Painkiller 

P/s : This story interwoven between the past and present should have some sections that will make you confused what should have just ignored me. love

Dose painkiller for me to win? 
When I found the peace? 
When the sun lit up again? 
Parting Where it will take us? 
Or become dull pain until death? 
I choked breath 
Time did not heal the wounds 
Please heal my heart so that I can smile even a little 
Helpless with pain lasting 
Pull lightly on the pillow in my arms 
Each such thorns to pierce my heart ends 
I screamed in the dark room 
The extreme cold will never subside 
I keep swallowing to 2, 3 pills that do not need to water 
Waking up on a morning overcast and cold 
And so, I ho 
I did not stop to think about whether he himself is tormented 
Single dose for the moment I can only be me 
I guess that's the story we have come to an end 
Tears flowed again ...

I opened the door, the smell of old stormed into my nose makes me slightly uncomfortable. Come back here then. I smiled sadly, my house ... 
I went into watching it .. house has not changed much except that it is slightly thicker layer of dust must. Place bag on the bed, I got to sit next to the couch. I closed my eyes. The picture of him on the back. I remember him and smile ... Me ... Me the sulking at his children. Will I go on like this he can not remember me, right? 
I sighed lightly holding hands. 
"Ji Yeon ah, but what you expect, how can he remember the server. The question that was asked is Suzy Myungsoo never liked you anywhere "(verses like this is to think of Ji Yeon" 
I suppressed tears, took a deep breath, stood up to clean house. I removed each piece of white fabric covered the map name dac.Toi steps before the mirror, look at ... 
"Has this haggard rùi stars, so until then you'll be like this" 
I smiled sadly. Pull cord blinds for light enters the room 
Step up to the closet, rearranging his clothing. I took each of the construction used in the cabinet. But .. 
In the closet is a blue sweater with purple flowers are very beautiful. 
Is not the shirt I bought Myungsoo's 18 th birthday or what?? Shirt I hugged the inside 
That hurts! Bleeding and my heart breaks vun.Myungsoo ah! I miss you too! How do you forget your new here? Do not torment my heart is not anymore? 
I cried, tears rolling down her cheeks. Tears just flowed unconsciously not hold back. A feeling of dizziness and shortness of breath struck me. I reached for the bag and took out a bottle of red. I just nhuot 3.4 tablet that does not need water. 
And so I ho.Mac for sore throats, despite the bitter medicine to each of necrosis, despite himself tormented by deadly disease I still remember he is always been reliable ay.Toi bed. Roi.Toi tears come to eyes closed ... forgot to ... 
-Flashback- 
Jiyeon 8 years old: 
- Yeonnie, here you go - my mother held my hand pulled me into the white mansion. 
I walked into the house nha.Mot beautiful woman rubs my head said: 
- Good evening Ji Yeon. Uncle Pak Ha Eun, a close friend of my mother. 
Then the doctor pulls a pretty cute boy in front of me. That boy put his hand to me a strawberry lollipop and smiled: 
- Yeonnie Hi, You are so kute . I'm Myungsoo
I then received a lollipop with his big smile, a smile shining 
- Thanks, Myungsoo 
2 years later: 
My mother died in a traffic accident. 1 month later my father also died of his heart disease. they are gone leaving me alone 
During the funeral, I did not cry a tear fall. I repressed the pain of aching hearts. They show, the kids talked me disloyalty, heartlessness, Despite What do they say I do not care. Because I made ​​a promise to my father ... 
"Yeonnie, if dad took me stop crying. Strong memory I have not" 
Suddenly a hand grabbed my arm pulled out. I turned to look at the stars Myungsoo? I jerked my hand out of his hands. But then he hugged me and whispered: 
- Yeoonie ah, I know you cry sad but do not hold your eyes tingle do 
I cried. Tears kept rolling down her cheeks. Crying until I khii my eyes fade away and turned black. I fainted. I'm so tired then, no longer strong enough to power more. 
I woke up, that is beside Myungsoo. He hugged me sleep soundly. I brushed his hand up and down the steps. My mother saw him they said: 
- Yeonnie, doctors need to talk to you. 
I walked down to sit beside her uncle. He's embraced me and said: 
- Yeonnie, this quartet doctors would rather take care of my parents grandchildren. Is not? 
I hesitated a moment, then nodded slightly. 
And so my love for Myungsoo to have grown over the years, but perhaps too much so injured or childishness not big so I did not realize it 
In Ji Yeon, Myungsoo 18 years: 
- Myungsoo ah, waiting for her - I run by him. Then ... 
Ram ... 
Because so fast, I did hit a guy. Legs feet hit the ground it started bleeding. Myungsoo ran back, pulled me up and yelled: 
- Luv, What are your walking style. - Myungsoo shouted angry I 
- Why not wait Yeonnie Myungsoo but-I say tear 
Myungsoo sighed and then picked up my scholarship, despite my claim down flap 
- Yah, I do not want to be Myungsoo fan of stoning him where, for himself - I hope angry bite on her arm, causing a deep wound in the arm that clearly 
Myungsoo angry dug up my made ​​me squeal pain ... 
After 15 minutes of arguing the case in court and he picked me up in class. At that moment a beautiful little girl standing in front of my class. 
In her hand was a huge box of chocolates. She was carried back to Myungsoo and I put that box for Myungsoo did not dare raise his head said: 
- Myungsoo oppa, I'm Bea Suzy 10 E class, I like you. You can make your boyfriend is not?? - She looked Myungsoo with pleading eyes. 
Outside students stood outside of watching a full confession. Myungsoo he glanced at me behind his back. I felt a bit uncomfortable seeing that she confessed to him and his smile so I quietly hugged his neck and whispered into his ear with a little sarcasm and jealousy phase: 
- Chang flashed 
He laughed when he heard my words and say 
-.

