Dear Jessica,

I’m sorry.

I tried to hold my tears back, but I guess I'm too weak that I failed to do so.  

Is there any possible way I could get myself out from where I am right now? I’m tired. I’m so tired to cry every single minute I see your face in my head. I have never felt such a horrible pain in my life. Never even imagined myself crying this way.

Krystal handed me your diary today. I wanted to keep it without having to read through the pages but I have no such luck.

I read everything.

I’m sorry. The pages are all wet now. I’m sorry, Jessica. I’m so weak.

The moment you left me, I became broken. I was no longer Taeyeon without Jessica to complete me. I needed my other half, my best friend, the love of my life. I needed that one person who made me the person I was.

I needed you.

The concept of me without you is so foreign, so new, and I don’t like it.

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