A/N: Please listen to the song My Heaven by Big Bang

 

Love you boy only you are MY HEAVEN :>

 

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“I will always love you, FOREVER”

 

 

I remember what he always says but I didn’t give any response every time he would say that.

 

KAI.

 

He’s my boyfriend.

 

 

 

My first love.

 

 

 

I never thought that we’ll actually end up together.

 

He’s a type of nerdy guy.

 

His life is perfect.

 

A very good son and friend.

 

I don’t really know what he likes about me.

 

 

I’m an easy go lucky girl.

 

I’m a bipolar person.

 

There are so many things I’m not sure of.

 

I’m arrogant and I’m a .

 

Being mean is my hobby. I don’t know. I just easily got irritated with people around me.

 

And even to him.

 

 

I don’t really like him. But he always says that he loves my smile.

 

 

 

_Happiness_

 

 

Every time he would say that, I feel really happy. Maybe because even my friends don’t say those things. From one point in my life, I feel appreciated by someone.

 

At first, I don’t like him to go near me. I don’t want to be “friends” with some nerdy guy.

 

 

But then again, I feel really guilty because he’s so nice to me.

 

We became eventually friends after all.

 

Well, this is the best part of me. I’m a very loyal person. I only befriend someone if i like him/her and if I want him/her to stay in my life for a long time. I don’t get friends just to have one. I choose my friends.

 

 

 

Then after a year, we became couple.

 

It’s really not what I imagine.

 

Things just went smoothly between us.

 

He’s not just like my flings before.

 

I just came to like him.

 

To LOVE HIM.

 

He shifted his course for me so that he can help me with studies.

 

His parents we’re first against it but then they agreed. They’re wonderful people.

 

He’ll give me flowers and a letter every monthsary.

 

I’m so lucky to have him.

 

A perfect man.

 

We’re in a relationship for two years when something terrible happen….

 

 

_Sadness_

 

 

My mom and dad had an accident. I am the only daughter and I’m left alone.

 

That time, I don’t really know what to do with my life.

 

How will I start when my inspiration of striving hard is gone?

 

Mom is very loving. She’s busy but she makes sure that she’ll go home right after work to prepare our dinner.

 

Dad is very supportive. Even though, I’m the only child he’s not that over-protective either a spoiler. He’s a very good man.

 

Losing two people is really hard.

 

I don’t know where to start.

 

KAI is always there for me. But I will just ignore him. I don’t feel like talking to him.

 

He’ll just say that it’s God’s will and I’m sick and tired of all those damn things.

 

 

_Tears_

 

 

Moving on.

 

Is not a simple word.

 

BUT I survived. I sacrificed my relationship with KAI. I thought that I really need some time alone.

 

JUST ALONE.

 

Every night, tears are running down.

 

Why does it have to be so hard?

 

What is really the difference between life and death?

 

coz I feel like I’m dying right now.

 

 

_Sky_

 

 

Months flew by. Me and Kai rarely saw each other.

 

I heard he found some new friends, other than her fellow nerdy buddies.

 

He’s kind of popular because he excels mostly to his subjects and he’s totally good looking.

 

I know we haven’t talked to each other much but I think this would be the best time to fix some things between us.

 

I never heard he dates someone so I’m sure of that he still likes me.

 

I HOPE SO. CAUSE I STILL LOVE HIM.

 

And delete the part that we end our relationship, I just said, “Stay away from me please. I want to be alone.” DRAMATIC ISN’T IT?

 

I approach him when he’s about to go to his room.

 

“Kai!” I smiled. Luckily, he smiled back.

 

“Glad that you’re okay. I thought you would never talk to me again.” He suddenly hugs me and I can sense that he’s crying.

 

“You never know how much I missed you. I try very hard to control my emotions cause you said you need sometime alone. My dad said I have to let you think those things alone. At first I was hesitant but then I decided to let you move on alone. I was really afraid that you may not need me anymore. Thank you so much. Thank you.”

 

I feel his hug and gave a smack on his lips. I’m so happy.

 

“Oh! You have a class right? Uhm, let’s just meet after your class.”

 

“Oh okay. Let’s meet at EXO cafe. Are you free?”