- Okay - He replied Suzy 
Squeeze hands down I slip to the ground. I stood up and turned away to hide the shock and a few tears. I brushed the tears away and looked at him he smiled slightly: 
- I'm out for a bit 
I'm running. Go anywhere in the world is just out that is. I do not understand why when I heard he agreed to hear a small reef at heart. Both of my lost strength falls to the ground Squeeze. Now waiting for his answer I was hoping for ... well not have hope that he will not agree. I am still running ... and running for acute pain in my heart eased. 
I ran to the terrace railing so I sat on the cold winds blow to the sadness go away. But apparently no longer hold back my tears began to fall. I cried until my eyes swelled up again ... Until ... put a towel in front of me. I turned to look at ... 
- Who are you? 
He smiled at me, a smile shines like the sun. 
- I'm Yoo Seung Ho - Seung Ho Saying give me a towel. - If you do not have to cry alone sad 
- Why - I ask mine cycle. 
- Because no one is around, we will feel very lonely. When I lost my parents were very sad and lonely. The pain that big. He could not understand where - Seung Ho said as he looked up at the sky to stop the tears flowing. 
- I understand that ... my parents died when I was young and ... 
Seung Ho said he heard me dumbfounded surprise turned to look at me for a long time. Then I turned to tapping his nose, pouting sarcastically: 
- Yoo Seung-ho he was a young man 
His face was flushed angry, turned sharply pinched my chubby cheeks: 
- Park Ji Yeon right he is too fat and 
I gently brushed his hand off his eyes asked: 
- Yah, I do not beo.Tai do you know my name? Was he likes me too so go find out, right? I know that - I hand his chin seemed knowledgeable 
"Glasses" 
- You're an idiot. I know that by looking name tag on his shirt only. But one that goes like idiots like him but 
And the dialogue was characterized baby continues ... 
But there is one thing we do not know is ... 
My dialogue and Seung Ho ... 
"He" had witnessed the conversation from start to finish 
I walked into class, Myungsoo turned to look at me with expressionless eyes and said: 
- It's about how you feel? 
- What is it? - I turned his gaze 
- On his consent was - he snapped 
- ... 
I was silent now I'm really confused. How's this? My heart just ached to time, I'm face down on the table. Close your eyes ... but I heard Myungsoo whispered to me: 
"Park Ji Yeon, you're a fool"

