don't you just love this pic? kekeke... credits to the owner/s.

start!

fool. No, I'm not. I refuse to call myself that. I will never regret letting Dara go. I may not be that type, but I believe in serendipity. Ever heard of the saying "If you love her, set her free. If she comes back, she's yours."? That's fate. That's destiny.

stupid. I guess I am. I should never had taken her for granted. I should never dropped that I-need-to-find-myself crap. Look where it got me?

I can give you many reasons why I did what I did. I can give you a reason that you would like to hear. But that wouldn't matter, right? What I honestly felt that time was fear. Fear that I'll hold her back from her dreams. Fear that she will be so dependent on me that she'll be lost if death takes me. Fear that I can not make her happy the way she deserves to be.

Coward. That's what I am. She was all that I ever want and more. I love her so much. So much that it hurts just the thought of her leaving me. My Achilles heel. She had so muh power over me and I can't let her do that. Not when I know what heartbreak is. But she was the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me. That one fateful night of September, I've forgiven my first love. I let Dara in my heart and she had it locked. Only she holds the key.

I was never okay with Won Bin as part of her life (and mine). All those times that she had to say no, not tonight, maybe next time because of a prior commitment with Won Bin broke me over and over again. I was a masochist. I was supposed to let her walk away to save me from the potential heartache. Seeing her with Won Bin is more than what my heart could ever bear. It was emotionally exhausting but I had to hold on. I know Dara was tired as well. I can't completely give her up. Not when I realized that one simple truth, she was the one.

All that is in the past. No matter how much I rant, I can never change that. I can never take her pain away. It's one thing that I can never undo. Part of my history and hers. But I promised myself. When fate will lead her back to me, I will no longer cower.

She's the reason why I'm here, hurrying my way over to Hongdae. I already pictured her inhaling deeply the aroma of coffe before her lips meet the cup. She'll have her eyes closed and a tiny smile. God, I miss her. I miss looking into the depths of her brown eyes. I miss touching her silky hair. I miss her sweetest smile. I miss being with her.

I see a vacant spot in the parking. The gods are with me. As I walk my way up to her, the feeling of longing is slowly ebbing away.

Dara-yah...

Oh... You're here.

Neh. How you've been doing? You look sad? Aren't you happy to see me my little rabbit?

Aigoo... It's not that. I'm fine, really. I'm so glad you're back.

Really? You missed me that much but why the long face?

I have to tell you something...

Well... I'm nervous with this 'something'. Should I be worried?

Anio...

Okay.
 

Uhmmm... Have you met someone in Japan? A pretty Japanese girl, perhaps?

No. Why are you asking me this question?

...because I want you to.

Huh?! What do you mean?

I want you to meet someone... I want you to date... go out with other girls... explore other possibilities. I just can't tie you to me. Not anymore...

...
 

Yongie-ah...

So... Does this mean... Does Won Bin know about this talk we have right now?

Won Bin... Uhmmm... He won this masterchef competition. He'll stay in Paris, indefinitely.
 

Are you going to Paris? Is that what you want to tell me?

No. No... I'm going back to Busan. Omma needs me right now.

Arasseo...
 

I want you to be happy Jiyong. Please be happy, just as I want Won Bin to be.

I never asked you to choose...

I know. But I can't do this anymore. I can't do this to you, I can't do this to Won Bin. I'm not that special..

You are. Yes, you are... Can I... Can I still call you? Can we stay friends?

Of course! Silly. I'll always be your friend.

You've thought this over, neh?

I have... I'm sorry. Goodbye Yongie. Take Care...

What happened? Did she just left me? Did she just say goodbye?

Would I let her do that? Would I just simply let her walk away? Far away from me?

I can feel the adrenalin rush, making my heart beat twice as fast. I have to move. Run. Run after her. Run after my Dara. I saw her filling her lungs with air and breathe out steadily. The corners of her lips moving up. She was crossing the street, walking farther away from me. As I make my way towards her, I saw the white bentley rushing. Towards her. Towards my Dara. She was in a trance, like a deer caught in the headlights.

I need to get to her. Move feet. I have this look of horror written on my face as I race against that machine. I can't keep up with the pounding in my chest.

DARA!

Time stopped. Everything in a standstill. My breath knocked out of me. Then I feel this burning pain.

Dara...

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A/N: Yay! Finally, Jiyongie's POV. Still writing the 2nd shot. Later...