 

“Yep Kai. My class will start 1PM so we’ll meet by 11AM?’

 

“Okay. Wait for me.”

 

He waves his wand and walk away.

 

I turn around and just a few seconds I felt that there’s someone back hugging me.

 

“I LOVE YOU”

 

I was damn speechless. It was something really sweet.

 

‘I lo—- ” I was about to reply but he already run back to his room.

 

I just feel so happy :)

 

 

_Stars_

 

 

 

EXO CAFE. 11AM.

 

The interior of this cafe is really nice it feels like I am in a paradise.

 

I’m waiting for Kai and he said he’s going to be late by 10 minutes.

 

Exo cafe is just outside our university and usually many students must be right here right now but today, there are none.

 

I wonder why.

 

20 minutes after, KAI is still not around.

 

I called him.

 

“Kai, where are you?” I am worried!

 

“I’m coming..”

 

“Okay. Don’t make me wait. You know how much I hate it.”

 

“Haha.Okay babe.”

 

BORED.

 

The manager then approached me and told me to look at the sky.

 

I went outside the cafe and take a look of it. I was shocked and surprised.

 

“I LOVE YOU” banner is hanging in the jet plane.

 

“YANNI!”

 

That voice is familiar. I look at him.

 

He’s at the other side of the road holding a flower and a huge card. :)

 

He’s the sweetest man alive.

 

“Kai! What’s this?” I giggled and smiled. I never felt this kind of feeling for about five months.

 

“Stop smiling!” Kai is the one eye-smiiling

 

“WHY?” I pout.

 

“I’m falling even more in love with you!”

 

“Is that bad?” I shout.

 

Cars passing by.

 

He’s waiting for the green light.

 

“No. It actually feels great.” he laughs

 

“Come on. I’m starving.” I wave my hand and asking him to go.

 

RED LIGHT

 

I smiled.

 

He’s now at the middle of the road when a car suddenly passed by.

 

 

_My Heaven_

 

 

LOUD NOISE.

 

 

The moment is so numbing.

 

I don’t hear anything anymore.

 

It feels like my world stops.

 

My knees are trembling.

 

My hands are sweating.

 

And tears are falling.

 

RUN.

 

I have to run to him.

 

I fail.

 

 

I run again and I am now in front of him.

 

 

 

My hands are shaking.

 

 

My voice ain’t coming back.

 

 

People are gathering.

 

 

Finally, I get back to my senses.

 

 

I shouted, “KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!” I hold him tightly.

 

I kiss him.

 

I hold him very tight.

 

I am crying. Crying like a lost child.

 

It’s getting hard to breathe. WHAT WILL I DO NOW?

 

“KAAAAAIIIIII! COME ON!” I can’t stop crying.

 

“YANNI”

 

“Kai, ohmygod. Don’t say anything. We’re going now to the hospital.” My voice is shaky. It’a getting hard to breathe.

 

“Smile. Don’t cry.”

 

“Promise me you won’t die. Kai, here’s the ambulance!”

 

“I LOVE YOU.”

 

AND WITH THAT

 

I LOST MY HEAVEN….

 

 

KAI, I CAN’T BREATHE. I THINK I’M GOING TO DIE. AND I’M REALLY HAPPY TO DIE SO THAT I CAN SEE YOU. I DON’T THINK I HAVE TO CONTINUE THIS AWFUL LIFE OF MINE WITHOUT YOU. PLEASE, COME BACK AND TELL ME THAT IT WAS JUST A DREAM. IT WAS JUST A NIGHTMARE! PLEASE…

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24/ 7, My Heaven

 

It’s the truth if I say you are my eternal lover

Every second pass by like a wind

I never knew that love could come and go just like that

I waited for you everyday and night in my dreams

 

I thought that you would be with me til tomorrow but now it’s gone

Even though we have great times together. Why have you gone?

Love has always failed to grab my hands,

I always felt it was fate

then I realize that you’re the only one in my life

 

I want to see you…

I’m waiting for you by the sea.

My feelings for you whether it’s morning, afternoon, evening

I want to see you, You are MY HEAVEN

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Sorry for the errors okay? Forgive me! Thank you for reading my story!