From that day, I and Myungsoo relationship gradually separated. But one thing that me and him do not realize that ... 
We are very painful. The pain of it like rubbing salt into the heart of our bleeding. My heart sharp pain every time he saw and Suzy together. The more pain, the more I do not have the courage to accept the truth ... And I hide it. Myungsoo I avoid as much as possible, I hold on Seung-ho as a lifesaver. I'm not bad. But I did not know that the more I do, the more that things become more confusing. Lately I feel my health is not good. There are still more or nosebleeds. But strange thing is bleeding for a long and hard winter ... I do not understand why so longer shelf 
............... 
...... 
Future pain struck .... 
Does happiness will come back ........ 
.............. 
************************************************* 
I woke up after a long dream. In which I see him, please let me disengage. 
"My heart is not going to take it anymore ... then ... please ... 
I feel pain to die, but why are you still thinking about him. For me he is the only remedy. But and then I think things will pass and I cried. And then I cried. The cold wraps to marry you. I can not bear it anymore, I miss you too ... " 
I hold the phone, open the phone book and find a name ... Kim Myungsoo 
Tut ... tut ... 
The prolonged the tone does not stop ... please return the phone to just once 
Myungsoo Perhaps he will never answer where ph .... 
But Myungsoo Then pick up the phone ... 
- Yeoboseyo, 
- ... 
- Who is it?? 
- .... 
- .... 
- Yeonnie, right?? 
- ... 
- Yeonnie ah, where are you? Please go back to your side is not. Do not suffer alone like that. 
- .... 
- Yeonnie, return to myself, I can not live without him is. - I hear he gradually thickens anhydrous perhaps whether he was crying, my tears began to fall again and 
-I went looking for him for a long time. You ... Why suffer alone right? What an idiot. Why not to protect themselves but to protect him - he would go screaming voice communications

I cried ... he cried. Although the phone only lasted sobs but we can understand that, "he or she" is very painful " 
... 
I went to bed. 
Go to the bathroom ... look in the mirror, I sighed 
I turned to the side, grabbed bottles Emotion (do not know whether or not cut, but also too little wind) 
Myungsoo raw perfume .... remember ...... this pain ... 
-Flashback- 
Recently I felt a little headache and shortness of breath. But I do not care, the physical pain of this star can be compared to the pain that I suffered heart chu.Toi smiled sadly. I was a stupid child. 
Today is my birthday - Park Ji Yeon: 
Myungsoo went ahead and, perhaps to catch him and Suzy. He probably forgot today whether 
I go to school and see Seung Ho he stood in front of my class, on his hands is a very big pink gift box. I smiled and waved at him. 
- Welcome Seung Ho, that * only * Give your gift box, huh? 
- UMH, This I Give You 
- So tonight attended his birthday offline 
- ............ 
- ........ 
All that day, I received a lot of greetings and my desk drawer crammed with gifts. But there is a still nowhere in sight ... 
Suddenly my phone vibrated incessantly 
There is a new message from Suzy .... ...

"Myungsoo oppa will not attend a birthday party of her way. Do not wait to do. He's mine " 
"Really?? Myungsoo, he will surely come "

I immediately shot back a message. I put all my faith in this message 
Thought he would not betray his message right where Myungsoo 
But then ... 
8am ... 
9 ... 
11 .... 
He does not have to ... Is he not right how .... 
The party ended a long time ago ... 
I walked out the door, looking out the window slightly open. Mostly cloudy true today, looks like going to rain. There is not a star at all. 
I suddenly saw two people standing in front of the ball. Who is that? Between this night of night. 
I strained my eyes to see clearly ... As Myungsoo Bae Suzy star ... and more 
I was shocked ... I've lost ... so funny 
Knowing that he could not beat that .... just keep crashing into trust and then be disappointed this here 
.. 
..

Cause you are my destiny ..... 
Life for him when he was just beginning to find them. Matter wherever you are in, or in any century, he still will find you .. Because I love for you is endless ...

