Listen to: Beast's Clenching a Tight Fist

Clenching a tight fist

I could only stare at your back view as you left me.

Tears blurred my vision, but, no, I couldn’t cry.

I was a man.

A man doesn’t cry, easily.

But, this wasn’t just any other time.

I love you, I really do.

You once told me that you would love me forever.

That I couldn’t leave you no matter what.

But, right now, you are the one that has left.

We can’t be together anymore.

Those words that came out from your cold lips.

Broke my heart.

Piece by piece.

I clenched my fist tight as you started disappearing from my view.

There was nothing I could do, except to clench my fist tightly

To stop the tears from flowing out.

How I wish this was just a dream.

A nightmare.

That I would wake up from and find you sleeping beside me.

But, I know this is the reality.

For once, I wish I could cry out loud.

Like a child.

You’ll never know how I feel the moment you told me those words.

We can’t be together anymore.

It tore my heart apart.

Emptiness filled in instead.

We were once so in love.

Where did the old you go to?

The one who promised we’ll be together forever.

One by one, my fingers curled up.

Into a fist.

I smiled at you,

While holding back the tears.

It’s okay. Just go now, quickly. Goodbye.

Those words escaped my lips when all I wanted was for you to stay.

Holding my fist, all I felt was pain.

In my heart.

You were my life.

My everything.

Now, that you’re gone,

I don’t know what to do anymore.

I wish I could cry it all out.

I wish I could let the tears flow freely.

But, all I could do,

Was to hold on to my clenching fist.

We can live apart.

I can say goodbye.

But, I know, I’m only lying to myself.

How can I live without you?

You were all I had.

You were my life.

How can I live when my life is gone?

I could only hold on to my tightly clenched fist.

As the first drop of the many tears,

Rolled down my cheek.

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