetae to bring out her dorky side when I actually wanted to talk about something seemingly serious.'

"Actually there's something I want to talk to you about which is why I'm here." she said as she slowly moved towards to bed where the other was sitting in order to find herself her own seat.

Sensing Tiffany's seriousness in her previous words Taeyeon couldn't help be curious and a bit worried about what the other wanted to talk about. So as the other sat herself down on her bed, Taeyeon couldn't help but look for any signs that could serve as a clue as to what would be bothering her mushroom.

"Is there something a matter? Fany-ah, you know you can talk to me about anything and I'll gladly be here here to help you, okay?"

Looking at Taeyeon, Fany had an unreadable look to her face while facing her head away from her that Taeyeon didn't like.

'Fany only ever uses that face if she's been seriously thinking about something she thinks is important or if she didn't want anyone to know what she was thinking.'

"Taeyeon...no..Taetae-ah..."

"Yes Fany?"

"If I asked you a question right now, would you lie to me?"

Blinking at what the other girl said, Taeyeon couldn't help but wonder what this is really about. But sensing that her mushroom would be upset if she didn't prove to be cooperative, she answered the other girl.

"No. I guess I wouldn't."

Seemingly satisfied with the answer, Fany nodded her head in silence.

"Fany-ah, what's this about? you're starting to worry me."

This time Fany decided to look her in the eye and the seriousness in her eyes told Taeyeon that whatever the other girl says next it would be better to answer the girl truthfully no matter what.

Deciding to prove that she would be sincere to Fany, Taeyeon didn't dare break eye contact as she waited for the other to speak.

"It's that."

"eh?" Caught off guard by the statement that only seemed add confusion to the situation.

Taeyeon couldn't help but scrunch her face.

"I could never know what you're thinking much less feeling when you do that..."

"Fany what are y--" Taeyeon wanted to question the dark haired girl but was cut off by a stern voice.

"No. Let me finish."

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"I've been waiting a long time to ask or tell you this so I don't want you to interrupt me."

"It...it's always been bothering me before Taetae. "
"I mean..."

"The fact that I can't seem to grasp why is it that you seem so difficult to read when we've known and lived with eachother for years just frustrates me!

 "I mean, of course I can understand why you do this or say that...because I'm your bestfriend...
 but there's always been this one thing that's been hard for me understand...
 and it's this..it's your eyes...your gaze...your stare..your look...
 I don't think I can explain it well to you because like I said I can't figure it out.
 But one thing I'm certain is that it's always different when it's directed at me.
 I always felt it was different and whenever I try to decipher why is it that I can't understand the emotions hidden behind your eyes..."

 "I hit a roadblock...it's like your shutting me out but at the same time your aren't. But I let it go. I let it go because it's you.
 But I just had to finally find out because Jessi and Sunny seem to know what exactly it means but won't tell me!"

"So please Taeyeon...Answer me truthfully..."

"What do you think when you look at me like that that makes me clueless?"

"Taetae...What are you hiding behind your eyes when you look at me?"


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When Tiffany basically told her to shut up and listen to her when she speaks, Taeyeon couldn't help but be both amused and a little but dumbfounded at the command.

So playing safe, she just decided to do what Manager Hwang told her to do as shut up and listened.

Finding it a bit endearing how somehow cute Fany is when she rambles, she couldn't help but soften up a little thinking it might be another one of her numerous rants.

But when Fany started to talk to her...
as in really talk to her about Taeyeon's stares and the hidden meaning behind them,
She knew she was in trouble.

Her eyes couldn't help but grow bigger and her eyebrows couldn't help but shoot up as she continued to listen to Fany
while the realization of her inability to hide her true feelings for the girl seem to sinked it.

But then, it seemed like as obvious as she was...Tiffany was also obviously oblivious to her true feelings.
So when she finally stopped and asked her truthfully the one question she really wanted an answer to with those rich beatiful brown eyes she loved so much...

"Taetae...What are you hiding behind your eyes when you look at me?"

...Taeyeon knew that she couldn't hide behind her stares any longer...

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Stopping to finally catch her breathe, Fany never left her gaze away from Taeyeon's face. Waiting patiently to hear Taeyeon's voice, Tiffany couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed or sad that maybe the other girl wouldn't tell or talk to her.

So when the other girl moved herself a little bit closer to her so that their faces were only inches a part, Tiffany couldn't help but stay frozen

And when Tiffany felt the other other girl cup her cheek while gently her face with her thumb, she couldn't help let out a small gasp and she willed herself not to shut her eyes.

"You want to know? Do you want to know why I look at you the way I do?" Taeyeon said in a hushed voice, looking at her with those intense pools of onyx.

"Do you? Do you want to know what the emotions I keep hidden that I try not to let you know about really are?...."

She find's Taeyeon's voice enchanting as she asks her these questions which she couldn't seem to answer as if she was in a spell.

"Fany-ah..if you couldn't figure it out then I guess I should be more obvious." She said to her as she can feel the small puffs of air coming out everytime she speaks tickling her skin as the other's face grow closer to hers.

"Why don't I show you instead?" was the last thing she whispered near Fany's lips as she locked both their lips together.

It was slow at first and Fany didn't react until a few seconds passed and the fact that she was being kissed finally registered in her mind.

Tiffany started kissing back as she found her hand making their way to play with soft blonde locks.

As the kiss progressed and their lips moved in sync with one another, Fany couldn't help but remember all those times Taeyeon and her shared these looks...
and through every flashback she somehow remembers, and then everything became clear to her as she realizes the emotions swirling in Taetae's eyes every time.

Infatuation.    Longing.    Affection.    Care.    Lust.    Love.

She really was a fool like Jessica said...and she really was as oblivous as Sunny said...

Because if she was smarter and sharper then she could have just looked at a mirror to actually notice that the way she stared at Taeyeon was exactly the same as Taeyeon's stare towards her.

Pulling back from the kiss.

Tiffany opened her eyes to see her Taetae smile that dork smile she loved so much.

"Do you understand now Hwang Miyoung?"

"Tiffany...I love you.... I always loved you"

"Taetae...I...didn't mind it you know...I didn't mind it because I told myself it was you. Because...I love you too. I also always did love you."

She said as she buried her face on the crook of Taeyeon's neck as she hugged her tightly.

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--------------------------------------------------------------------------------BONUS CHAPTER------------------------------------------------------------------

SY: "Omg...finally!"

SNY:"Shhh! Yah Shiksin! shut up!...they might hear us you know!"

SY:"What? Don't tell me that you didn't think that it was about time those two got together?

HYO: "She got you there...I mean their eye was starting to get intolerable"

SEO:"Unnie! I don't really think that it's right to listen in on Taeyeon-unnie and Tiffany-unnie...What if they get mad at us?"

YOO:"Don't worry Seohyun! If they catch us I'll protect you."

JES:"Whatever, Let's just hope that those two don't start to get intimate too soon. Tiffany's voice is pretty loud."

YUL: "Sica! ...You don't think they'd be that quick right?"

JES: "one word. BYUNTAE"

Everyone simultaneously agreed as they started to disperse before they get caught.

Unknown to the two, that at the other side of the door were the rest of the members eavesdropping on them.

A WEEK LATER JESSICA WAS PROVEN TO BE RIGHT AND THEY QUICKLY DECIDED TO GIFT THE COUPLE A DISCOUNT COUPON AND FLYER ABOUT SOUNDPROOFING THEIR ROOM.