Dose painkiller for me to win? 
When I found the peace? 
When the sun lit up again? 
Parting Where it will take us? 
Or become dull pain until death? 
I choked breath 
Time did not heal the wounds 
Please heal my heart so that I can smile even a little 
Helpless with pain lasting 
Pull lightly on the pillow in my arms 
Each such thorns to pierce my heart ends 
I screamed in the dark room 
The extreme cold will never subside 
I keep swallowing to 2, 3 pills that do not need to water 
Waking up on a morning overcast and cold 
And so, I ho 
I did not stop to think about whether he himself is tormented 
Single dose for the moment I can only be me 
I guess that's the story we have come to an end 
Tears flowed again ... [

I woke up after a long dream. In which I see him, please let me disengage. 
"My heart is not going to take it anymore ... then ... please ... 
I feel pain to die, but why are you still thinking about him. For me he is the only remedy. But and then I think things will pass and I cried. And then I cried. The cold wraps to marry you. I can not bear it anymore, I miss you too ... " 
I hold the phone, open the phone book and find a name ... Kim Myungsoo 
Tut ... tut ... 
The prolonged the tone does not stop ... please return the phone to just once 
Myungsoo Perhaps he will never answer where ph .... 
But Myungsoo Then pick up the phone ... 
- Yeoboseyo, 
- ... 
- Who is it?? 
- .... 
- .... 
- Yeonnie, right?? 
- ... 
- Yeonnie ah, where are you? Please go back to your side is not. Do not suffer alone like that. 
- .... 
- Yeonnie, return to myself, I can not live without him is. - I hear he gradually thickens anhydrous perhaps whether he was crying, my tears began to fall again and 
-I went looking for him for a long time. You ... Why suffer alone right? What an idiot. Why not to protect themselves but to protect him - he would go screaming voice communications

I cried ... he cried. Although the phone only lasted sobs but we can understand that, "he or she" is very painful " 
... 
I went to bed. 
Go to the bathroom ... look in the mirror, I sighed 
I turned to the side, grabbed bottles Emotion (do not know whether or not cut, but also too little wind) 
Myungsoo raw perfume .... remember ...... this pain ... 
-Flashback- 
Recently I felt a little headache and shortness of breath. But I do not care, the physical pain of this star can be compared to the pain that I suffered heart chu.Toi smiled sadly. I was a stupid child. 
Today is my birthday - Park Ji Yeon: 
Myungsoo went ahead and, perhaps to catch him and Suzy. He probably forgot today whether 
I go to school and see Seung Ho he stood in front of my class, on his hands is a very big pink gift box. I smiled and waved at him. 
- Welcome Seung Ho, that * only * Give your gift box, huh? 
- UMH, This I Give You 
- So tonight attended his birthday offline 
- ............ 
- ........ 
All that day, I received a lot of greetings and my desk drawer crammed with gifts. But there is a still nowhere in sight ... 
Suddenly my phone vibrated incessantly 
There is a new message from Suzy .... ...

"Myungsoo oppa will not attend a birthday party of her way. Do not wait to do. He's mine " 
"Really?? Myungsoo, he will surely come "

I immediately shot back a message. I put all my faith in this message 
Thought he would not betray his message right where Myungsoo 
But then ... 
8am ... 
9 ... 
11 .... 
He does not have to ... Is he not right how .... 
The party ended a long time ago ... 
I walked out the door, looking out the window slightly open. Mostly cloudy true today, looks like going to rain. There is not a star at all. 
I suddenly saw two people standing in front of the ball. Who is that? Between this night of night. 
I strained my eyes to see clearly ... As Myungsoo Bae Suzy star ... and more 
I was shocked ... I've lost ... so funny 
Knowing that he could not beat that .... just keep crashing into trust and then be disappointed this here. He approached me pull my fist into the house: 
- Yeonnie why not in the house? It's going to rain and that 
I shook his hand out, looking up at him with tears in his eyes: 
- Why do not you today to attend his birthday. 
He did not reply gave me an open pocket perfume smells quite pleasant 
- This is your birthday present ... I'm sorry

I cried tears were streaming out of smart mi. Pain too. I put my hands clutching my chest to prevent bleeding heart. My breathing became very difficult, I try to inhale much air as possible. I said in a voice choked: 
- Do not have to say sorry again. I'm tired of it. I was no longer important to him or what. He abandoned her in the last days brat just because I can accept but why both he and his birthday ... I do not mean with his stars. With him is what I'm invisible - Tears rolled down my cheeks. - Kim Myungsoo do you think his feelings are not so. If he did so, - I took the bottle he gave hurled to the floor - we do not see each other anymore. If you have just expressed is not known each other. So I will leave the house ... Okay 
He did not say anything, but I noticed his hands clenched together. So clearly then. 
I turned to run away, then he put his hand gripped my hand cause my arm due to 
- Where are you going? It was dark so they go - He's a little more intense, so dark I could not see clearly but I saw his eyes red and watery eyes, hoarse voice and the 
- Go to where exemption is also nowhere without you 
I scooped up and ran his hand out. Even the darkness is frightening 
whatsoever. Despite the cold wraps me. Despite sore throat 
and respiration progressively more difficult. Despite the headaches pounding thick 
vo.Toi still run ... run ... until forever 
cough to me. I stopped when I cough, I feel there is a 
viscous liquid and temper any movement out of the throat. sharp pain in my head. 
Then I passed out 
in the cold night ... no one is around 
The next morning: 
I woke up with a pounding head aches. 
Looking around that poison a pure white and distinctive puffs. I 
frowned slightly. I'm in the hospital stars. Go to see the phone 
I was put on the table. I grabbed it. Open phone: 50 missed from the 
Myungsoo, Seung Ho 81 calls and 112 calls from Hyomin (friend 
of me). 
"How to" 
A doctor entered the 
- Good night, Ji Yeon-ssi, I have something to tell you 
- Deh-i-said fear. Why did the doctor wants to talk to me anyway 
- Ms. Park, lately she has felt uncomfortable anywhere? 
- Deh? Lately I or shortness of breath, very interesting and have a feeling there is something a little fishy concentration spilled from his throat - I said while crying 
I am sick at that star. Why the symptoms that made ​​me think of a deadly disease 
- Ji Yeon-ssi, yesterday when we took her to the hospital, I was diagnosed with and care for her and I have drawn the conclusion Ji Yeon - ssi she was terminal brain cancer. But her condition is not serious to the stage so now she can to make hospital .... 
I was shocked. I do not want to cover your ears to hear it. This is not true. Late stage cancer. Something that I was going to die but stars. It can not be. I made ​​you his hair messing it all up. What treatment to be okay, it will die again. Now it was too painful, but living to do. 
I thought then grabbed the phone and ran out of the hospital. 
Arriving home, I immediately opened the door to see Myungsoo sat on the living room couch. He did not go to school stars? 
I glide through the room, he stepped up. But I did not turn to look and not see his eyes, how sad. I was cleaning out room furniture, his clothes into the suitcase and brought the house down. 
I pulled the suitcase walking towards the gate. Myungsoo pulled me very angry voice asked: 
- He left to go? Did you know that last night I did not go looking for you, huh?? - He shouted, his eyes became angry and tears ... 
- He's going to find me ... all night ... OMG. He does not so stupid - I looked into his eyes that hides a huge pain 
- You have not answered my question. He left to go. You want her to worry about, here 
I brushed his hand out, compressing the tears back at his crooked smile: 
- Where are my rights. Kota related to him. He worries me stars. ridiculous. person you like is not Suzy Bae Park Ji Yeon 
I turned to run away really fast, but I have a hug from behind. That's Myungsoo 
- Toys ngoc.Cau not related to me?? Why I was not interested in him instead. Someone you love is Park Ji Yeon Bae Suzy not 
I was silent I did not say anything he likes stars. No ... no, he just can not pity myself. He did it just because that is outdated? He did it just because I do not want to go right. how can you be okay. Even if it is true, all is too late. All was too late ... 
I run away, do not turn round to stay with a man that laments the end .... 
2 weeks later: 
I hold the phone, call Hyomin 
- Yeoboseyo 
- Minnie, I Ji Yeon here 
- Yeonnie ah, where are you. You know yourself and how people worry or not? 
- ... 
- You do not want to say also. But I want to tell you this. Myungsoo, he disappeared from him as he frantically looking for him. He plunged into madness ... alcohol and cigarettes .. Hic ... hic. He's no longer him anymore ... He became cold and cynical world does not care about people around .... He always called his name ... in his sleep or while awake. Yeonnie ah, he loves you. Park Ji Yeon Kim Myungsoo love. I told him he was sick of it. So do not hide anymore ... I know you love Myungsoo that have not 
"Titus ... Titus" 
I turned off the phone ... do not want to hear anymore ... please leave the life of me, Myungsoo

************************************************** ******* 
I put my plate on the table. Yah! Looks really good eye. I sat down with a beautiful white gown, bent down and sniffed the aroma of the dish. Thom truth. I prepared this meal because the doctor said that my condition worsened. I want to eat delicious before he died. 
Suddenly struck cough it back to me. My throat is sore and pain in my head. Something fishy surge levels to jail throat. I lost all my strength cling firmly to the table to sit down, but then I fell to the ground Squeeze. 
A few drops of blood fall and stick to my white dress. Blood ... 
I spread his palm and looked down at the floor ... 
Blood smeared on my hands and smeared on the floor at all. Blood flow ... 
I tried to stand up and push the plate down 
"Zhuang", "Zhuang" 
The plate and break down food, food smeared on the floor. I went out and picked up the bottle and threw it in front of the mirror. The mirror cracked down .... What painkillers but ... but ... what medicine is all a lie ... I'm not sick or what ... do not have the blood still flowing or what ... 
I plopped to the ground and ... smiled. My breath becoming hurry. Thoracic softly to me like someone stole the air so. I feel dizzy, lightheaded ... Blood flows 
"Myungsoo ah! so until then ... maybe I will not see you anymore DC .. Goodbye " 
My eyes would fade away before dinner, I fell to the ground 
"Ram" 
And a familiar arms hugged toiVa subconsciously I hear people say that " 
- Park Ji Yeon just wake up, I love you ... love Park Ji Yeon Kim Myungsoo .. 
................................. 
Now Ji unconscious so I will tell the dentist 
Myungsoo carried Ji Yeon and emergency room ...

- Doctor, he's doing? - Myungsoo doctor with white face. I'm very worried for Ji yeon 
- We have new capacity measures and successful surgical happen but ... - The doctor stopped him with his eyes looked worried - be patient coma. Do not know never regained consciousness 
........................................... 
2 months later: 
- Yeonnie, I visited him here - Seung Ho placed a bouquet on the edge Ji Yeon 
Then turned Seung asked Myungsoo 
- He has not regained consciousness it?

Myungsoo shook his head. I do not want to say this at all. All this time he has struggled to find Ji Yeon, but when found, and she is also pitiful at best. When he entered the house through the door - her old house, he saw her lying in a pool of blood, the dishes are shattered. She's distressed stars. So why do not you come back to him but to suffer alone. Heart pains when he thought she would live like? Suffering like? How to cope with illness? British felt remorse when she has pain. He sighed. Ji Yeon fun old days where innocence and that now only a dormant Ji Yeon, unmoved and cold. But then his thoughts terminated by cries 
"Titus," "Titus," "Titus" 
Seung Ho panic turned to look at him and ran off to find a doctor. Her heart rate is decreasing. Doctors have used electric shocks, but does not seem to work. The doctor looked at him Myungsoo sympathetic eye and went out of the room. Myungsoo walked wobbly steps (due to shock) and placed next to Ji Yeon Ji Yeon his lips. 
- Ji Yeon, please wake up, I love you 
Some tears, a broken heart .... 
A man about to revive ... 
"Titus," "Titus," "Titus" 
- This Myungsoo, Ji Yeon beating heart back then - glad Seung Ho tapped on Myungsoo 
Myungsoo looked down at Ji Yeon and ... 
Her hand is moving ...